Dares's World

2010-12-06T22:16:00.003+08:00

最近我从你身上学会了很多东西...

因为你让我明白到想要生存下来要懂些什么...

我有你这样的"好爸爸"是否要谢谢上天吗???

最近,我明白原来我是不应该存在这个家...

发生了那么多事我真的明白了...

我真的真的明白很多事...

生存在这个家让我觉得很有压力...

让我很不安乐...

我不应该那么的信任你们...

我明白了家人的第二个意识...

2009-12-24T15:10:00.003+08:00

MISS

Miss a person but cant go find the people is really hard...
For me didn't meet or see dao you a few second will super miss,worry and nervous...
Why will like this just cause one reason...
I think you know too,cause I have say to you before...
At first I know that miss a person really very suffer when cant meet the person...
You have so miss me or not...
I really not sure...
But I hope that you have...
Miss a person really hard to desribe...
Even how miss just could bear the miss...
Need to bear the miss until how long only could meet you I really don't know...
Sometimes I really want speak loud to you that I really cant bear anymore...
I REALLY VERY MISS YOU VERY MUCH...
But I not dare to tell you cause really have no idea to solve I don't miss you...
Sometimes I also will ask myself why I so miss you...
Finally I know that I miss you is cause I LOVE YOU...
Haiz~
Say so much I also cant bear to miss you...
Haiz~
Just want say that
I MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!

2009-12-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

Heart Pain

Haiz~
One day sudden happen much things...
I cant bear it at all...
Undang exam fail...
Seem very useless cause study for much day still get those result...Hate myself...
After go midvalley alone,train delate for 1 hours...Haiz~
Super bad lucky...
Reach there really have no mood for shopping and watch movie...
Sudden when back time was happen something...
The thing let me feel sum tong,suffer,sad,cry...
I don't know want how...
Inside the train I bear to don't drop eye tail,I keep bear,keep bear,keep bear...
The eye tail was going drop on but keep cool down myself,to let myself relax...
But when think must wait until two week,until we start study only could meet and contiunes the relationship,my heart feel pain and suffer...
Two week for me was too long even two second didn't meet you...
Sudden happen those thing have many plan have to stop...
26th have to cancel,27th was the important have to cancel...
Even the 100th days too...
Haiz~After reach kajang ktm I quick walk of the ktm...
Cause I really cant bear the eye tail is droping...
While the eye tail droping,the heart also blooding...
It was very pain and suffer,how come you call me to wait for the two week until school reopen...
For me two second already was problem...
I really don't know I could bear or not...
The eye tail keep drop I feel very imcompent,I want stop at half way to contiunes cry...
But sudden going to knock by car...
But why that car don't straight knock maybe I wouldn't feel pain and suffer anymore...
I cant bear to cry and heart blooding...
But I wait until very long my daddy havent come,I havent stop cry until the nose blooding too...
Why the health also need to bring trouble for me...
I not dare told my daddy what was happen...
I just could find lisa...
Anyway thank you help and told me everything...
I think my emotions still need to control...
Much unhappy thing was happen on today...
Heart pain,suffer,blooding and so still remain...
Keep cry until non-stop...
I still could bear until so long...?

2009-12-11T22:07:00.004+08:00

SPM~

Finally going finish our SPM......
Still have one day of chiness exam,we form 5 could free already.......
Actually can't say free already is start our new war again......
This war have relationship with our future......
After SPM we still have many thing wait-ING us to do.....
After the last day exam don't know when we only could meet again......
We have our own thing need to do after that......
Much of us is prepare-ING for intake early......
Some of us is prepare-ING for work first........
Actually how was me I still don't know,have no idea at all.......
What course should I going to take.........
I never never never know it.......
Just have follow what had my daddy choose........
Many choice for me but never have one I love most..........
I was tired for exam already now giving me many choice of course that I should take one........
Really very very very tired......
Could let me rest and relax first.....????
Haiz~SPM already bring problem for me,now take course also bring problem.......
What courseould take....???
Bio-tec,business and finase,account and finase,doctor...????
Don't know......
Haiz,I think wait finish SPM only think again bah.......
Very headache and tired~

2009-10-12T20:40:00.005+08:00

10/10/2009

Cause yesterday have not mood today also same.........
HATE it~
Today already have not mood at all.......
When meet YOU some more mood down.........
YOU was very grumpy and in bad mood........
YOU was first time so grumpy to me.......
I was very shock-ING........
What was HAPPENED.....????
YOU was very scary at that time.........
I don't know want how and what should i do.......
Haiz~
Afternoon~
I was rush of time cause have many thing want to do.......
Wanted make YOU happy so think alot ideal.........
And think-ING make surpise for YOU.........
At least on 8 o'clock i done all thing........
Finally finish my surpise present........
Then wait-ING daddy back go for having dinner........
Then daddy want accompany friend and I was wait-ING my friend okay for they show.......
They have show on today........
They was very smart on dance and sing-ING.......
Finally they finish and i want to give something to people........
So told them i want walk to that people house........
But stop by them,and get they blame..........
But at least my daddy help me i done my work.........
Ermm........
Just say until this part other can told your all........
So hope YOU don't so grumpy again and in bad mood.........
So end here~

2009-10-11T22:46:00.007+08:00

9/10/2009

Today very early then wake up already........
Or else could say never sleep last night.......
Cause have no mood sleep at all......
Don't why isn't YOU unhappy so me also like this.......
But yesterday already promise teach nyin make cake......
So must attend then went for buy those all thing........
Then reach nyin's house but still need wait-ING her parent back.........
Then we could go to her aunt's house mke cake........
Then we start make cheese cake.......
It very easy to make and hold process was make by nyin herself and also her sister,nzii.......
Seem like very easy to make those cake but when the cake bake okay.........
Was very worse,not same as what i did last time.........
Seem very weird of the cake.........
Isn't the procedure wrong already...????
Where know nyin aunt's house the oven too small cant bake then we go another aunt's house......
At least we could calm down and make the second cake.........
Its was a sponge cake........
But don't know why its cant sucess at all.......
Isn't materials was wrong or procedure wrong....????
I HATE this feel.........
I LOVE make cake but when mak-ING cake time it can't sucess at all........
Haiz~
Finally have xinlu the help that cake sucess........
But i was not happy at all,cause teach people make cake can't sucess.......
But when make by myself will sucess and can eat.........
Then we wait-ING the cake bake okay and we also have make muffin......
Finally okay bak-ING,the cake and muffin very fragrant and nice to eat......
Then we decide take for lisa they and also give some to our biology tuition teacher......
After that call my cousin come fetch me back to shower and fetch xinlu to tuition........
8 o'clock start tuition until 10 o'clock.......
Back home those all cake was ate by my family......
Haiz~
I have not try the cake......
Today was happy cause make cake but also tired and the mood was not well at all......
First time make cake until like this.........
HATE those feeling........
No mood want write at all and have nothing want to share........
So end writting.......

2009-10-10T00:08:00.010+08:00

6/10/2009

Today was my birthday~
Hehe~
I was so happy~
Yesterday night have not sleep at all........
Cause my gor suddenly call me,and accompany me hold night......
Beside that,YOU also accompany me hold night......
After chat-ING with YOU then my gor was call come.........
Then hold night was no sleep chat-ING with gor.......
Then next morning need go out early cause my gang was decide go for sing k.........
Hehe~
Hold night already have many people wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY.........
So happy~cant sleep already~
Morning time~
Rush of time was didn't having breakfast then straight go to bus stop find 002 and 003......
Where know they was late than me.......
I thought i was the late ones.........
Hehe~
While wait-ING them already have 2 bus pass by........
So i decide when they come MUST blame them already........
Finally they reach,then 002 say cause of he suddenly change a PRO phone so didn't wish me last night.......
Its okay~don't worry~
After that we was reach balakong and need to change bus.......
That bus was very slow make me start feel not well.........
Finally we reach jusco cheras selatan then go for meet 004.........
Then we go to green box meet 001.......
While wait-ING for sing k time,we go for buy-ING ticket for later watch-ING movie.........
We decide watch "Where Got Ghost"........
Then we start for sing-ING song.........
From the first song until the last song also is me and 004 sing the most......
Other also don't know stay do-ING what........
Keep walk in out the room or else go for toliet or take drink-ING.......
Then when i and 004 sing-ING that "Way Back Into Love" time,the tv screen suddenly appears "HAPPY BIRTHDAY".......
I was shock-ING at there,don't know want give what respone........
Then the door suddenly open and the waiter was take-ING the birthday cake in........
Then behind the waiter was is a SCERET PRESENT---------> LISA......
I some more feel shock-ING cause doesn't have people told me..........
Then run to lisa there hug her.......
Haha~
Really very happy they give me this susprise.......
Then sing "BIRTHDAY SONG" and make wish then cut cake and eat.......
Finish that we contiunes sing-ING until finish......
MOST happy is the last song was my idol JAY CHOW's song......
Haha~
Then we go shopping and look so many nice the shirt.........
But i also must get permission from my dear designer.......
Finally reach the time start watch our movie........
Then go buy popcorn and drink.........
Then go in that cinema but just have those few line have people......
Seem so SCARY and COLD!!!!!!!!!!!
Then the hold process i keep eat-ING my popcorn and feel very cold.......
Then we keep laugh until so loud when reach the funny part........
Then the 004 was so scare when watch-ING the movie.........
She keep take her jacket and cover her eye when sit beside me.......
Then when finish that show,004 say want fast get of the cinema room.........
Cause she scare and we feel very cold..........
Then me and lisa decide want back cause have somebody promise me bring me to pasar malam at sungai long........
Then 002,003 and 004 say want buy something so left at there.........
The bus awhile then reach kajang........
So walk to mcD find that people.......
But that people say didn't go........
Haiz~
Make me feel disappointed,i already wait for long time.........
Suddenlly feel that all happy mood gone........
Then back to daddy shop went home to attend another party........
Seem like 12 o'clock then back cause have no mood happy and contiunes play-ING........
Nothing could share so end conversation.........
Just wanted thank those all wish me the friend.........
Thank your all the wish,present and susprise........
LOVE your all~Muackz~

2009-10-09T00:34:00.011+08:00

爱让人幸福..
也让人辛苦..
爱让人甜密..
也让人窒息..
爱让人回味..
也让人流泪..
爱让人心醉..
也让人心碎..
爱让人依靠
也让人煎熬..

爱上一个不该爱的人..
有罪嘛..??
等待一个不回来的心..
值得嘛..??
想念一个不爱你的人..
不累嘛..??
珍惜一个不珍惜你的人..
应该嘛..??
被伤害过的心..
会痊愈嘛..??
留在心的裂痕..
补得回嘛..??
放开手的爱..
挽得回嘛..??
被伤害以后..
会坚强嘛..??
为爱付出是伟大..
还是傻瓜..??
''我爱你''是诺言..
还是谎言..??
一段没结果的爱..
究竟该等待..
还是要放开..??

This i take from my friend blog..........
I very love she write the thing........
She write the was as same as what i was think-ING........
Don't know why nowadays feel myself very weird.......
What was happen to myself.......
What was i scare now.....???
Isn't something i have will gone later......????
I was don't know but feel very scare.........
What i want always also will gone........
That thing really very IMPORTANT for me i couldn't lost it........
I CANT lost you.......
LOVE you always......
No mood write so end conversation.......
Good night~muackz~

2009-10-08T00:02:00.008+08:00

4/10/2009

Today is xinlu's cousin little girl the birthday......
Little girl,happy birthday ya~
So we decide bring little girl to sunway lagoon cause she love sunway lagoon very much......
This decide we plan very long and also have abit bit argue before.......
Finally is go sunway lagoon........
Haiz~
Must early wake up again on holiday..........
At holiday everyone also could late wake up but why I not.......
Holiday as same as school day early wake up........
Haiz~
I have NO ideal cause i not bear to reject a little girl the request.........
So i MUST do it cause already promise her that i will attend..........
I was very hate decide or plan when anyone birthday or else holiday wanted go where........
Cause always the plan and decide also can't come true.......
Finally this decide already come true.........
Late wake up today,when xinlu call come only know already late......
So rush of time just could fly down and shower......
Cause of rush of time so have many thing didn't take and haven't having breakfast at all.......
Haiz~
Then we need to take 2 turn of train and need to sit bus only reach there.......
Finally we reach there,then we go and find the way to sunway lagoon.....
Then we go and buy the ticket then go and change our cloth and find a loker to put our thing.......
Cause of i didn't bring my sliper then need to buy.......
Finally we can start play already.......
The little girl so happy..........
Xinlu say that her bag was water prove so could put thing into then she hold-ING the bag......
Where know that my phone and her phone was sink in water........
Can't on at all but the little girl phone could use........
Now the me don't believe water prove at all..........
At last we finish our all games then go for shower.......
After shower we went for having steambot.........
I wait-ING this day for a long time........
Hehe~
LOVE steambot so much,won't full when having steambot.......
Then finish having steambot we went for buying shirt.......
I bought 3 shirt,1 is from padini and 2 from catch up.........
3 shirt i also very love it........
Hehe~
After that,we went home.......
At ktm we was wait-ING the train and the train keep on delate.........
Make us lost patience and the little girl already very tired.......
Finally we also reach kajang.......
Then went home rest......
Today was very happy but we couldn't take any picture.........
Cause of our phone was sink in water.........
So i feel very unhappy.........
Haiz~
Feel regret at all.......
No mood already so end here.......
Good night~muackz~

2009-10-07T12:21:00.011+08:00

30/9/2009 & 1/10/2009

Happy birthday to 003 and 004.........

Sorry for the late wish to 003 and 004..........

Nowadays have no mood write blog so didn't wish your two........

Hope your two could forgive me.......

003 birthday that day was the lastday of the tiral exam.......

All of us was so excited cause after the EST exam we was freedom........

And this day we wait for long time.........

That day morning nothing surspire just 004 and 001 do something joke.......

Keep make me under control myself laugh at there........

That time the me seem like a crazy girl......

Haha~

After that started exam,exam the report is write about sleep......

So funny the report wanted we write.......

And we just know how to sleep don't know want how to write........

So that report we don't know could take how much the mark.......

Finally we finish the last exam,we was freedom now!!!!!!!!!!

Haha~

Then we decide wanted walk out the school to pizza hut..........

For celebrate 003 the birthday and give her some surprise........

But when we wanted go out time,there was that ah gui and Yu Hua Guard block-ING us........

And the gate was close........

That time 001 was started give up,and calling us don't want go out first......

But we already decide early want go out so can't give up now........

That time have some form 6 student went out of the school but the YHG was not block-ING them........
So that we thought we also could do like this......

Then me,006,007,003 and 008 was start walk out first.......

But when we walk until the gate there the YHG was shout at there........

Then we was catch by the YHG and 006 was have some quarrel with the YHG......

Wanted know what did 006 and the YHG the consevartion then go look 006 the blog......

After that,i was calling my sister come and fetch us out......

Then was my sister and the guard the consevartion.......

My sister: Saya must jumpa adik saya and bawa dia balik.

YHG: Ermm......kamu pakai sangat sexy saya takut pengetua tidak bagi kamu jumpa leh.

The YHG was looking of my sister leg......

OMG~why the YHG so 38.......

Then my sister ask again can or not then he only give us go......
Finally we reach the pizza hut there.....

Then we start older food and me and 002 was go buy cake sceretly.......

Hehe~shhhh......
Later on the thing was very excited but i was lazy to write and no mood write again.......

If wanted know the your all could looking 002,003,004,006 the blog......

I' m so sorry~

Anyway happy birthday to 003~

004,I'm so sorry cause can't help you celebrate your birthday on this year......

Hope you could forgive me.........

And i think your parent will help-ING you celebrate your birthday.......

Anyway happy birthday to 004~

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to 003 and 004,

Happy birthday to your two.

Hope your two dream come true......

Happy and smile always.......

And SPM get 11A.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~

2009-09-30T01:35:00.003+08:00

Unforgetable day~
(29/9/2009)

Today have a big big big thing make me feel very happy.......
I wouldn't forget this day.......
If was very IMPORTANT and very UNFORGETABLE day........
I very LOVE this day~
Shhhhhhhhhh.........
But i wouldn't tell-ING your all..........
Hehe~
Cause it was sceret......Haha~
Anyway i LOVE this day too much~
That thing i wouldn't forget......
I will remember FOREVER.......
LOVE IT~
My birthday was com-ING soon......
I just HOPE my birthday that day i will get what i want.......
And HOPE that people will give me some reward......
Haha~
HOPE have a UNFORGETABLE the birthday for this year........
Anyway LOVE this day.......

P/S: I was very happy so write the thing maybe got abit abnormal.......

2009-09-28T20:54:00.009+08:00

Sorry for late come the wish for my 002.......

That day(25/9/2009)is my team the 002 birthday.........
Before 002 birthday i was decide bake a birthday cake for 002.....
And that was i first time bake birthday cake for my friend.........
So very scare about that cake will very hard to eat......
But i also done that cake,and have someone telling me that easy way to bake that cake......
Cause if i follow that recipes bake sure bake until next morning........
Finally i done that cake with that new way and have a important people helping me..........
I was feel very happy because of that people help-ING me bake that cake and can't even eat that cake.........
Some more went to that house and disturb-ING that people rest........
I feel very sorry and thank to that people.......
And that time was going hurt it that people toes.......
Cause of i rush of time wanted go back and take that cake from the table never see have a knife until that cake.........
So that knife drop down that table and hurt it that people leg abit already..........
Some more wanted that people help-ING me carry that oven.......
Its was so heavy........
I'm so sorry to that people.......
Anyway,i also must thank you......
Love you so much......muackz~
The next morning 10 o'clock go fetch oo4 from supermarket.......
Cause of suddenly have someone don't want having breakfast with me..........
Haiz~
So me also didn't having breakfast then go find 004......
After that,we reach 003 the house and perpare all thing......
Then 004,003 and 008 was design put that cream and other thing on that cake.......
Finally we design finish then put into refrigerator.......
Then 1o'clock time we went to 002 house and wanted give him surpise.......
So we decide light the candle in the car but when get down from the car the fire was gone........
So that we just could light inside again.........
Then we wait-ING 002 open door for us but wait until very long.........
Some more wanted us stand under so violent the sunlight there......
We feel very hot and want die.........
Finally 002 was open that door and 002 the first feeling is shock-ING........
Haha~
He was just wake up by his's brother cause of we suddenly appear at his house.........
Then we sing birthday song to 002 and took alot of picture.......
Then we having that hand make the birthday cake together.........
After we seem like kid hold-ING the junk food and watch-ING movie.......
That was the first time we saw 002 the LADY GAGA........
Haha~
Her show was very prefect........
After that,004 wanted went home and we also don't want distrub-ING 002 rest.......
Cause he was sick.........
Today the surpise birthday was well done but i still feel unhappy.........
Cause not all of us com-ING,Haiz~
Nevermind.....hope next time we still have surpise birthday again.........
Bye~
Love your all~muackz~
Happy birthday,002~

2009-09-22T22:34:00.006+08:00

HATE IT~

I VERY HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!

WHY MUST SO RUDE????????

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?????

I HATE PEOPLE RUDE AND SOME MORE HATE MYSELF SO RUDE

WHAT GOING ON?????

WHY BE SO RUDE??????

CAN'T EVEN POLITENESS

WHAT WAS HAPPEN???????

IF HAVE SOMETHING HAPPEN ALSO NOT NEED SO RUDE

JUST POLITENESS ABIT GO AND SETTLE ALL THING

SO RUDE HAVE USE?????

NO!!!!!!!!!SOME MORE USELESS!!!!!!!

WHY LIKE THIS??????

HATE IT!!!!!!!!HATE IT VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!

DON'T EVEN TRY TO SO RUDE IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!!!!!!

ESPECIALLY I CARE THE PEOPLE!!!!!!

I DON'T WANT SO TIRED GO AND HATE PEOPLE

SO DON'T DO THAT

HOPE YOUR ALL UNDERSTAND WHAT I SAY

I'M SERIOUS

AND ALSO DON'T MAKE ME ANGRY AND BE SO RUDE

I VERY HATE IT

REMEMBER DON'T TRY TO DO

2009-09-21T16:19:00.004+08:00

HATE~

I ALREADY TELL YOUR ALL
WHY STILL WANTED WASTE MY TIMES SAY AGAIN
I WOULDN'T LIKE TO BLAME OR SCOLD YOUR ALL AT HERE
BECAUSE I WOULDN'T HAVE ANY QUANLIFICATION
AND I WOULDN'T LIKE SAY SOME MUCH AT HERE
I DOESN'T WANT TO WASTE MY TIME AND SPIRIT TO SAY TO YOUR ALL
WHAT I WANTED SAY ALREADY SAY WHEN MEET YOUR ALL TIME
WHAT SHOULD SAY AND DO I ALREADY DO
PLEASE JUST LEFT ME ALONE
PLEASE~
I VERY TIRED,LAZY,BORED,NO MOOD AT THOSE ALL THING
I WAS NOT YOUR ALL THE MEDIOCRE PERSON
I COULDN'T ALWAYS HELP YOUR ALL DO THINGS
YOUR ALL ALSO MUST DONE BY YOURSELF
I COULDN'T ALWAYS BESIDE YOUR ALL
AND THAT WAS YOUR ALL THE THINGS
I CAN'T ALWAYS DONE FOR YOUR ALL
I'M VERY SORRY~
I REALLY NEED TIME FOR CALM DOWN
I ALREADY TIRED ON DONE EVERYTHING FOR YOUR ALL
AND YOUR ALL HAVE SOME IS COLLEGE AND UNIVERSITY STUDENT
YOUR ALL ALREADY MATURE
KNOW WHAT SHOULD DONE BY YOURSELF
I JUST A SECONDARY STUDENT I WOULDN'T A GENIUS
DON'T KNOW DO COLLEGE AND UNIVERSITY THE HOMEWORK
ALWAYS NEED ME ASK MY SISTER AND COUSIN
SOME MORE LET THEM BLAME AND SCOLD
BUT I NEVER BLAME AND COMPLAIN AT FRONT OF YOUR ALL
BECAUSE OF YOUR ALL WAS MY FRIEND
I DOES WANT HAPPEN QUARREL
BUT I NOW CANT BEAR AT ALL
I'M SORRY~
AND IS YOUR ALL WANTED HAVE QUARREL WITH ME
I DON'T KNOW STILL COULD SAY WHAT
NOW WE IS FRIEND,FUTURE ALSO WAS FRIEND
I JUST WANT CALM DOWN
GIVE ME TIME
I WOULD LET EVERYTHING CHANGE FROM WORSE
AND WON'T HAVE ANYTHING HAPPEN AGAIN
HOPE YOUR ALL COULD KNOW WHAT I SAY AT THAT TIME
TIRED NOW~
SO,BYE~

2009-09-19T23:56:00.012+08:00

19/9/2009

Wake up at 6.30 a.m. in the morning........
Bacause wanted go for jogging.......
Today jogging alone,actually also very good when alone jogging........
But have a little bit rain don't know later will sick or not.......
Hehe~
Finish jogging went for shower.......
Because daddy want go out early then too rush didn't having breakfast.........
Then walk to bus stop cause they already wait at there.......
Finally bus reach then we chat-ING in the bus........
That you xian and ping zheng really very funny.......
Because of mok forget wanted stop at where and we keep on chat-ING so we over the bus stop......
Then we stop at front and walk back........
Then reach there we first go find weng han the present......
We find for so long finally find the present.......
Then go buy ping zheng present.......
His present very easy to buy so we find his present........
Then left me and mok we two the present is shoe........
The two shoe also very nice to see........
My shoe is grey colour,then mok is black........
They also say that shoe suit me but big size,but they also bought for me then mok that black shoe also very suit her.......
And we went to Chicken Rice Shop having our lunch.........
Even morning didn't having breakfast also didn't feel hungry.......
Then we go for taking photo........
WE four very funny when choose that background........
But we took the photo also very nice.......
Hehe~
Then after that we keep walk and we also went for buying shirt.......
I went to player bought a pair and a t-shirt........
Super love that player shirt and pair........
I also super love player the jacket but didn't bought........
Haiz~
Then also bought a grey t-shirt,that shirt was long and had a hat.........
Also super nice~love it too~
Later mok was very unhappy because she and me keep help they buy present and she didn't bought any shirt but i have.......
Then she say must bought only want back,we say she seem like a child.........
Haha~
Then finally she bought a t-shirt is blue colour and super suit she this chlid......
Haha~
Later that you xian what also didn't bought......
Me and mok say must he bought a shirt only can back........
HE say he want baby milo shirt and must bing bing ones........
Then we say always buy baby milo shirt then we don't let him bought........
So we say must bought something difference and special abit......
Then we call him bought a V shape t-shirt have few button at the center of the shirt.......
Some more is that shirt super suit him........
First time see he wear that type shirt me and mok think very nice.......
Then he say okay bought that shirt..........
Haha~
Finally we finish our shopping........
Because of mok want help her daddy work,you xian wanted went home prepare his thing,ping zheng wanted having dinner with parent and me also want attend dinner..........
So we went back early~Haiz~
Can't shopping~feel so boring~
Then we seperate at times square,mok went to ktm and we went to taking taxi.......
Because of outside ranniy then we took taxi back......
Cause of we first time taking taxi back from times square,we don't know need to buy taxi ticket......
Finally have a person telling us then we only know........
Funny is the taxi driver don't know want how go to kajang bus station........
OMG~is the third time taking taxi that taxi driver don't know go where i want.........
First time go to the ji wu stadium,second is midnight want back to kajang from that stadium third time is now go back to kajang from times square.........
OMG~
why so stupid?????always i taking taxi that driver also don't know go where i want.......
Actually also can't say that driver stupid cause kajang too unfamous.......
Finally that driver know how to go cause i telling her that route to kajang.......
So lucky is me not is a road blindness.......
Then we reach kajang,and alone back to daddy shop.......
Suddenly feel that the feeling very werid don't know what will happen soon.......
Feeling that something going happen on me but not sure is what.........
Feel that very scary and scare..........
Alone went to czip lee bought what my sister want but there does have.......
THen alone back again feel tired when walk and feel dizzy when walk.......
Lucky didn't fall down,cause don't know what will happen soon.........
Since i MUST go for see doctor again and having medicine again......
Haiz~HATE~
Lucky uncle come fetch me back for rest.......
Reach home then take a shower........
Later happen the thing i wouldn't want to say.......
NOTHING~
So,bye~

2009-09-19T21:56:00.006+08:00

18/9/2009

Haiz~
Really not mood write blog,do anything,or else go shopping with friends or watching movie.......
Why was like this????you already didn't bother me for long time.......
I feel very sad,sorry,unhappy and worry very much.........
I don't like now the feel very much and feel scare will lost something........
Haiz~
Yesterday go music box sing k with mok,jia ping,weng han,you xian,wai yan and chee sim........
But don't have any mood sing just keep waiting something,but at last give mok them call and sing.......
And there the air condition really very cold until we all just jump,stand up and play at there........
Finally sing until sore thost and going not more sound,cause not mood then keep shout when singing song........
Because that heart feel very pain and suffer,and morning get shock when jogging cause that feel force until myself crying until going give that car knock.......
Lucky give my jeckson gor pull back,i'm sorry i know i useless,always do something you dislike,and going give car knock........
Anyway jeckson gor thank you helping me.........
Haiz~
Later night still wanted tuition,so scare that i can't concentrate at all,and can't control my emotions and i does't have any sound.......
And from exam start that day does't sleep at all and feel very tired........
At sing k time give lisa blame awhile,she say even i feel how suffer also can't make myself until so worse,and not need cry until wanted happened accident........
She keep on blame-ING,i know myself now really very worse,she wanted me control my emotion and must think properly when action........
Say the truth not you beside me i really can't concentrate at study and can't control my emotion at all even now have lisa helping me.........
Lisa wanted me put down those all thing first,happy abit when sing.........
Then keep on sing at there and finally reach we should go back........
When going back time,i and mok decide before wanted go metro kajang the new shop buy baby milo the shirt........
The whether still remains cold and rainy same with now the mood,finally walk to metro kajang........
Go to that shop and go find that t-shirt,then mok say that blue also very suit me she also like that yellow with greee very much,then we two go for pay money........
Finally buy a new shirt again........
Hehe~
Then we wanted go back cause wanted tuition at night.......
Mok wanted go back school waiting her mum cause kajang really very traffic jam.......
Reach tuition time......
At that time still sms-ING with sifu........
That time we two happen something until we two have some quarrel......
I really don't know wanted how why keep have quarrel with people........
Why i so useless keep make quarrel with people.......
Sifu,i'm sorry,i just know bring troublesome to you and quarrel with you.......
Haiz~
Started tuition,my mood still remains and can't concentrate at all.......
When teacher give us test for that biology paper I.......
But my brain really didn't function at all keep think other........
What going on to me?????
All question doesn't have one is answers by myself.......
Keep asking people answer........why so stupid.......
At last finish tuition,my daddy come fetch me.........
Because wanted go yumcha with jeckson gor cause my daddy wanted gathering with his friend......
Just left me then call gor come accompany me cause he at school have lion dance.......
But suddenly have something then he take me go back to school.......
Night go back school really have abit difference.......
Then we go oldtown yumcha.......
At there we chat-ING many thing of sad,happy,angry.........
He keep on blame-ING me at all.......
Haiz~
Gor,sorry your sister really stupid and useless........
NOthing can do,don't know action at all just know say sorry.........
Always need you help me do anything........
I'm sorry,i'm really sorry.........
After going back to daddy there and just be stupid girl a waiting him finish......
So tired until going fall asleep at there.......
I not dare sleep at all cause scare you reply me time i didn't answer you........
Keep waiting you.......
AT last,daddy okay,go back and wanted rest early cause tomorow wanted go times square........
Okay,wanted rest and no mood.......
Ohya,tomorow kajang will very traffic jam cause tomorow is hari raya eva........
So your all decide nice before going to kajang.......
Good night~

2009-09-18T11:20:00.004+08:00

18/9/2009

Yesterday very late sleep......
Today morning wake up at 6.30.........
Because my gor finally promise me go for jogging......
He always also lie to me but today he finally come accompany me jogging.......
But wake up time feel very moody.......
Don't know why just keep look on the phone........
I still waiting someone reply me already very long still haven't reply me.......
Haiz~
Later go for jogging with jeckson gor......
He very funny,jogging also slow and tired than me.........
Me this body and health got problem also fast than him........
Nevermind,who call him long time didn't come jogging with me........
When jogging time,gor the face seem like very moody and strees on something.......
Then ask him what was going on........
He just silent at there........
Haiz~
Gor,have anything can tell me,don't keep in the heart.......
Me today also very moody,very unhappy and feel sad.......
But i still telling you what was happened........
Because even i know you couldn't help me but you will lend me your ear......
Silent at there and hear what i going to say........
And you also lend me your shoulder for crying awhile.........
I already have abit fine.......
So i hope you could tell me what was going on tonight when we go for yumcha........
Maybe me this do sister could help you some.........
Today the hold jogging just see me stay say something and cry.......
The jogging was not fun at all......
Gor,thank you lend me your ear and shoulder........
Maybe i know that i cry and just stay there wait is useless.......
You wanted me action.......
But i also must follow what that person want......
Maybe that person does want me action go and find that people........
So i just can wait.......
But i don't know my patience can wait until when.......
I only know my patience also got a limit want.....
I really hope today could receive that person the message........
I was waiting for you.......
After jogging went back home for shower......
Because later wanted went out to play.......
Started holiday,must go for fun and relax.........
Haiz~
But seem like no mood at all........
What happenend to me?????
Hey nicole,could you happy just put down those thing first.......
Go for fun first,play until happy don't keep thing those thing.......
You just think didn't action at all also useless........
Why you so useless want.........
Want that people reply you then go find that person.........
Why so useless........really is a stupid people........
Okay,no mood write at all and wanted go out......
Then,bye~

2009-09-15T22:32:00.016+08:00

What happen to me today.......

Today feel very down........
From morning until now also very down.......
Isn't because of biology exam or get blame by people.......haiz~
Why always must like this......
Exam times still feel down and feel that today the exam also will get worse result......
Today the biology exam i don't know do all even i got tips on that exam........
That paper 2 really very tough......
I already study all the tips but still don't know do.......
When take the paper i started want cry.......
But i tell myself haven't do the paper can't so fast give up.......
And can't even drop the tail.......
But when do the all question feel very tired wanted sleep......
But i know i can't sleep because promise someone won't sleep at exam.......
That paper really make me wanted cry,i really don't know want how do........
Suddenly feel very hate myself.......what also don't know.......
For this 3 paper of science i like biology very much but biology is the tough one and i lost many mark on it many question didn't do........
The physics i hate most and never read at all.......
But i know want how to answers and didn't lost many mark on it.......
Why will like this one????i like most the subject i don't know do and lost many mark but i hate most the subject i know want how to do and didn't lost many mark........
What was happen on me?????hate this feel.......
After exam want having lunch with people and later want go tuition.......
But the mood still down and don't have any apptide to eat thing and very tired.......
When having lunch didn't say anything just slient at there.........
Then sms to my friend ask them want go pasar malam tonight......
They all didn't answers me just scold and blame me.......haiz~
What going on,why blame me.......they all say don't want bother me.......
Then all also don't want reply me.......haiz~
Later go sms my cousin ask her want go pasar malam........
Because she also same me wanted relax........
But she also scold me call me stay at home.....haiz~
Why want find friend go out time all also don't want go and get blame.......
I very hate planning to go out because at last sure get blame and not one will approve......
And also tired of planning.......
Yesterday want help someone buy that muscle medicine also get blame.......
Because see that people so pain want help and feel love dearly to that people.......
Then call my daddy help me buy and i already 3 day didn't talk with my daddy.....
Yesterday just call him buy then get blame......haiz~
Haiz~always like this why i always get blame........
Mood down until don't want go out..........haiz~
Afternoon never rest before even early go back......
Just lying on the bed and the heart drop blood and tail........
Because of biology paper that time started cry lucky doesn't have anyone see.......
Oh My God.......i bear for so long the tail finally drop off.........haiz~
Don't know what how to let those down feeling disapper......
I wanted find someone lend their ear to me........
Have anyone here could help me???????haiz~
Feel tired,bored,down on everything........
Does't have any mood go and bother other thing........
I wanted to be fine as soon as could anyone help me.........

2009-09-13T23:58:00.006+08:00

Never feel regret.......

Actually i write this blog just wanted tell you i never feel regret on what i did for you........
You have ask before me whether i will feel regret on what i did on you......
I don't think that i will regret on what did i do.......
Because when i decide wanted to do something sure won't regret at all........
So i don't think you need to worry.......
Actually i wanted ask that why you will feel so nervous on i will regret......
Hope you can give me the answers.......
Since the first day say like you i won't never feel regret like on you......
And decide do those thing to you also won't feel regret.......
Once i decide the thing won't so easy regret.........
And important is those thing is do for you......
I can say you is the first one let me feel wanted do everything for you.......
And important is never feel regret.......
I just will feel happy because could do those thing for you.......
For me if what i did could let you happy then everything would be fine......
Seem you happy and happiness you want me do what also can.........
And once do it then won't regret at all.......
It could say does't have regret this word appear in my live.......
Love and does't feel regret.......

2009-09-13T23:15:00.003+08:00

Who am I.......

Excuse me,here have anyone could tell me who am I......
I really wanted know who am I.......
A people????A rubbish????An air????o else????
Who am I????myself also no sure isn't i still have any quanlification go for asking people who am I......
I feel that and also seem that i was a stupid girl......
What i wanted,what i thinking,what i doing myself also don't know i where dare go for asking people who am I and even i does't have any quanlification ask that......
Everyone even my friend,my cousin,my uncle or aunt also feel that i alive until very happy,very happiness does't have any problem in my life because they say i have a good and happiness family......
They say they very admire me because i have a very love me the daddy,got many good sister,and also brother.......
But i never think before that i have anything can let them admire me......
I have a good and happiness family then so what,its does't is mine......
What i had now also not mine,what belongs to me already gone.....
What my daddy also gone,that live with me does't was my daddy,he does't is last time very love me the daddy......
Nowadays went back just know wanted how to blame me and slap me,does't caring of me.....
I really don't know what did he thinking in his mind and also don't know he wanted what.......
What my good sister all gone......
They say very admire because i have a bigger than me than sister.......
Actually nothing can let your all admire because that does not is my sister.......
Got sister then so what,got sister just equal to does't have sister.......
Because my sister also not very like me..........
We two always quarrel when meet together.........
My cousin just only same my sister when we meet together we does't have anything wont say,sure say until crazy.......
So what they say i have a happiness family all also lie people........
What had they see from eye was incorrect.......
When really with my family only know that truth......
So i wouldn't feel happy when with my family.......
Because it will make my mood some more worse and have that all i does't want the quarrel......
I feel very tired on my family and feel bored with them.......
Even how i go and caring or good with them also wasted........
Won't have any good ending at last.......
Some more worse so i won't wanted caring and good to them anymore.......
Tha hold family good and caring me just have my aunt and cousin........
They seem like is my mother and sister......
I love them most......
Anyway i hate to answers about my family.......
Because i does't have a good family at all.......
Don't even try to ask about them........
Actually until now i wanted know who am i????
But seem like can't get any answers.......

2009-09-06T04:25:00.007+08:00

Exam day~

Haiz~this week already start exam......
And this week the exam all paper i all aso don't know do......
I already try my best go and study hard and memorize it in my brain......
But don't know why the brain blanking and very tired........
What did i memorize it the brain all also forget when i get the exam paper......
Seem like me this type stupid people call me go for memorize or remember thing sure at the end all also forget.......
This week i already sit of 3 subject and i already can know about my result for this 3 subject.......
I could know i will get a very worse result and now must start prepare thing for sleep at roadsides.........
This week i already sit for Chiness paper II,paper I,Physics paper II,paper I,paper III and Chemistry paper II,paper I and paper III.......
But in this 8 exam paper does't have 1 is i really know to do.......
All i also don't know to do even i already late sleep or didn't sleep at all try my best go and memorize it still can't answer that all question.......
My friend already try her beat teaching me chiness but i still don't know do all......
Feel like make her disappointed........I'm so sorry.......
But i still try my best do finish all the question........
And the 2nd day i was sit for Physics paper.......
Even yesterday late sleep because of wanted study what did my friend tell me......
She say exam will come out this call me go and study because she know that my physics very worse and she come for teaching me physics.......
She is the most have patience people teaching me physics.........
What she have say i also go for study and try my best memorize those all thing.......
And exam time really come out what she have telling me.......
I feel that she very smart......
But i feel that i very stupid even she tell me but i still forget what did i memorize.......
When i taking that exam paper my mind and brain is blank and shut down........
I don't know wanted put what answer on those all question........
But i try my best force myself remember all because of i don't want she feel disappointed on me........
Because the chiness paper i already make her feel disappointed don't want the 2nd time make her feel disappointed on me.......
Because she already try her best teaching me and find out what question exam going asked........
But i also feel very sorry to her.........
Sorry for you have to teaching a stupid people those all subject.......
Finally a that time i remember some of that all answer i could answer well......
Thank you,my friend~
Muackz~
The 3rd day i having the Chemistry paper.......
Also the same i don't know answer the question even i have tip and already study those all thing and didn't sleep at all......
Try my best memorize those all thing in my mind and brain........
And i some more go and teaching somebody about chemistry but don't know that people know wanted how to do.......
When reach to school still try my best memorize what did i study yesterday......
Then until i get the chemistry paper my mind and brain start blank again......
It really Oh My God......what did i study the hold night i forget all.......
I really very hate myself so stupid......
Study those all thing but still can forget it........
That time i really wanted give up don't want to do........
But can't because remember what did my daddy say if have anyone subject fail must sleep at roadsides and remember some people say before can't even try to give up because that people also won't give up for everything........
But after finish the hold week exam i have a feel is don't want to study at all......
Don't want go for exam just sleep at home better.........
Because i really don't want get worse result again........
Because really scare have 2 people will disappointed on my result.......
2 also is my important people: my daddy and you......
I really don't know want how i don't want get a worse result then i try my best go for study and memorize those important thing......
But at least all also because of my stupid brain suddenly blank forget all.......
I feel hate myself keep make people feel disappointed on me.......
I'm so sorry for those 2 people.........
Until now i still remember what did you tell me don't let give up appear in my life and my brain......
MUST do all the best can't just try at all.........
I what also remember so i do all my best don't let you feel disappointed.......
So i hear what you say i will contiunes sit for my exam until the end of the exam.......
Don't want make you feel disappointed again.......
Thank you~Muackz~

2009-09-03T01:27:00.003+08:00

1/9/2009

Monday,is the first day of the tiral SPM exam..
Today is chiness text,and i know that myself chiness is the worse one......
Even how i try my best go for remember it and study it put the all concentrate on it always can't get a good result..Haiz~
Feel so disappointed on the chiness even i is the chiness people.....
Chiness get fail and no good result i can prepare go for die.....
My daddy say before if have anyone subject fail can no need come back home.......
I already try my best do all exam paper already.......
Today that chiness paper 1 is writing essay want......
There have 5 question wanted us choose 1........
then i had choose the tittle is have house is so good......
Actually i don't wanted write this because since the thing happen i does't have house.......
And don't know house is for what.......
Just for me have a place to sleep or just for me have a place for stare blankly......
Since the thing happen already maybe have 5 or 6 years but still can't really give me feel that house the feeling or have who that are really care me......
Since the thing happen my daddy promise before me if have anything happen also won't slap me or even wanted to blame me.......
He some more promise my mummy that he won't do those thing to me......
So that i only trust my daddy follow him come back to Malaysia.......
But seem like i trust wrong people already......
Nowadays don't know happen what thing his always blame me or slap me.......
Isn't me too nice to blame or too nice to slap a????
I really don't know what his mind thinking........
I through that he is the most know clearly about me.......
But i was wrong from that day until now he still haven know clearly about his daughter.....
I feel so disappointed when he does not know clearly about me......
I think for a week see whether is me do wrong thing he start don't know clearly about me.......
But even how i think i also can't think it is my wrong.......
So that i know that i trust wrong people already......
I can't hear he say come back to Malaysia.......
He say he could give me a good house feeling......
Today i really know that i trust wrong people and take wrong tittle as my eassy......
I does't have any house,house for me really very strange.......
I started feel that i can't live with someone trick me,lie me or always take me as "boxing bag"......
I strated wanted move away from this house......
So that when i started write the essay i really don't know wanted how write and give too many false answers........
For me got house really good????
Me also don't know......
Okay tired + sleepy......
wanted go to bed......
Good night to all my dear friend......
Muackz~

2009-08-27T01:43:00.007+08:00

Dear,i'm so sorry......

Dear already 1o hours......
Please don't left me alone.....
You know that what will happen when you does not bother me.......
You know about me......
Please i really don't know what going on......
I really don't know what is happen until you don't want bother me for 10 hours already......
Now already is 1.30 before dawn,you still haven reply me any message or call.....
I don't know i find you for how many times already.......
I really don't know whether is you busy or really is me do wrong or say wrong to you......
Make you does not reply me for 10 hours already.......
I really very worry and also very scare......
I really don't know what can i do now........
I just can waiting for you reply me or call me.......
I now have a impluse wanted go your house find you......
But i know i can't so impulse say wanted find you then go find you......
So i choose for cool down and have patience for waiting you......
Dear,please i just wanted you reply me and tell me what is happen when you didn't reply me times......
You know that i very worry about you......
And i scare you just left me alone here and does't wanted bother me.......
Please,i'm very very very sorry for everythings.......
Dear,please i really very feel sorry to you.....
I not purposely wanted make you angry and feel out of sorts.......
I really don't know why my mood suddenly so bad and say wrong things already......
Please don't left me alone here and please bother me......
Dear,i'm really feel very sorry......
Please forgive me.....
I really hope have miracle that you will reply me......
I will keep on waiting for you until you reply me even didn't sleep........
Please,dear......
I'm so sorry,dear......

2009-08-27T00:44:00.003+08:00

心情一次有一次掉入谷地......

今天一早就被xx叫醒一起去跑步了.......
最近身体差和很少跑步了......
就一起去跑步了,我们也很就没有一起跑步了......
以前我们都以不同的身份一起跑步,现在我们的身份又不一样了.......
很自然的感觉也不一样了.........
但是我们还跟以前一样跑步时都爱玩,作弄人和比赛了.......
到最后我就差那一点赢他了.......
然后我们就坐着休息,那时我们聊了好多东西.......
对不起,我们可能不能像以前一样了......
因为人自然的会因一些事而改变的......
可能你会找到比我更好的吧.......
之后我们回家咯,回到家就想要看下爸有没有打给我.......
然后我才发现我的手机吊匙的熊不见了........
我很慌张的在找,我的眼泪就突然的掉出来了.......
我真的很紧张,我真的不知道要怎样......
我不能不见那个东西的,很重要的......
我紧张的样给xx看到了,他也开始慌张的问做么......
我说我的东西不见了,他也帮我找......
但还是找不到,我就一直在掉眼泪,他就一直在tAm我......
HaIz~不见了.....我不知道要怎样......
之后就太累了和被他叫到休息下......
之后醒来时已经是12点了,要出去店帮爸了......
心情还是一样还没收拾好,哭的感觉还在.......
然后就sMs找你咯......想知道你现在在做么.......
然后被你问到做么酱迟才起身......
就告诉你因为刚哭过和太累了,又去休息了......
又被你问到为何哭了,那时哭的感觉又出来了.......
告诉你因为她送我的手机吊匙不见了......
你问为何那么紧张那个吊匙,不见了就叫那个人买回给我......
我当然紧张啦,因为那个东西再买回来就没有意义了,那天她送给我的诺言和所说的话全都没有了......
就不再重要了,我紧张是因为她是我好朋友,和那个东西带着我们之间的诺言......
对不起,可能那时心情不好对你发了小小的脾气......
然后你就在tAm说你会帮我找回的......
心情才开始冷静下来,是不是因为你tAm回我才好呢........
但心情始终还是很不开心.......
然后因为我们说到一些东西......
你就从那时不再回我的mSg了......
我不知道到底是我说错东西,做错事还是你太忙了.......
我的心情又开始不稳定了,又开始紧张了,开始担心了,很着急的在找你.......
我打给你,你不接,我sMs你,你不回........
那时我很清楚的知道我又做错事了,说错话了......
我不知道要怎样很想立刻飞去找你.......
但我还是选择冷静下来等你回我......
但等着等着,我足足等了10个小时你都没回我......
我从4.30等到凌晨1.30你都没回我.......
我的心情很直接的掉进谷地了......
我现在真的不知道要怎样......
现在每个人都在睡觉而我就一直在等你回我......
可能我要等到明天早上了......
我真的希望有奇迹的出现......
我真的希望你会回我,我真的很紧张的......
真的,快点回我......
真的很对不起......
好了不写了我还要再等下去.......
等到明天早上,早上没有回等到下午,下午没有回等到晚上......
总之会等到你回我为止我才可以安心的去休息了......
好了,晚安咯......
MuAcKz~

2009-08-25T00:03:00.006+08:00

25/8/2009

Haiz~
Since i write blog until now this is the first time i write english until so moody......
Don't know why......
Actually my daddy know that i hate alone and scare alone.......
But he always also wanted me alone at home.......
Tomorrow i must alone again......
Yesterday i think i can go other people house then i not need alone at home already......
But when night time the people tell me tomorrow wanted go out with friend then can't......
Haiz~i plan okay the thing already destory already......
Now just can accept my daddy the decide alone at home......
Nowadays something happen so i must alone for everyday.......
Don't wanted how to explain the feeling........
But i still don't want at home so i go find mok ask her wanted go out or not......
But she say she tomorrow wanted go see doctor......Haiz~alone.....
Then she call me call xinlu they go out.........Haiz~not need already.......
Haiz~then go find hsin yang ask her tomorrow at home or not......
I went to her house do revision......
But she say her daddy wanted take her go singapore for 3 days.....Haiz~alone......
Weng han them all not free......Haiz~alone......
The god seem wanted me alone at home........
So i accept what the god want alone at home.......
And because of this thing quarrel with my daddy......
He know me hate alone some more wanted me alone.......
And actually have partner can accompany me that is my xx......
But my daddy bring him out already.......
So no one at home just left me and i don't know what i going to do......
Maybe just sleep until next morning don't want wake up already.......
But can't because my daddy say he will calling me every 1 hour......
Because he say he scare i do wrong thing and wanted know i have having thing or not.......
Daddy i really know you very love me but you also know i don't like alone......
You some more wanted me do dislike the thing......
Daddy i now not blame you just wanted tell you......
Me don't want alone so i keep try my best call all people see whether who at home i go their house do revision but does't have one at home......
All also wanted go out for fun......Haiz~is okay......
Then go ask my sifu for going out watch movie because yesterday wanted tuition can't accompany him.........
But he went for jian yew birthday party.....Haiz~alone.....
So finally the conclusion also is me alone at home........
Does't have a place can let me in just at home alone........
I hate alone......why always wanted me alone.......
Why suddenly the plan destroy i will feel so sad and wanted cry......
Cry for me already common at this month.....
At this month i don't know i already cry how long already until wanted how cry and cry the feel is how i also don't know already.......
Maybe already paralyzed on cry so don't that all thing......
And the tear will drop itself already so i also can't control at all......
And feel tired already i also don't want because of don't want alone and blame and quarrel with daddy or with you.......
I just wanted say out i hate alone and why must destory my plan......
But nevermind because of you wanted went out with friend and daddy wanted went out with xx.......
So i just can accept must alone at home......
And nowadays i always alone at home already so now just one day alone is okay......
Maybe next time alone will mind set in my mind and i will go for habit it......
So i now does't have any quanlification go and blame you all.....
I'm so sorry......
I think alone now must mind set in mind already........
But still feel very hate alone......
Haiz~alone.......

2009-08-23T21:53:00.014+08:00

Suddenly me so abnormal.......

Today my daddy n sister wanted me accompany them go for the book fair at KLCC......
Actually the book fair i wanted go very long time already......
Finally have people accompany me go.......
On saturday time i asked you whether wanted go but you not free then me decide don't want go already now finally my daddy n sister wanted go.......
I feel happy because can go that book fair,because i waiting it very long already......
Because i cant buy the book i wanted.......
The book import from taiwan......
Morning time i feel today will be a good day sure feel very happy......
But i'm wrong already because have someone i dislike follow us......
That time i really does't wanted go that book fair already.....
But at least i still go because my sister wanted me go.......
Okay,fine.....i hear what my sister say......
Finally reach there have many people at there already.......
Then my sister went for buy ticket because over 18th must buy ticket only can enter......
After that, i accompany my sister go for looking she wanted the book.....
We two like a noob girl walk until the end still can't find the book......
My sister really wanted kill me because i already catch cool,not well already some more wanted me accompany her walk so long.......
Then she only say we go asked stand at there the people......
I wanted kill her already now only say,and she some more wanted me helping her asked.......
She really very clever,she wanted the book call me go ask.....
Okay,i help her then go ask a guy stand at there......
When the guy turn over my here i only konw is my friend......
He already so handsome already,make me also don't know who are him......
Lucky he call my name i only know,make me so shy......
Then we keep on stay chating until his's friend keep on asking him who are me.......
Me also so shy because distrub they working.......
Then they keep call him take phone number from me,and ask some weird question.......
They ask i got boyfriend or not......feel that them so funny.......
We stand at there talk so long time already and something shy thing happen......
I suddenly shut down then going fall down lucky my friend holding me......
OMG.....really so shy because of yesterday night catch cool so only will shut down suddenly......
Today i really feel very happy and you also say me today very high when call you time......
Because of i meet a friend that we long time didn't meet and so miss him.......
I really so miss him because last time just he help me and care me so much......
Last time really can't lost of him but his family wanted move so we lost of contact......
But today the god let us meet again,me really feel very happy and high......
That's why today the me really abnormal......
But after that i know myself will won't so happy and high anymore......
Because of before that already too abnormal already so after that won't happen anymore......
And today also happen many things.......
Have some of its is i dislike,have some of its will let me feel happy........
But i also wanted control myself the emotional because i scare will happen something......
If i really didn't go and control myself......
And i still remember what you say before and what i promise you before......
Today the book fair i only konw that i could be alone for a long time even i dislike.......
The hold book fair also me alone walk and see whether what i wanted buy......
Then i walk through the language part i remember that i can buy a book of english gammar for you because you wanted to imporve.......
But even how i choose very long time still can't find a book suit for you......
And i suddenly remember you will dislike because you friend already give you......
But i still choose call for you see whether you really wanted or not......
But hear you say seem like you tired to imporve already.....
Then i choose don't want buy already.......
Later,continues walk ,i went to the taiwan import to here the book.......
Finally let me see i wanted and find it very long time the book......
The time i really feel happy and my friend also get shock i so abnormal.......
Because he really long time didn't see me don't know i change already......
He say if wanted then just buy it he say he will pay......
But my daddy don't let me buy those book.....
So i never accept he wanted to give me the book.......
But when i feel down time i saw my baby.....
My baby is my uncle the smaller daughter,that i long time didn't see the baby......
Really very miss her,see it her i faster walk front of her then hug her......
She also very happy when see it me,me tooo......
She long time didn't sms me,even she have handphone......
I tell your all something she just standard two then have phone already......
After that,she rush wanted go back,so miss her.......
Then i continues with my friend,he really very cute,funny and handsome......
Keep on make me laugh,he still remains know what i thinking.......
Suddenly let him shock still remember what i wanted and suddenly feel like not freedom.....
But its okay......we two last time was a good good friend.......
After that,my daddy say wanted buy besta......
Then go see,finally buy two of the besta,one is mine and other is my sister.......
Finish buying the besta we two still continues chating.......
That time let me meet it ah yau.....she also alnoe.....
But that time she wanted back if not sure catch her go drink coffee with my friend......
Because they two also so like drink coffee but nowadays he say no really like coffee.....
After that,my daddy say wanted go already because all also hungry.......
So is time we say good bye already,so miss him......
He promise me will come find me went out and yumcha......
Then say good bye to him went back and go for having lunch......
That time the mood still down already......
So after that the thing me also don't want say so much......
Because me also don't want those thing happen.......
Already feel very tired after going the book fair wanted rest but my daddy say later wanted went out again......
Me have no choice just can follow what my daddy say.......
Today really abnormal awhile feel very happy,very high,awhile feel very down......
Me start don't understand myself......
And start don't know wanted how maybe of heart gone.......
But i still try my best continues understand myself and go and search what i wanted......
Okay,already abnormal don't want talk some many if not later don't know what happen.....
But i already control myself won't do something wrong......
Abnormal the me really very abnormal......

2009-08-22T22:59:00.012+08:00

Tired tired tired.........

Nowadays i feel so so so tired.......
I wanted go for rest......
Wanted rest until forever......
Isn't me can sleep for forever does't wake up anymore????
I really hope that i can do it a.......
Because nowadays really many things happen suddenly.......
I feel very scare at all those things.......
Now i wanted to rest does't wanted settle those all things......
I really have think before does't wanted settle those all problem......
Wanted rest rest rest......
But i hear what you say before and remember what you say before.......
You say if i never settle those all things you wont wanted talk to me anymore......
So i choose hear what you say to me......
So that i go for settle those all problem because i know that you wanted me happy already do many things on it......
I feel very happy and touch you really wanted make me happy......
And just you can make me feel happy from that heart even the heart already gone......
Heart gone already but i still wanted you can really feel happy then you wanted me do what also can ......
Even i how try hard go for settle those all problem but still can't get that answers i wanted.....
Even i can't get the answers i wanted but i still try my best to do it.......
Finally i settle half of the problem.......
The problem have relationship with myself,my family,my friend and have relationship about i will move or not........
But i already settle half of it,but my mood still remains.......
The mood still remains moody,still so down......
This week i already cry for everyday i wanted to stop it but can't.......
But the tear still drop......drop until i don't know wanted how to cry already......
Who can help me????god????you????me????
I just wanted myself back,my mood back........
But nowadays i feel very tired and tired already don't want think too much on it.......
I just wanted rest let my mind can reset clear.......
I really very lack of sleep already.......
I always also hope can sleep very well when i lying on the bed but even i early go for sleep it still remains i also late close my eye......
Or not i close my eye for the 1 or 2 hours then wake up again.......
It still remains i have sleep also equals to i does't sleep at all......
You can help me sleep well????
How you calling me sleep early i also will hear but is the same i still lack of sleep still feel very very very tired.......
Isn't my spirit feel tired or the brain feel tired or my body feel tired a????
I just wanted know the answers.......
I really really very tired already........
When i can really go for rest????

2009-08-22T19:14:00.010+08:00

心情超糟,超dOwN,超反常,超不顺心,心也飞走的一个月.......

这个月不管做些什么都很不顺利也没有心情想要做.......
不管再怎样努力的去想办法做出来到最后还是没有结果的结束了........
这个月真的发生很多自己很不想要的事.......
这个月所发生的事已经让我担心和害怕了好久........
没有想到会在同一个时间发生.......
也没有想到会那么快就发生了.......
虽然自己已经知道会发生的但还是没有充分的心里准备......
所以一再的被那些事把自己吓得不像人.......
事情发生后好想找个可以很有耐心,很冷静的人借我他/她的耳朵.......
好让我能把心里埋藏好久的愤怒,伤心,开心,痛苦都一次过说完.......
我不会想要那人给我些建议还是什么........
我只想要那人能很有耐心和很冷静的听我说我的烦恼........
这样就够了.......好让我能把自己的心情整理好.......
我的要求应该不会过分吧......
我想了好久我最终的决定就是找你........
把我埋藏好久的烦恼说完出来,好让我的心情能够平稳下来.......
因为我相信你,信任你,重视你,知道你不会把我的事告诉别人和可以很有耐心和很冷静的听我说烦恼.......
我把所有的事都告诉你了,你也很有耐心的在听.......
可是为何就是不能完成我的要求呢........
你总是爱说你不是一个很好的朋友,说自己很没用永远都帮不了朋友的人........
说我选择找你把心里话都说给你听是错的........
因为你不懂要给些什么建议等.......
叫我还是去跟一个能真的帮到我,给到建议我的人........
我听后永远只会有失落两字.......
因为你就连我那么小的要求都不能给我........
我要的只是你能很有耐心和很冷静的听我说........
我不要你给些我什么建议还是叫我去找别人的........
当你跟我说那些时,我都不会选择怪你........
因为是我自己的错,错在我没有告诉你我的要求.........
而且你也做到了我要的就是能很有耐心和很冷静的听我说.........
我真的很开心因为只有你能这样的听我说心里话........
也只有你能真正的让我从心里笑出来,开心起来虽然我的心已经消失了.......
我也很清楚的知道你很努力的让我开心.......
我真的很感动和开心的.........
这个月所发生的事都是自己,家人,朋友和关系到自己要搬出去的事.......
这些事之前都已经知道会发生的但还是没有心里准备和还是很害怕.......
但那些事竟然一次过的在同一个星期里发生了........
真的让我伤到很重,心也碎了,感情也毁了,身体也受伤了.......
到最后受伤还是自己了.......心再怎么找怎么粘也没用了.........
我还是时候学会接受这些事了.......
是时候接受会让自己受伤的事实........
是时候接受自己的心已经消失了已经碎了的事实........
但不管那心已经消失和碎了但自己还会感到很痛.......
那些事已经让自己哭了一个星期了也让自己在朋友面前扮的很开心........
在朋友面前扮得那么开心还在他们面前勉强自己在笑已经够了.......
不管我再怎么努力让自己真正开心和笑还是不可以........
但在你面前我永远还是扮不出开心和笑的样子........
很自然的自己真正的开心和笑起来是因为只有你才让我能这样.......
我现在好希望那些不开心的事能快点消失.......
好让自己能像之前酱开心.......
现在的我也差不多要解决完所有的事了.......
只剩下我到底要搬去哪里呢.......
因为最近家里发生了事所以每一天都只剩我一个人在家.......
到了晚上也一样,我超怕一个人也讨厌一个人..........
所以我到底应该怎样呢????
搬吗????还是什么?????
现在的我真的不知道下秒我会做出什么......
所以我选择不要留在家,搬出去......
我现在真的很想很想休息了,坚持了那么久终于感到累了.......
终于有累的感觉了很想休息了........
发生那么多事我从来没有好好的休息,有休息也等于没有.......
因为躺下休息后,然后又醒了,因为怕下秒不知道有什么事发生.......
可是现在我真的很想躺着休息了,真的很累了.......
谁可以叫我睡觉和tAm我睡觉和看着我睡觉.......
至少我不用像现在酱那么累了还睡不早.......
真的真的累了,是时候休息了,谁可以帮我????

2009-08-15T14:51:00.019+08:00

心是否还能回来吗......

你的心到现在都还没回来......
你竟然可以因为一个人而弄到自己心痛,辛苦,伤心,难过和难受.......
至于连你的心也可以因为他而不见了......
已经消失了,再也找不回了......
你知道我知道你的心因为他而消失后有几心疼,心痛,伤心,难受,也很不爽吗????
嗨.....你不知道因为我不懂要怎样告诉你.......
我现在很不爽你可以因为他而这样,至于也很心疼,心痛,伤心......
我不爽是因为你的心是因为他而消失而不是我.......
心疼,心痛和伤心是因为你的样变的很无神了.......
而随时都会做出不该做的事.........
我真的真的很心疼你啊!!!!!!!!
我的心又为了你再次心疼和痛了.......
我真的真的很爱你的........
我很怕很怕失去你啊........
没有你我不知道我会是什么样子.......
我的心和所有会不会因为你的离去而跟着离去呢????
我不想失去你,没有你我宁愿不要存在世上.......
因为我不敢想象我会比以前还更死吗.......
那时的我真的会比以前还要伤心,辛苦,心疼.......
失去一个很爱又重要的人是件很辛苦的事.......
失去后这颗心就好像碎掉了........
我很怕会有这种感觉啊.......
看到你这个样子我决定了要帮你找回真正属于你的心......
不让再心痛和心疼了,可以让你更开心的面对所有的事.......
因为我只有那么一个要求就是你能开心就够了.......
你能过的开心其他的事我都可以不要.......
虽然我知道你因为他而变成这样会让我感到心很酸酸.......
但我还是一样的帮你因为我真的很关心你和爱你的.......
我还是依然选择对你好.......希望你开心......

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有时我并不在敷衍你而是我只想简单点回答你的问题........
你想要什么,你想要怎样我都尽我的能力去满足你........
不管到最后后果会是很严重还是我会怎样.......
可是不管我再怎么满足你还是不够的.......
永远只会有敷衍两字......
每次当你一说我敷衍你我都会很努力的在反醒自己了........
可是当我在反醒时,我所得到的竟然就是你不理我了.......
我就会好像个疯子般一直在打给你,sMs给你........
可是不管我怎样找你,你都不会理我了.......
我就会更紧张的问自己我到底做错什么了.........
我又做到他不喜欢的事了.........
那时我又开始精神崩溃了.........
我跟你说了很多次不要突然间不理我了,我不知道自己会做出什么的.......
我也不知道自己会变成什么样的.......
到时我又不知道自己会不会做出伤害自己的事的.......
可是每次我都会很努力的去控制自己不要再做你不喜欢的事了.......
平时我都会很有耐心的在等的........
但当你突然间不理我,我得耐心不知道去了那里啊.......
我会好像颠人这样在找你的.......
连我爸都会怕了我那个样啊,他每次都会在tAm我的......
我真的不想要怎样的.......
我不想要你不理我啊.......
因为会让我感到我的安全感全都不见了.......
我就会有很怕很怕的感觉........
可能我习惯了有你在身边啊,突然不理我好像失去一些东西了.......
我已经很努力的去完全不再做出你不喜欢的事了......
可是还是让你感到我在敷衍你........
我不是真的在敷衍你啊,我只想跟着你的意见走......
你喜欢这样那我就做出来给你,只是存脆想让你开心吧了.......
但没有想到你会不理我了......
我真的被你吓倒和很怕,我的心脏不知几时会停止跳动啊.......
我真的不想要这样的......
不要再不理我了.......
我真的很怕的......
失去你我真的不知道会怎样的.......
对不起,因为做了你不喜欢的东西.......

2009-08-10T00:54:00.007+08:00

又做错事了............

又做错事了.......又关于到我的......
又从演了以前的事.......
又因为我的要求而出事了.......
又是因为我......又是因为我.......又是因为我.......
我为何要叫姐来载我........
为何要叫她,不能叫别人的哦........
如果我没有叫她的话就不会发生这样的事的.......
都是我的错啊!!!!!!!
这可是人命啊!!!!!!!
我又做错事了......以前的还不够吗.....
现在还要弄的另外一个人出事.......
如果不叫她来载我就不会遇到车祸啊........
为何每次要害到人呢.......
没叫她就不会令到她受伤的.......
我姐就不会受伤的.......
我后悔了.......后悔都来不及了......
我姐她受伤了,她很怕驾车了.......
都是我的错.......
虽然她和爸都不怪我但我还是很过意不去........
我姐去看医生,医生说了好多东西..........
我听后很心痛,也很恨我自己.......
真的是废物来的,留在世上还有用吗.......
整天只会做错事的.......废物一个.......
我妈她说的没有错,打的没有错.......
因为是我而出了车祸啊.......
她刮的两巴是没有错的,刮醒我也好啊.......
她说我不该留在世上是没有错的.......
那两巴令我想起我所做的两件很遗憾的事......
令到我很后悔的两件事......
我知道自己现在说什么都没有用的.......
发生了就发生了......我阻止不了.......
我把发生车祸的事告诉了"他".......
可能"他"说的对吧......这两件事都不是我想要的.......
"他"说其实也不能怪我的因为我根本就不知道会有这种事发生.......
这些事也很难阻止的.......
跟何况都已经发生了,就把它当成一个经验......
希望下次不会再有这种事发生吧.......
"他"跟我说了很多......我也想了很久.......
我是时候放下以前和现在所发生的事吧.......
把它当成是经验,希望下次不会再犯错了........
我真的很感谢你帮了我那么多........
我会很记得你说的东西的.......
谢谢你啊!!!!!!!!!!!
真的爱死你的!!!!!!
这两件事我不想再去想了........
我已经很累了因为以前的事........
我很想停下来休息了.......
所以我选择了放下它......
好好的休息一下,不想背着这个酱重的包袱了.......
是时候放下那么重的包袱休息下了........
把脚步放慢让自己看看下这个世界的没个角落.......
可能还有些事需要我解决吧.......
或许因为他我终于愿意放下这个包袱吧.........
好了不写了.....累了......
晚安^^

2009-08-06T23:39:00.014+08:00

嗨....最近终觉得自己怪怪的......

是不是因为最近把你从心里拿了出来......
觉得心里好像空虚了很多........
因为直从你的离开后我都一直把你放在心底......
从没把你从心里拿出来.......
因为你对我来说是多么的重要的.......
从认识你那天起我知道你对我来说是最重要的.......
但因为我的错你离开了我.......
我很后悔那天我的要求为何要酱多呢.......
不然就不会发生那种我不想要的事啊.......
那天后我再也没有机会再看到你了......
我真的很想念你的........
但最近因为我爱上一个人了......
我的心就好像让那人给住进了.......
不是因为我不专一而是我的心现在整个是属于他的了........
我真的不想把你从我心里拿出来的......
因为你永远都存在我心底的.......
我从来就没有忘记过你.......
只不过我的心不再是存在你那里了........
已经把整个送给那个人了......
对不起,原谅我不再像以前一样爱你了......
有人说我很不细心,很不关心人,很不会疼爱人.......
但以前的我不是这样的是因为你的离开吧......
因为你的离开我的细心,关心和疼爱都跟着你的离开一起走了.....
但我答应了他要疼爱,关心和很细心的对待他的......
我已经很尽量的在做因为除了你以外我从不这样的......
现在我竟然为了一个人而做了我很久没有做的事了......
难道我真的那么的爱他吗.......
真的没有他我会死的很难看吗......
真的没有他我会变得很崩溃吗......
真的没有他我会很痛苦吗........
真的没有他我会很辛苦吗.........
真的没有他我的世界就不精彩了吗........
我也不知道.......
因为好久好久没有这种感觉了........
那种感觉从你离开后就跟着离开了.......
可是有了那种感觉又能怎样呢........
因为那个人都不可能会喜欢或爱自己吗......
gOr总是说为何还要爱那个人因为他都不可能会喜欢你的.......
为何要让自己酱痛苦,辛苦呢.......
我跟gOr说爱上了就爱上了,感觉这回事是很难忘掉的.......
感觉来了就来了,要它走也要等很久......
爱上一个不爱自己的人就是酱痛苦和辛苦的......
而且我要的答案从我喜欢他那天起就已经知道了......
可是我还是一直的在等下去.....
我也不知道自己在等什么啊......明知就没有奇迹的出现的.....
还是在等等等......告诉自己很多次是不可能会有奇迹的......
可是还是放不下......我到底要怎样叻.......
没有他存在的一天会把我弄成精神崩溃.......
他一天不理我,我可以准备去死了.......
gOr听到我酱说后就骂我说你竟然为了一个不爱你的人做出酱多事........
你是傻了还是爱到疯了.......
我到底是什么啊.......我也不知道叻......
拍拖永远都不可能出现在我的世界里........
因为他根本就不可能会喜欢我的,然而就不可能接受我了.......
拍拖好吗????嗨......不可能的.......
以前存在我心里的那位一开始时他也不喜欢我的.......
是我还没认识他时就喜欢他了,过后因为一些原因我们认识了.......
认识他我觉得很开心,我们一碰面就说跟不停的......
玩到不停的,还和疯狂的.......
不久,我们就开始了.......他说认识我的时候就有点感觉了........
在一起时,永远都是我最关心,最疼爱,最细心的.......
可能是因为怕有天会失去对方吧.......
但我越怕的感觉它就越出现,我不想要的事终于发生了.......
因为我的要求就永远失去了他.......
对不起,我做错了.......后悔也来不及了.......
失去我的细心,关心,疼爱,等都跟着你离开了我......
再也找不回了,我变了另外一个人.......
越来越讨厌自己了......越来越恨自己了.......
但最近我爱上一个人了,他竟然能让我为了他而改变很多......
我发觉我的细心,关心,疼爱等都因为他而回来了......
是因为他跟你一样酱吗......我也不知道叻......
不过可以肯定的就是他很特别的.......喜欢他特别的感觉......
嗨.....有时奇迹是不可能会出现的.......
因为在我的世界里应该没有奇迹这两个字吧........
我也怕我的期待回换来绝望,心碎,心痛吧了.......
所以我唯一能做的就为他改变咯.......
嗨.....不懂自己是为了什么......看到他开心吗????
不属于我的东西我再怎样去争取都没有用的.....
争取后只会弄的大家不开心........
还是让它顺其自然吧.......
属于我的话,就会是我的.......
不属于我的话,我去动也没有用吧.......
但问题是我放的下吗?????
我的心已经给了他......我该怎样呢.......
很累了......不写了.....
晚安^^

2009-08-03T23:30:00.007+08:00

生为一位厨师他只想要他的客人吃了他煮的食物后

会感到很开心......
会告诉他煮到很好吃.......
会跟他说声谢谢因为煮给他们吃........
会告诉他吃了后的评语........
好让他可以再接再力的为客人煮出好料理........
相信这几项对客人来说要求应该不高吧.......
但事情往往都不是厨师就能决定的.......
客人们永远都做不到厨师所要的东西........
嗨......厨师感到很失望很失望......
因为客人永远都做不到自己要的东西........
但厨师也不想因为客人达不到而不再为客人做美食了.......
所以厨师每次都很努力的做出客人想要的食物.........
因为虽然他知道客人达不到他要的......
但他还是很想客人吃后可以很开心的.......
所以他每天都煮给客人吃.....
因为他也不想客人再饿肚子然后又胃痛.......
厨师心疼客人所以决定了做早餐给客人.......
但有时客人还是达不到厨师的要求.......
不过厨师不怪客人因为客人有吃完厨师煮的食物那就够了......
厨师就觉得很开心了.......
因为厨师只想做个容易开心的人......
希望做个带个客人欢笑的厨师.......
厨师可以因为一件小事而开心到很久......
所以只要客人只做些小事或说些东西厨师可以开心到不用睡了......
厨师也很希望每当他做美食给客人时
客人可以达到厨师想要的要求........
希望客人跟他说声谢谢,告诉他好吃吗,告诉他吃了后感到开心的感觉.......
因为每次厨师都放了很多心思进那些美食里.......
他希望他的诚意和心思能感动到客人.......
不过厨师也知道自己很难达到自己所要的要求......
所以他的期望也没那么高.......
因为怕带着太大的期望反而变成太大绝望再变成心碎.........
虽然没有太大的期望但始终还是得到绝望和心碎.......
厨师不敢跟客人要求太多.......
因为他的身份只是一位厨师......
要求太多就没有资格再煮美食和得到客人的赞同.........
因为厨师永远只负责准备美食吧了.......
嗨.....做出一道很好的美食对厨师来说是非常重要的........
然而客人的感谢,心情,评语,支持,赞美等都对厨师很重要.........
但因为上次的美食失败了,厨师跌的很严重了......
信心没完了......失败都厨师来说是件很严重的事......
因为他失败的美食让客人吃后会感到很绝望的.......
因为客人把他所有的信赖都附托在厨师身上了.....
现在厨师失败了,连厨师本人都接受不了这个考验......
那敢希望客人会再接受厨师的美食了......
但厨师只想要客人可以感谢他,支持他,和告诉他今天的心情..........
虽然美食已经失败了.......
因为有客人的一句谢谢让厨师感到很开心.......
但这种失败心情很快的就要跟我说声再见了......
因为厨师是个容易开心的人......
不过厨师不会因为一次的失败而放弃了准备美食给客人.......
他会很努力的去准备美食给客人的......
希望有天可以得到客人真心的感谢,支持,评语,心情,赞美.....
那么我相信厨师的美食一定会一次比一次还跟好........
好了不写了......很累了.....
晚安^^

2009-08-01T23:42:00.010+08:00

逃避对我来说是件好事吗.......
现在的我很想逃避所有的事.......
因为我真的觉得很累很累了......
但我从来就不会埋怨什么.....
因为我答应你我要为了你而改.......
所以再怎么累我都要顶咯......
可是我还是很想逃避那件事......
我很怕我会从喜欢变成爱你......
因为我不知道你又会怎样,会再怕多一次还是只好接受呢......
因为你一怕我就会再有恐惧感我怕你不知会怎样对我.......
今天我们看到一本杂志说星座的东西......
写了我们的性格和爱情的东西......
它写着我和水瓶座的人很不配哦.......嗨......
看到我很不爽了而且很hUrT的感觉咯......
然后就去看你的咯.....其实你的也满准的........
它写你的性格和爱情满准的.......嗨......
我知道我跟水瓶座的不配跟金牛座很配......
我很不想去相信的可是我跟金牛座的人真的满陪满好玩的.......
就好像我跟我sU酱咯.......它写的东西有些满准的有写满不准的........
所以我有些很不相信咯.......我也很后悔我去看那本书啊.........
嗨......不懂啦我真的很怕的.......
我真的好想逃避所有的事.......
我很累了真的真的很累了......
好想好好的休息下,休息后就不要再起身了.......
可是我又不敢这样做因为我真的不能不理你和不能没有看到你吧.......
我答应你的事我都会去做完给你,因为我真的想你开心不再酱累了.......
如果你真的开心我真的真的会很开心的.......
可是有件事我怀疑了好久好久.......
我也问了我的朋友关于那件事.......
可是我就是不敢问你,因为我怕我问了后不是我要的答案啊.......
可是今天因为一些事我竟然把我怀疑的事告诉你.......
因为这个问题你之前也有说过可是到最后你说应该不是吧........
可是今天我告诉你后你又开始觉得可能有哦.......
可是我很没有自信在你的答案上.......
我怕你的答案不是我要的.......
可能我是真的爱上你了,想要的就是......你.......
当然我不知道你会想要吗........
因为到现在你还不清楚你到底有没有喜欢我吗.......
有时我真的感到很累,很痛苦,很辛苦当我喜欢你........
但没有办法咯,因为我喜欢你吗.......
可能你很想逃避吧但我不想逃避哦......
因为我sIfU tRaIn到我不能再逃避任何事了......
要我去面对所有的事所以我去面对我可能会从喜欢变爱你事实咯........
但竟然你认为你逃避是件好事的话我会尊重你的决定的......
我也不想逼你做你不喜欢的事哦.......
就好像不想逼你去面对你不想面对的事......
嗨......我不知道现在想要怎样哦........
我的朋友说当我跟1个人在一起时我会是最细心,最疼爱,最关心的那个........
可是往往都会是我得到伤害和心痛最多的.......
可是我还是依然的会再次的细心,疼爱和关心那个人.......
到最后被受伤,心碎的人还是我自己的.......
我不知道我朋友说对吗.......
因为连我自己也不知道自己会是不是怎样的........
所以到现在我还是不知道逃避对我来说是好还是坏啊........
因为我真的不敢再逃避任何事有关于你的.......
可能真的变成爱上你了吧.......
也可能痛苦,辛苦,心碎,受伤我已经习惯了吧........
到底喜欢你还是爱你才好呢???
到底我该不该逃避所有的事呢????
我好想要得到一个很好的答案.......
不写了,很累了.......
晚安咯^^

2009-07-28T23:44:00.026+08:00

最近的我到底是怎样的.........

最近的我到底是怎样的........
为什么1时酱反常,1时酱弱,1时又酱mOoDy的........
反常又反常到酱sOt,弱又弱到没人有的,mOoDy又mOoDy到要死酱......
我是为何会酱反常是因为要改变自己吗.......
弱是因为我身体就是这样吗.........
mOoDy是因为家里有事发生,因为有节日要到吗.......
我酱反常是因为答应要改变吗.........
其实我还觉得自己还好啦.......
我还是觉得自己没有变到什么咯.........
没有变到你想要的咯.......
还是让你觉得很累很累........
我好像很失败的感觉........
本来还以为我的改变可以让你不能再酱累的但我还是没到你要的阶段叻.......
我知道每次跟我说话时会让你感到很累很累........
所以我才会反醒了再反醒弄到我自己变到现在的反常.......
可能反常点大家就不会问我最近为何会这样吧.........
所以只有酱做咯......反常会好1点.......
我太反常他们就认为我好像有事发生了......
因为我竟然好到把dIgI rElOaD cArD给了友贤......
说是给他的不用给钱哦.......
我觉得自己很怪叻,连友贤也酱认为叻........
嗨.....嗨......嗨......嗨......嗨.......
我真的不知道自己是怎么的.......
是为了要听你的话改掉所有不好的习惯吗........
可是我还是没达到你要的要求啊......
我又失败了......嗨......
我发觉我的改变只是在早上时有改吧了........
过后就没有了,是因为自己已经太累了吧.......
因为最近发生了好多事让我没有好好的睡......
所以我的脸自然而然的变的很黑吧......
所以希望你们不要误会什么东西啦......我就是这样的.......
因为这也有点反常所以我才会尽量的去改掉.......
当看到你的时候我会很尽量的叫自己跟你讲话的.......
这样我就会有1点进步......
最近我好像有点弱是因为上次生病还没好吗.........
我也不知道......但我竟然很听你的话去看医生和吃药了.........
因为我从都不会去看医生和吃药的.......
因为你的1句话我竟然去看医生和吃药了.........
我爸都很好奇我竟然会跟他说我要去看医生叻.......
我是太反常了还是为了实现我答应过你的事呢.........
可是有时在学校就会很mOoDy的......
可能是因为家里的事吧还有篮球朋友的事吧......
嗨......有时真的很不想去理他们想说什么叻......
因为去理后只会让自己很烦.......
我已经很好了帮你们做你们的功课虽然你们不是我学校的.......
可是你们还是要给事我烦的......
每晚还要打给我烦这烦那就不可以给我好好的休息下哦.......
我难得在晚上可以休息的就这样给你们抢走了......
嗨......我真的不知道要怎样做你们才满意.........
算啦,我已经跟你们说如果再认为是我的错.........
那这是我们最后1通电话了.......
你们要知道我讲到一定做到的......
因为我真的不想再去烦酱多事了.......
真的很累很累的......也很辛苦的........

今天的我又来酱反常了.......
不知要怎样说呢.......反常到一直在sOt.......
今天我跟你也玩到满sOt下啦,也跟你说了很多话啦.......
不好意思今天太反常了所以一直在打人叻.......
还打了你满多下的......好像很痛的感觉了.......
不过也满开心下啦......不是打你很开心啦.......
是跟你讲话咯,玩咯......不过也还好吧了........
还没到你和我要的程度吧.......
不懂啦.....就觉得自己今天超反常的.......
1时可以很开心的,1时就可以很dOwN的咯........
觉得自己怪怪的.......嗨.......没有办法咯.......
谁叫今天是那个日子叻.......
突然觉得自己很想念你酱........
很想看到你酱咯.......可是我知道那是不可能的事咯........
是自己想太多了......嗨......
算啦......然后今天放学就跟莫他们去吃午餐咯.......
嗨......去吃面咯还有吃冰咯.......
不过好过去七喜吃咯.......简直是讨厌吧......
然后他们说吃完后要去bAsKiN rObIn吃iCe-CrEaM咯........
我没有吃因为刚吃冰而且没有心情吃了.......
就他们在吃,我就在发呆咯......嗨......
就等明天再来这里买咯.......哈哈......明天可以吃了......
我明天要还莫钱了......因为今天跟她借了........
还好我有钱放在家里.......不然我有要用aTm CaRd了......没有要用到cErDiT cArD吧......哈哈......
然后就1个人独自的走回爸爸店......
莫一直在吩咐要看好那些钱然后小心点自己回店时......
谢谢你咯,傻婆......
走着走着自己又在想为何要因为自己的心情而搞到爸他们不开心呢.........
所以那时就想了很清楚回到去不要再不开心了.......
要开心的跟老爸讲话咯.......因为我也知道他们不会想去记得这件事了......
何必再勉强他们想那些不开心的事叻.......
自己1个人不开心好过全部跟着我不开心吗........
终于回到了,看到爸他那副装的很开心的样我知道他自己心里一定很不好受了......
因为在远处就看到他那副不开心的样.......
看到我回来了他就很快的把不开心的样收了.......
就一直在笑说女儿回来咯.......
就说不如早点回家休息吧,看你酱累了,然后休息后再起身吃晚餐咯......
然后就答应爸了......我也问他明天要不要吃iCe-CrEaM叻......
他说女儿请我吃一定要吃的.......
爸其实我想说如果你真的不开心的话就说出来......
因为我自己也是一样不开心啊......
不要把它压在心底这样对大家都不好的.......
嗨......不过我也知道老爸你这样做是有你自己的理由的.......
那就算了吧......你要怎样就怎样吧......我不勉强你啦......
反正我也答应了人不可以酱mOoDy和dOwN了......要开心点......
然后就叫姐来载我回家咯.......
回家去休息咯.......回到家就冲凉然后就去休息了........
过后就给他们吵醒了......本来不想醒的但想念你........
想打给你的,然后就看到你的mSg了........
过后就打给你咯,才知道刚刚你打过给我哦.......
就讲了很多东西然后就讲回昨天了.......
我知道自己昨天做错了事......做了你很不喜欢的事......
我不知道可以说什么我也不会去说对不起.......
我只能说我知道自己错了.......我会去反醒我自己........
然后我们还是一样的在讲话..........
其实我fEeL到你已经很不开心我昨天做的事了.......
可是我不知道你是不是有不开心我还去接他们的电话.......
如果是的话我会不去接因为我已经跟他们说如果有天我没接你们的电话.......
你们就应该知道发生什么事了........
我也不想这样对你们的但你们实在是让我很烦......
帮你们做功课就已经够烦了够累了还要管这些事哦........
酱我只会死的早叻..........
好了不想再说这些不开心的事了.......
只想说突然感到很想念你,就告诉你了.......
但我知道在学校依然还是可以看到你的.......
为何会酱想念叻.......因为怕失去某些东西吗........
可能已经失去生命中最重要的东西了不想再失去了......
怕了那失去东西的感觉吧.......都已经把你给放在第一个位置了.......
不过那又怎样只有我知道因为我从不告诉你.......
我忘了要说妈,生日快乐!!!!!!!!!!
好了那些不开心的事我也不想再提了........
想念就想念咯......等下再发梦看到他咯........
好了我只想说今天不开心的事就到此结束了......
不要在去想了.......让它过去吧......就去想着他就好了......
忘掉那些不开心的事吧......不过看到他就很自然的开心了......
嗨........不想再写了.......
要去睡觉了,全身没力了.....
晚安咯^^你也早点睡吧......

2009-07-26T15:45:00.008+08:00

习惯所有的习惯.......

习惯所有的习惯真的能发生在我身上吗.........
我怕习惯所有的习惯后我会变成另外1个人........
以前你跟我说过你怕我有1天会不再理你了.......
不再打给你,不再sMs你了........
其实我也知道我会有这样的1天........
我知道我自己会不再理你,不再打给你和sMs你了.......
你会感到怕,我也会感到怕........
所以我很尽量的避免不会有这1天的发生.........
因为那时候我不知道我自己会做什么事啊.......
我很怕那天的到来会让我没有了喜欢你的感觉了........
那时的我会感到很空虚.......很空虚.......
因为没有你的存在就好像没有了我生存的意思了........
可能我真的习惯了有你在我身边吧........
我习惯了有你的感觉,习惯了你在我身边,习惯了你的关心,习惯了你的疼爱,习惯了被你hUrT的感觉,习惯了有你的劝告,习惯了你的所有.........
从喜欢你那天我真的习惯所有有你的习惯了.......
我发觉那些习惯再这样擦都擦不掉........
如果能让我选择我会选择有你的习惯,我不想去习惯没有你的1天.........
因为我知道当没有你的那天我会变的很难看,我的人会死的很难看,我会不再理会别人的事只会在灰色世界里.......
我知道那时我的世界就不再精彩了而是进入灰色世界了........
我很怕....我真的很怕.........
可是现在我怕的而是有1天你会不再理我了.......
我怕有1天你会再也忍不住那累的感觉而跟我说我们这次是最后一次说话了..........
我真的很怕......很怕........
那时的我真的会跟着你的所有离去而离去了........
我会变回以前那么软弱的我,逃避的我,所有不好的习惯都回来了.........
我真的很怕会有这1天的到来,我怕你不再理我了,我怕你不再跟我说话了.......
我真的真的怕.......我一直在改,一直在反醒希望得到你的认同.........
那时我不知道是不是已经到了你无可耐合的时候了........
嗨.....嗨......嗨......我真的很怕很怕.......
我怕我们会想我sU和她aH gOr这样.......
已经进入不理对方的阶段了........我真的怕......
那种感觉很不好受的.......
你不喜欢我说随便,aS u LiKe,wHaTeVeR,不知道那些字........
我也很尽量控制自己不说这些.......
可是我知道我还是没有改完还是有说这些字........
嗨.....我感觉到你有种失望的感觉叻.......我.....我.......又不会做事........
我真的很笨的.......嗨....嗨.....
你叫我习惯所有的习惯........
可是我不敢习惯所有的习惯啊..........
因为习惯后我怕我会变得不再是我自己了........
我不知道自己会不会再疼你,关心你和对你好啊........
我不敢也不想去习惯........
我也不想你去习惯所有的习惯..........
你跟我说你已经进入了习惯的道门了.......
我听后我很想把你给拉出来啊.......我不想你习惯所有的习惯啊..........
可是我问我自己我能够把你拉出来吗........
嗨......我不管啦,总之我会尽我的能力把你拉出来.......
我真的很想你能关心我,了解我,疼我,明白我.......
没有你的关心,支持,疼爱,明白,了解我好像不是我自己.......
有人告诉我可能我已经把你放在心里最重要的位置了.......
我把你放在心里的1个位置了吗.........
比什么都重要吗........是不是已经到不能没有你的地带吗.........
习惯所有的习惯我真的做到吗........
嗨.......我想跟你好好的说话........
想你开心但我好像做不到啊.......
嗨......习惯对我来说是怎样我都不知道........

2009-07-24T00:30:00.015+08:00

我很恨现在的我啊!!!!!!!

我做么会变成这样的.......
为何会这样的......我不想要这样啊!!!!!!!
我不想要1个没有安全感的我.........
我不想要1个那么软弱的我.......
我不想要1个那么懦弱的我.......
我不想要1个那么lAm BeT bEt的我......
我不想要1个那么自私的我.........
我不想要1个没有依赖性的我.......
我不想要1个不能给人依靠的我.......
我不想要1个那么白痴,笨蛋,傻瓜,蠢蛋的我.........
我不想要.......不想要.......
我很恨我自己.......我讨厌我自己是个这样的人........
真的真的很恨,真的很讨厌.......
我想做个有安全感,不软弱,不懦弱,不lAm BeT bEt,不自私,有依赖性,可以给依靠,不白痴,不笨蛋,不是傻瓜,不是蠢蛋的我啊........
我很努力的去改掉那些不好的习惯,我很努力的去反醒我自己.......
可是还是让人觉得我没有改过.......
我很伤心,我很心痛,我很不爽.......
因为我改了再改,反醒了再反醒还是一样回以前的我.......
我很恨我自己,我讨厌......
我真的很努力的去做1个全新的我......
但无论我再怎么努力还是一样的.......
我真的很想改掉......我真的很想做个全新的我.......
但是无论我努力到怎样结果还是一样的......
还是个我不想要的结果......我很恨......
每天晚上我都在反醒我自己,我跟我爸说,跟我姐说,跟我妹说,跟我堂姐说......
我不想要个这样的自己.......他们都问为何要怎样对自己呢.......
我说因为我要改掉啊.....我讨厌我自己这样啊.......
每晚我都去练球,去tRaIn我自己的身体,不管那时我病了还是什么我都去tRaIn我自己.......
妹和姐他们都说我很变态.....为了要改竟然可以这样对自己......
我说我不管我真的要改我要把自己tRaIn到很sTrOnG......
可是我再怎样tRaIn我自己的身体,我还是一样天天生病.......
我讨厌......我每次都很听话的照顾自己的身体和自己的健康......
可是还是生病了......我很伤心和生气的跟爸说为何就不能让我像正常人一样呢......
为何就是不能......我爸很dOwN的抱着我说女儿无论你怎样都好还是我的好女儿乖女儿......
我.......我......听后就在爸怀理哭了......我忍不住了.......
我真的很想改的......至于把自己弄的全身都是伤我都无所谓......
总之我就是要改掉......因为我真的恨透我自己了.......
我很听我sIfU的话不要再懦弱,不要再软弱了......
可是我用了很多方法还是一样的结果.......
嗨.....嗨.......嗨.......嗨.....
可能我真的用错的方法吧.......
才不能把自己变成全新的自己吧......
也许我真的错到很离谱吧......讨厌.....
还是像别人所说的我是1个废物吧........
是个没有用的废物......没有用的人........嗨......
永远只会带麻烦,问题,不爽等给人的我.......
真的是个该死的人,是个不该活在世上的人......
nIcOlE,你真的是没用的啊.......真的是没用的......
再怎样去改都是没用的......每次都要人不爽你,生气你才懂得反醒自己才会去改.......
你啊你啊......活下来有用吗......活在世上只会浪费资源啊.......
你不会聪明点啊,知道自己每次把心里要说的话都收埋会让人感到不爽和生气就不会聪明点说出来哦......真的很笨的.....你啊没用的啦.....
算了啦.....再怎样改别人都不会知道的......
把心里话说了又不能把这件事解决掉......
只会跟别人越吵越死,明知自己不想要怎样还要做......
真是笨蛋不想要吵就不会把心里话说出来啊.......
一直要别人去猜,猜到别人不爽了,生气了........
你不会聪明点把心里的话说出来吗........
真的没有用的你啊.......
算啦......不要活在世上啦.......可是我又想让你感到很开心...........
我真的恨我自己每次让你生气和跟我说话时感到很累......
我很努力的去改了......但总觉得我没改到........
算啦......算啦......笨蛋的我永远都做不到别人所要的东西........
只会做到别人不想要的东西.......笨蛋永远都是......
还是你们忘了有我这个人的存在吧.......
这样对你们都好,都我.......
我不知道好不好.......
算啦.......我知道我现在一直在自我放弃.......
不过我真的想让你感到开心,所以我很努力的自我反醒和改.......
我不知道你感觉到我改了没有.......
但我真的会去改虽然你不知道.......
嗨.......我很恨我自己了.......
有办法让我不恨我自己吗........嗨......

2009-07-22T01:28:00.005+08:00

对不起.....对不起..........
因为我的自私我伤到你的心.........
其实我只想要你开心的.......
我没有想过因为他们而才求你的........
我不想后果会发生在你身上啊........
对不起.......因为我的自私我把你的心给撕破了............
对不起......对不起...........对不起..........
我知道自己现在说什么都没有了...........
碎裂的心再怎样黏回还是有一道疤痕.......
我知道自己刚做的让你很失望和心痛..........
对不起........当我求你后........
我发现我自己又做错事了.......
我发现自己太自私了.......
自私到没有人有........
我很恨我自己这样对你.......
明明知道我会后悔这样对你,我还是犯了同样的错.........
我睡不早因为我知道你现在也没怎样好过.........
因为我伤了你的心......伤到很深很深......
我的心也在痛.......因为你心痛我的心也比你的还要来的更痛..........
痛的眼泪一直在流......
我知道我再怎样把你的心黏回还是有一道永远会让你知道我怎样伤害你的疤痕........
对不起.......我的错.......我的错........
我很难受因为我知道你一定很恨我竟然因为我自私而做出伤害你的事.........
我只想后果会是我承担的而不是你承担的........
而我只想帮你解决这问题因为这是我的错........
可是我却弄到你的心碎了.........
弄到你心痛了........
我自己也心痛了也哭了.........
我拿起手机打给你,可你没接......
我越来越心急了.......我的眼泪就一直掉了.........
我不知道是你不想接我电话还是你睡了........
我哭成不像人了.......
拿着手机看着你的号码一边在哭........
一边把自己的手弄成不像手了.......
我控制不了自己情绪把手再次割伤了.......
我知道我错了.......真的真的是我的错了.........
我的自私..........
伤害了..........
你的心........
你失望了........
也心痛了........
心碎了.........
再黏回还有道疤痕.........
而我.......
也感受到你心痛了.......
我的心就越来越痛了.......
也哭了.......
手也受伤了.......
我的心现在因为你在滴着血的眼泪.........
我知道也许是我的错........不是你的错.........
我再说对不起也没用了..........
大家的心碎了........碎片也被遗失了........
我找不回以前的我.......和我的心了.........
找回来了至少我对你不会再是这样了........
但你还愿意让我疼你吗,还愿意让我喜欢你吗.........
还是我就该把遗失的碎片就这样让它遗失吗........
但我还是一样的很在乎你,很关心你,很喜欢你,很疼你..........
因为我不会忘记我对你的承诺.......
我真的想念你,喜欢你,疼你,关心你,在乎你..........
因为我已经把你放在第一个位置了.......
已经是个不能把它给遗失的位置和人了........
但你还需要我吗????????还要我在你身边吗????????

沉默的瞬间~

2009-07-21T23:44:00.008+08:00

我........我........
又哭了........哭的很糟糕.......
我很懦弱啊.......
我很累啊.......
我很懦弱也很累也很心痛........
很痛.....很痛......
看着自己的眼泪掉下......
我问自己为什么每次都要哭......
为何每次就是不能不要为他而掉眼泪啊.........
为何就是不能控制自己的情绪........
为何每次都要让他难做.......
为何每次都要让他伤心,生气后自己才躲在角落哭,才对他说对不起然后对他说是自己的错........
为何每次要对他酱凶在他面前发脾气........
为何在他面前不能有安全感.........
为何在他面前要酱懦弱酱累.......
为何就不能坚强点........
为何就不能开心点也让他开心点.......
为何自己是个酱笨酱蠢的人...........
为何......为何......为何.........
我一直以为自己能够撑的住的........
为何我就是不能撑的住呢.........
为何......我不能撑下去呢......
我真的崩溃了.......崩溃了......
我竟然为了他而崩溃而心痛而累了而懦弱了.......
但为何我还是喜欢着他呢..........
沉默的瞬间里我能做什么..........
再喜欢着他吗.......我真的真的好喜欢他的.......
我忘不了他的样子,笑容等等......
我还是很很想念他........
对不起........我还在喜欢你.......

I cry again........
I cause tat ppl cry again.......
Why i muz cause tat ppl cry.......
Why i cant control my mental n mood..........
Why i muz always make tat ppl feel very diffucult......
Why i muz always make tat ppl sad,angry dy den hide at a place cry den say sorry to tat ppl n say tat all aso i wrong d......
Why i muz always put a angry n fierce luk in front of tat ppl n scold tat ppl.......
Why i always luk a no a sense of security when in front of tat ppl......
Why i always luk so tired n no uses at front of tat ppl......
Why i jus cant strong a bit dy.......
Why i jus cant luk happy bit den tat ppl aso happy a........
Why me feel myself so stupid so silly so no uses dy..........
Why........why.........why........
Why i cant jus dun cry jus bear tat tail dun let tat tail drop off.......
I reali collapse dy........collapse dy..........
I cause tat ppl collapse,cry,heart break,heart pain,tired dy.......
But why i still like tat ppl.........
I'm so sorry i still like u.........
I reali cant 4get u smile,u luk......
I still so so so missss u........
I'm so so sorry.......

单恋情丝

2009-07-19T16:55:00.008+08:00

如果挨饿能够得到你的关心~
如果装傻能够得到你的微笑~
如果伤心能够得到你的注意~
我都心甘情愿~

但是
为何我的心你都看不见~
为何我的痛你都不曾理~

我的爱
无论怎么来怎样扩~
始终还是不能打动你的心~

为何
我会爱上了
不会爱我的你~

等待，是一份剪不断的煎熬~

我是从"城外"看到的~
看了后我很喜欢那人写的东西~
他很清楚的写了我想对你说的话~
还有我发觉“我们都有错"和"说你也一样爱着我"这两首歌很适合我和你~
我喜欢“我们都有错”的歌词~
里面写着我们过去每次吵架而到最后我清楚的知道是我的错~
我喜欢它最后的两句“我们都没有错,也许只是我”~

“今晚夜色正浓我开车慢慢行走走
进一片深秋地铁出口
起了一座灰色大楼
那么多窗口那么多灯火
喝酒的人们嬉笑走过
在你离开之后
我像个忙碌街头忙着擦肩而过
身边的人稍作了停留又无影无踪
打烊了以后夜里安静停泊
我们是不是变得太懦弱
该面对的时候掉头就走
我们坚持什么要的是什么为何
烙了一身伤口
我们是不是变得太薄弱
该解救的时候却一再沉沦
本来相濡以沫却变成寂寞
我们都有错
再见还是朋友
我们却连个问候多年后才开口
咖啡店里你看起来似乎过得不错
可是为什么说着说着
眼泪开始坠落
我们是不是变得太懦弱
该面对的时候掉头就走
我们坚持什么要的是什么
为何烙了一身伤口
我们是不是变得太薄弱
该解救的时候却一再沉沦
本来相濡以沫却变成寂寞
我们都有错
我们是不是变得太执着
该快乐的时候铐上枷锁
像夜行的班车我们各奔西东
安静的消失在夜
空假如分开会是一种解脱
为何直到现在还不断回头
本来相濡以沫却变成寂寞
我们都有错
我们都没有错也许只是我”

我写给你的~

2009-07-19T10:24:00.017+08:00

18/7/2009

今天叻~就有少少累咯~没像昨天这样~
昨天我又没睡觉了~在做nOtE~
今天终于给我做完了~做完了是真的很开心滴~
终于可以轻松滴~也开始没什么累了~
因为放下了这个包袱吗~只是说话时好像要死要死酱咯~
不过我去吃了医生给我滴提神药所以没那么累了~
也精神了很多~可以跑跑跳跳了~哈哈~
可是就没有吃到精神医生给滴精神药叻~
因为医生说我最近有问题~精神上滴问题~
因为我最近一直弄上自己滴身体~和打了我篮球滴朋友叻~
真的很不好意思滴~她无言无故给我打叻~对不起~
过后就接到欣lU打来咯~
她说她不会去张栋梁滴音乐会哦~而lIsA临时说不要去了~
她找不到人去~她问我要去吗~我是没问题滴~
只是我要问我爸先,因为他一定会怕我有事滴~
过后就到我妈打来了~她叫我今天晚上煮晚餐给他们吃哦~
还是要西餐滴~因为她知道我最会滴就是西餐了~哈哈~
因为我最pRo滴就是煮西餐咯~哈哈~中餐还好~
但我告诉她今天我晚上不在家会很迟才回来叫她自己煮咯~
对不起~我今天真的不是时候煮给你们咯~
然后就快快打给老爸咯~问他可以出去吗~
他就问要去那里~就说昨天你看到那张票滴音乐会咯~
然后爸说可以啊~不过要听我滴话吃精神医生给滴药和看医生~
我说没问题~反正你都习惯威胁我了~这次就让你咯~哈哈~
就去告诉欣lU我可以去咯~她也满开心滴~哈哈~
开心就好咯~因为她等了好久好久滴张栋梁叻~哈哈~
然后就问我要穿什么衣哦~她说她要穿黑色叻~
我谁等下太黑看不到你啊~哈哈~
然后她说要穿百色我就说等下像鬼啊~哈哈~
她就开始说不要睬我了因为一直在sTeP oN hEr吗~
平时都是她sTeP oN mE d不过这次是我sTeP oN hEr叻~
过后就等我姐回来载我去点帮我爸咯~
到了那里就去找欣lU咯~她穿到很好看下滴~
因为难得看到她穿长裤滴哦~哈哈~
然后她就说我因为我还没换我滴衣服啊~哈哈~
过后我们就去吃午餐咯~大家太饿了~
她也是滴给妈妈催下什么都忘记带了~
眼镜,相机咯~然后她也开始不爽咯~
hAiYo~不要不爽啦就要去看你滴张栋梁了~
就去pIzZa HuT吃午餐咯~其实也满久没去滴~
在那里选了很久看了很久终于知道要吃什么了~
因为欣lU要吃sPaGhEtTi吗,然后我吃什么都可以滴~
我没意见咯~哈哈~然后就叫了1个有sPaGhEtTi滴,1个又有pIzZa滴咯~
我们就一直在讲话和在笑咯~
食物终于来了~就开始吃咯~可是那里滴食物没有酱好吃了~
hAiZ~dIsApPoInTeD咯~我煮都好过他们煮滴咯~
我问欣lU要不要我进去跟那厨师说我来煮跟你吃~
她就很衰滴说一定不好吃滴~yEr~So HuRt咯~hAiZ~
然后就等翠明来咯~因为等下她们要去补习了~
然后她们就去补习我就回我爸点帮他咯~
刚回到吧了~我爸就说女儿走我带你去吃东西不然等下你不会去吃晚餐了~
等下饿坏你就不好了~就被老爸拉去了~
可是我刚吃完叻~而且还是很饱很饱那种叻~
hAiZ~算啦我老爸一番心意就去咯~
吃完了~就回点咯~因为我还要等莫来拿她滴东西~
回到点就写东西咯~那里知道没有听到莫叫我~
过后她叫到很大声了~所以我才走出去~
那时就给她骂咯~哈哈~然后就跟欣lU去kTm咯~
不过她说要等她姑姑来载我们去kTm哦~
在车上我听到1首歌~那人是点给她滴2个好朋友~
因为他们吵架了~所以希望他们能和好如初哦~
我听到了我也很想点给你听叻~那就是光良滴"少年"~
你应该知道我在说点给你滴吧~
希望我们能像那首歌词所写滴一样~
过后到了kTm就快快买票咯~因为我忘了带tOuCh N gO cArD叻~
我爸滴又给我姐拿去了~不爽了~
买了就快点跑咯~因为火车来了而且要走了~
wAlAo Eh叻~差点就要关门了~哈哈~我们飞进去叻~
在火车上欣lU说她很热叻~hAiYo~
在火车上我看到了欣lU滴另外1面~她把她滴位置让给了1位aUnT坐~
因为那aUnT拿很多东西啊~不错啊~然后到了kL sEnTaL咯~
她开始胃痛了~我都不知道要怎样帮她叫她去吃东西先咯~
过后她就去买东西吃了~乖咯~因为我担心她等下又胃痛了~
然后就走去坐mOnOrAiL咯~就快点上去咯~
火车来了~就快点上去找位置坐~终于到了~只有两站啦~
下车滴时候我们两个都满怕滴~因为只有我们吧了~好少人叻~
就快点走咯~来到大马路,我们又不知道要怎样走了~
就一直在看~然后欣lU越来越不爽了~就叫tAxI咯~
可是那死tAxI老他不会去雪隆精物体育馆~
算咯就快点打给我老爸问他从那里走~
终于知道从那里走了~我叔叔教我怎样走咯~哈哈~
我们就要一直上山咯~好高叻,又很累咯这样一直走~
终于到了我们要到滴地方了~那里很多人叻~又有很多张栋梁滴海报咯~
叫那欣lU去拿她都不要去叻~hAiZ~
然后我们就进去等咯~进到里面很多人叻,又很都雾~
因为在山顶吗~哈哈~也满冷滴咯~
等了很久张栋梁还没出来叻~过后就有人报告说因为KL有很多地方在封路~
所以可能会迟点到咯~算咯~都已经在这里了就等咯~
终于等到他来了~出来时好多人在喊哦~哈哈~
欣lU也开始很兴奋了~张栋梁她等了好久叻~
就一直在拍照咯~不过还是要我帮她拿稳她滴手因为她一直会移位置啊~
她太兴奋了~拿相机来拍有点紧张咯~
就一直拍拍咯~她就要开始录音滴那里知道没有电磁了~
我又带到我妹妹滴相机因为我滴还没cHaRgE电叻~
不好意思~我也不想滴~没想到我妹滴相机酱差滴~hAiZ~
不过她也拍了很多照片吗~
我也帮她录了张栋梁滴声音咯~她也很开心滴~
一直在喊咯~她很eNjOy啊~哈哈~看到她那副好像小孩子滴样也满搞笑滴~
然后就到他们就喜欢滴环节咯~就是点歌给栋梁唱咯~
点完了~就到了欣lU喜爱滴时候了~就是上台跟张栋梁拍照,握手和给他签名咯~
开心死欣lU了~哈哈~我就在下面帮她拍照咯~
终于到她了~她就跟张栋梁握手咯~
下到来她很开心哦~因为张栋梁跟他笑和握手叻~
她说回家不用洗手了~哈哈~真的花痴~
过后我们就在那里等咯等到结束~欣lU也甘愿回家了~
我们就走下去咯~在那里等tAxI咯~那里知道没有tAxI~
我们就好想傻婆酱走回mOnOrAiL那里咯~
走回去时没有人滴~就快买票然后就去等火车咯~
终于来了就上车咯~已经很累了就开始躺在欣lU肩膀上~
不好意思啊~借你滴来靠下咯~
到了KL sEnTrAl咯~去买票~就走下去咯~
等火车到~就等啊等啊~等了很就都还没到了~
然后就看表写什么咯~那里知道那里写下1辆要等到5点才有叻~
我们就不知道要怎样咯~就一直打电话咯~
打给我aH gOr咯~可是他在外面等下回去朋友家过夜~
所以不能来载我叻~他竟然告诉我火车最后1趟是11点叻~
wAlAo Eh~我们要怎样回叻~我aH gOr就说快点想办法~
如果到了kAjAnG记得要告诉他点让他放心哦~
我们两个就很紧张滴一直在找人来载~
都是我爸啦这个时候还要去陪朋友喝酒~
他还要我自己想办法叻~算啦我老爸很久没去来跟朋友了~
然后欣lU就打给我sU咯~我sU就叫我们去坐tAxI哦~
哇靠~我们两个笨蛋竟然没有想到叻~
我们真的很傻叻~很笨啊~真的是傻婆~
然后就快点跑回上去等tAxI咯~终于有了tAxI咯~
我们就在车上说话,笑咯~我也累了~
又要躺在欣lU肩膀上咯~很累了~跑了那么久~
是时候借肩膀躺下咯~哈哈~pAiSeH啊~
终于到kAjAnG叻~那段时候我也接到很多通是打来骂我滴~hAiZ~
然后就去欣lU家咯~本来是在她家过夜滴~
但刚好我老爸在附近就说回来载我咯~
就在她家等一下咯~hAiZ~很不好意思滴~每次都在她家等~
好像她家是避难所叻~pAiSeH啊~哈哈~
老爸终于到了~我可以回家睡觉了~因为跑累了,站累了~哈哈~
不过老实说张栋梁滴音乐会很好看滴~
我也满eNjOy下滴啦~以前不喜欢张栋梁滴我也觉得他满可以滴~
看完他音乐会后~他滴歌唱滴好,样子也很好咯~
也满q下滴咯~笑时也满灿烂咯~哈哈~
不过叻我也不会去喜欢他啦,也不会去抢掉他~
因为我还是喜欢jAy ChOu滴吗~哈哈~
好啦~我也写完我要写滴东西~
要去做东西了~就这样咯~

2009-07-18T01:41:00.031+08:00

17/7/2009

今天,我好像很反常哦~hAiZ~
今天我觉得自己很累很累~hAiZ~
我也不知道为何会这样~可能因为昨天吧~
昨天篮球朋友打来,我又在做bIo NoTe哦~
那时已经1点多了~她问我还好吗~
然后我赶着做bIo NotE给人看滴~
因为怕她不会所以就一直在找资料然后做完整滴给她~
所以就做到很夜很夜了~
早上上楼梯时感觉到自己很没有力叻~
才上到1楼就已经在喘了~都不知道为什么叻~
所以上到4楼我用了很久滴时间也用了很多力气~
走到班就趴在桌上了~然后看到友贤他们在抄bIo和sEj叻~
然后才想到自己也还没做叻~
就拿出来咯,快快借他们滴抄咯~
那里知道那kAdEt PoLiS就上来了~aIyO~
真的害死我滴~令到我不能抄了~
很不爽了~aIyEr~就跟莫他们进礼堂咯~
还要下楼梯叻~很累了~wAaAlAo~
进到礼堂,就听到周杰伦滴歌就有点开心了~
好好听~听了后让我整个人轻松了1点~
然后就听到张栋梁滴歌叻~
我们就很有默契滴说如果欣lU听到滴话一定很疯狂滴~
然后又要回班拿书上pHySiCs LaB了~
看到楼梯我有开始累了~不知道做么今天好反常~
我和莫上楼梯时听到李圣杰滴最近~
我们就一边上一边唱,好让忘掉累滴感觉~
上到我们那楼了~我就开始气喘了~
早知就不要唱歌又上楼梯了~hAiZ~
然后拿书后又走回下去~又很累很累叻~
去到pHySiCs LaB我就跟友贤换位~
因为他要跟莫抄sEj咯~我就坐在文翰和友贤滴中间咯~
我也要开始抄我滴bIo咯~有很多要抄啊~不爽了~
就在jUzIrA在叫他们pHySiCs时我就一直在抄~
就没有听到她说什么~还好我明白叻~不然我就可以死了~
就一直抄一直抄~然后就抄sEj咯~也是一样有很多要抄~
今天滴老师很麻烦滴~什么都要交上去~
bIo要交,sEj也要交,那pHySiCs也要交~烦滴~
真的很讨厌那些老师滴~每次都在我反常时叫我交书,不然就是我很累很累时~
终于什么功课都给我抄完了~可以放轻松点了~
就在pHySiCs LaB放空咯~很想在那里睡觉滴~但是不可以~
然后就回班上sEj咯~还好我抄完了~不然那yUhAnIs又要nGo了~
上到一半就有人找我了~我很懒惰出去叻~
很累叻~跟何况那个人跟我不是很熟滴~
不过还是出去了~因为看到aMy站在外面~
就知道是欣lU叫她来滴咯~hAiZ~
然后就拿了朋友滴lApToP给她咯~叫她等下换回给我咯~
然后就回到班想要睡觉滴~给老师叫,而且要抄东西~
然后终于上完她滴节叻~我滴朋友要回他滴laPtOp了~
只好走上去拿咯~已经够累了还要撑强滴上去拿~
我又做一次假人咯~又要装不累酱,要开心点上去拿~
然后就跟她说迟点再来拿~因为我们要弄点东西~
就回去上bI咯~就用跑滴因为我朋友要弄了~hAiZ~
然后上到一半bI节,aMy来了~
她竟然用错词给sAlInA讲和笑~令到我班滴人也在笑~
弄到她很不好意思,不敢再来我滴班了~hAiZ~
sOrRy,aMy~我很记得aMy说"cAn I fInD qUaN zHi WeI????"
然后sAlInA说"yOu WaN fInD a????fInD lAh~"
然后就问我"yOu WaNaTeD lEt HeR fInD u Ma????"
我不知道要答什么就起身出去咯~不然aMy就会一直给他们笑滴~
然后那sAlInA就说"oH,yOu FiNalLy FoUnD iT a"
他们又开始笑咯~OMG咯~hAiZ~
就快点叫汉强借给她然后让她回班啦~不然又要被笑了~
到下课了,就上去找她咯~拿回lApToP咯~
然后就回班咯~在她班时还跟aMy拍了照片~
回到班,就帮kOk ChUaN弄照片咯~
所以忽略了她咯~看到她也跟朋友在拍照就不要打扰她们咯~
然后看到她1个人在外面就陪她咯~
但她看到她滴朋友就走了~hAiZ~算咯~
然后他们说要去bIo LaB了~就去找她咯~
累到我不知道要怎样形容了~终于找到她了~
叫她走咯~来到bIo LaB,老师在里面哦~
然后就问老师可以让她进来吗~
老师就讲不可以,要跟着那死cHaNg KeNg LiNg滴规矩哦~去死啦~
害我跟老师吵架~死cHaNg KeNg LiNg啊~有忧郁症滴话就不要来学校啦~
看到你滴人也会中忧郁症啦~
然后就要上去bILiK sEmInAr咯~就去找她咯~
走了很多地方还是找不到就决定去lObI找她咯~
看到她在跟朋友讲话到那么开心我突然感觉到自己做了傻瓜啊~
我找她找到好辛苦她竟然在跟朋友讲话~hAiZ~
然后就叫她走咯~上去咯~上到1半她竟然又走掉了~
又要下回去找她~因为莫他们叫她坐我们那排~
然后走出去前又给老师骂了~hAiZ~
找啊找啊~终于在lObI找到她了~她又在讲话哦~hAiZ~
又做傻瓜了~然后在那里我们就骂了几句~
然后我不知道要讲什么了,就走了~hAiZ~
免的大家在那里吵架就不好咯~
回到自己该在滴位置~他们看到我这1副要死滴样子~
全都不敢出声~莫也静静在那里~
只有友贤在问你跟欣lU吵架啊~
我什么都没说回到自己滴位置~在那里静静滴~
过后我知道自己不能这样下去~不然全部会因为我而没话讲~
我又要做假人了~要装着没事酱~跟他们讲起话啦,笑到很颠很颠~
过后就因为我说话了,就全部开始说话咯~
过后演讲就开始了~老师就开始说话了~
教我们怎样做bIo滴pApEr 3咯~
讲到1样都事让我和莫有再有默契滴说同样滴话~哈哈~
然后我又很好奇为何莫知道我要说什么~
就问她咯~她竟然说因为我了解你心里想什么,所以就知道你想要表达什么咯~
wAaAlO啊~酱都给她知道叻~厉害~厉害~
不愧是坐在我隔壁两年多~
不愧我把你当成好朋友啊~不错不错啊~
开心有你这样滴朋友啊~哈哈~
难得会有人说她很了解我滴哦~哈哈~
就这样滴在那里我们说了很多东西也笑了好多~哈哈~
可是还是忘不了累滴感觉咯~hAiZ~
终于完了~我们可以放学回家了~
过后就去pOnDoK等欣lU咯~因为要去她家咯~
我们先去吃午餐咯~可是不知道为什么我没有饿滴感觉~
就只是不爽,不开心和累滴感觉~
然后去到她家冲凉咯~冲完了~就等欣lU出来咯~
等着等着我竟然睡早了~哈哈~pAiSeH~
过后还是要起身啊~要教欣lU~
就教她aDd MaTh咯~不过我滴aDd MaTh没那么好滴啦~
不过我竟然教完她1课了~好开心了~哈哈~
过后没事做~家里又没人可以载我回去~
就在她家等我堂姐来载哦~等了好久好久~
我堂姐出了名迟到滴~哈哈~
在等着滴当儿我就在那里睡早了~哈哈~
因为我们两个都累了~很累很累就睡早了~
终于我堂姐到了~回家睡觉咯~
今天其实也还好滴~只不过很累~
很久没有酱滴感觉了~不知道为什么~
可能是因为最近发生了好多事我没有好好滴休息~
都没有什么睡到觉吧~真的发生太多事了~
有很多都是我意想不到不到滴~算啦~
发生了就发生了~我也不想去解释那么多~
免得大家又吵架~我只希望你可以开心滴~
发生了就让它过去吧~我也不想再有这类似滴事发生~
你过滴开心,那我就过滴开心了~
好啦就这样吧~我要去做nOtE了~
晚安~记得开心点啊~

梦想~

2009-07-16T23:43:00.013+08:00

请问下我滴梦想到底去了那里~
我找不回我滴梦想啊~
梦想~梦想~梦想~梦想~
死了吗~还是不见了~还是我根本就没有梦想~
梦想真的很重要吗~
其实我以前有梦想滴~
但~但~但~就因为我爸,我妈和姐滴不满~
我滴梦想就因为他们滴1句不满就不见了~
可能已经找不回了~
有时就是不知道梦想是何物~
可以拿来吃,玩,还是什么啊~
hAiZ~真的不知道可以怎样~
上个星期五看到朋友们都有了自己滴梦想了~
就只有我1个自己滴梦想是什么都不知道~
就好像傻婆酱走来走去~
他们看这个就跟着一起看咯~
看了那么多还是不知道自己滴梦想是什么~
难道我滴梦想在半路已经掉了呢~
掉了半路后就很难再找回来了~
找回来了,那又能怎样~
他们不可能会喜欢我滴梦想滴~
每次都希望我能实现他们要滴梦想~
我听了都很累了~因为我滴梦想不是你们所想滴咯~
所以到现在我都很怕我滴梦想永远都不能实现啊~
梦想~梦想~如果在给我一次机会,我会不会再实现~
我也不知道~因为我滴梦想让我爸他们认为是没有用滴~
每次我做滴事他们从都不会认同我滴~
让我不敢再都任何事有期望啊~
我爸他们滴1句"不"让我不敢再说什么~
因为我不想让他们不开心~
我不想不想再做不孝顺滴女儿~
hAiZ~我真的不知道梦想去了那里~
我好希望梦想能回到我身边~
因为我已经辛苦了好久才找滴梦想~
因为别人1句不什么都完了~
现在滴我是不是还是应该选回我所选滴~
读酒店管理或是烹饪??????
还是选现在都它们有点兴趣滴心理学,bIo TeC,nUtRiTiOn Of FoOd还是医学上滴东西~
可是在酱多课里面没有1科是我爸他们喜欢滴~
他们要我拿aCcOuNtInG o FiNaNcE~
我现在都读了sCiEnCe咯~还要我去读别滴~
要就一开始时就不该叫我拿sCiEnCe了~
hAiZ~我真的不知道你们到底在想什么滴~
我到现在都不知道自己要滴梦想是什么啊~
我觉得自己什么都不该选~
什么都不用读了~
反正我在怎样努力滴把我现在滴成绩变好~
可是我妈从来就不认同~
说我滴成绩永远都不超出她滴预料中~
从来不给我信心和鼓励,天天在打击我~
hAiZ~原来要得到他们信任是那么滴难~
那时我就不敢在想什么梦想滴~
梦想也在那时候消失了~飞到无影无踪了~
现在我还是觉得自己很不适合找出我滴梦想~
因为我这个人是没有梦想滴~
我滴梦想是家人帮我选出来滴~
他们所选滴才是真正滴梦想~
我选滴是废物~没有用滴废物~
所以说我也是废物~没有用滴废物~
算了啦~不管我再怎么努力我还是找不回我滴梦想~
梦想已经被毁灭了~完了~算了~
梦想永远只能跟我说再见~
梦想~我真的需要你滴~但还是算了啦~
越期待失望就会越大~
梦想~~~~

NiCoLe QuAn吗~

2009-07-14T18:02:00.002+08:00

hAiZ~我到底还是不是我自己~
其实我也不知道~
我不清楚自己是不是真的nIcOlE qUaN~
还是我只是1个挂着nIcOlE qUaN这名字去做人滴人~
因为我不知道自己心里在想什么,想要做什么,要滴是什么~
我不知道,真的真的不知道,我摸不清自己要什么和在想什么~
从出生到现在,我不知道自己滴存在是为了什么~
我什么都不知道~我生存滴意义是什么~
难道我生存滴意义是为了你,亲人,朋友,还是把我当成水鱼后就丢在1边~
我真的不知道~还是真的是我想象这样啊~
有时被人当成水鱼是真滴很不好受滴~
可是我从不埋怨你和他们半句~
竟然我当水鱼能够让你或他们开心的话,我无话可说~
我只能说我心甘情愿~
有时,我认为自己滴存在只是为了完成你和他们滴意愿~
可是,每次都被你们说我在勉强自己做些不愿意滴事~
说真的我勉强自己做只想你和他们都开心~
所以我从不感到很勉强~
竟然我答应你和他们滴事,我一定会做到滴~
有时,真的不知道自己还是自己吗~
我到底还是nIcOlE qUaN吗~
我到底要什么,想什么,想跟你说什么~
我真的摸不清我到底要跟你说什么~
我真的不知道~
我只知道我要你开心~
我只希望你能够了解我多一点~
可是我知道自己要求滴太过分了~
我说过不会让你失望,我一定会遵守我答应你滴事~
我答应我会sAyAnG你滴~我一定会做到~
我只想说我没有勉强自己做这些事~
可是现在滴我还是我吗~
我还是nIcOlE qUaN吗~有人可以告诉我吗~
还是我真的挂着这名字去做人啊~
gOr,对不起~今天叫你来学校只想叫你帮我做些事滴~
可是我没有想到我竟然在你面前哭了~
我今天真的控制不了我自己滴情绪~
在学校里我一直在逞强自己不要在这时候哭~
不要让他们知道你在哭~可是在你面前我哭了~
很不好意思~我这些日子不敢在你面前哭因为不想让你知道我喜欢你真的会很难受~
不过我不会埋怨你,因为我喜欢你~
可是我竟然给gOr看到我哭滴样~
我....我.....不知道要怎样~
我已经很久没哭了~直从那时后我不在为任何事哭了~
可是今天竟然为了你而哭~
如果我哭,我伤心真的能够得到你的注意~
我都心甘情愿~
对不起~我最近心情很dOwN所以我希望gOr你不会介意~
gOr,还是要谢谢你的关心~
可是会到图书馆看到我滴sU因为aDd MaTh而差点掉眼泪~
不要再这样了~开心点~
不然我也会不好受滴~因为我也刚哭过怕在哭过~
我想看到我滴sU是能够像以前酱开心~
算啦~我应该知道我不是真正滴nIcOlE qUaN吧~
真正滴nIcOlE qUaN呢~不知道~嗨~
嗨~嗨~嗨~嗨~嗨~嗨~

2009-07-09T23:04:00.025+08:00

8/9/2009

昨天3点多才睡所以今早起身时感觉到很累.....
在车上就在睡觉了,就被老爸骂了一顿咯.....
嗨~算啦.....老爸只是说说吧了.....
去到学校看到楼梯我就很不想走上去了......
因为很累和脚很痛所以不想上去......
但没办法了,就只好上咯......
老妹也陪我慢慢上,老妹谢你咯......
我好感动滴~
终于上到去了......进到班就倒在桌上咯......
累到不懂要怎样说啊~痛到不懂要怎样解释~
今天进到礼堂没有看到你......
就知道昨晚又是因为我跟你讲电话讲到3点多......
害到你没有睡觉.....而且你又要驾车来学校叻......
应该是睡过头了吧......
今天上pJk,Bc,PmOrAl,AdD maTh和Bi咯......
今天滴节也没什么好上滴......
简直就可以睡觉了......对我吧了啦.....PjK是sAlInA上来.....
进到来就叫我们抄一些东西.....都没有用到了抄来做么......
就在跟友贤他们叫话咯......
因为文翰和幸扬他们要画画所以不要打捞他们咯......
反正我对画画什么都不知滴......
友贤喉咙痛所以不能讲酱多咯......
他说他咳到痰有血......比我还好我咳到出很多血滴......
我自己看到都恐怖何况是友贤他们叻......
过后那平正竟然问等下几点火警练习......
我们听后就骂回他说请问下你知道几时火灾滴吗????
不知道,当然也不知道几时火警练习啦......
然后没事做哦,我们就开始在班上帮他们量他们肩膀咯.....
因为要做班衣吗,所以就帮他们量咯......
然后到bC节时,那死aH gUi没有上来哦.....
竟然叫一个大家都不喜欢滴老师.....
那老师她超变态滴,都不知道她做么一直要跟着学校滴规则去做人叻......
我们在帮人家量难道你没有看到吗......
你盲滴哦~不要害我在这里骂粗口哦~
明明今天滴心情还好滴,被你这死人老师害到什么都gOnE了.....
终于天帮我,不用让我再看到你......
这时火警练习了.....大家就下楼咯.....
真滴有够烦滴.....脚痛到要死都要撑强滴走叻......
在篮球场集合咯.....我们找不到我们滴班......好像死掉了哦......
那里知道才在那里5分钟就要我们爬回4楼哦......
38滴哦~早知就不要下来啦.....浪费我滴力啊~
在篮球场看到nYiN她戴眼镜哦......
看到好好笑哦~她问我好看吗,我说有点怪怪滴.....
让到她好像很不开心叻,只好说好看咯......
不过说真滴也满好看滴,只是她刚开始戴所以看到有点怪怪滴......
我知道为什么了.....因为看到很像那些乖学生叻.....
nYiN不是走那路线滴所以怪怪咯.....
回到班就上pMoRaL节了.....
连老师都没有力上课了......
我们只好在外面咯,没事做......
然后那些男生又开始rAp人咯......
这次是rAp 5D班滴kAdEt PoLiS......
刚好又上jUzIRa滴节叻,他们那班......
然后jUzIrA就拿着bOoK KaWaLaN出来打那些男生咯.....
可是过后她不知道怎么又让那些男生进去她班rAp拿个人叻......
奇怪滴~他们讲她自己要看哦......哈哈~
过后下课后就上aDd MaTh节哦.....
上到老师滴节到一半就有种很想睡觉滴感觉......
可能是我自己太累了.....就在半睡半醒中上课咯.....
上完了就到bI咯.....又要看到sAlInA咯.....闲~
她又来分组哦.....要我们做回上次滴作文哦......
做完后就交上去咯,那时就要放学了......
在放学前你终于回我了.....就知道你一定是睡到不会起身了......
回到老爸店又要我顾店了......嗨~
就一直在跟你sMs咯.....然后就自己一个人去mcD吃午餐咯.....
本来是跟阿姚滴.....那里知道她生病了回家了.....嗨~
在那里坐到3点多就回老爸店咯.....因为老爸打来催我了......
回到去他就问去那里了,做么酱久......
对不起,老爸害你担心了.....我只是看城外看到太入神了......
所以忘了时间也忘了通知你......对不起~
就一直跟你sMs咯,顺便等我姐来载我回家......
因为太累了,整个人垮了,老爸叫我先回哦......
等等等到了5点多咯,要6点了......老姐来了.....
就在车上睡下咯......终于到家了.....
就先去冲凉了.....因为想快点去休息......
那里知道当你说不要打捞我时,我才想到今天答应aH gOr去打球了......
哇靠~我现在滴状况好像很不适合打球啦......
但答应了他没办法了.....老爸也催我去打了......
就7点酱你来接我去打球了......
在篮球场我已经垮了,你就一直叫我抢你滴球......
抢了后就想丢进时,跳上来时,我又拉到了之前受伤滴地方了.....
哇靠~当场大叫.....然后就整个人掉下啦......
哇靠~我不该答应你来打球滴......现在我可是在自己伤口上加伤叻......
哇老~还好没有在gOr面前飙泪......
就打个老爸说我又拉到同一个伤口......
老爸听了后就说什么~女儿你没事吧......
不如这样啦,老爸现在过来接你去看医生啊~
那时已经是8点多了,要9点了......
过后老爸终于来了,我跟他说我不想去看医生啦......
我讨厌看医生滴......老爸你又不是不知道啦......
嗨~没办法~讨厌就是讨厌咯......
算咯~就回家老爸帮我按摸咯~
痛到我不知道痛滴感觉是怎样了~麻木了~
打给你,我感觉到自己好像要死要死这样.......
不知道是因为痛过头了,还是累过头了.......
总觉得我滴人生好像很空虚哦......
这整天都在痛苦中度过......
算啦~我又不是没有在痛苦中度过过啦......
老爸整天都在担心我,和一直陪我直到我睡早了......
老爸真辛苦你了.....
说真滴我这不孝女不值得你酱关心我滴.......嗨~

9/7/2009

今天也是痛苦滴一天~
一整天都没有好过......
在学校就装着没有事这样咯~
一大早要走去lAb~嗨~我都不知道要怎样走叻~
从4楼走下来然后又上1楼过后又要下1楼然后再上4楼.......
哇靠~这种生活我不知道要怎样过~
何况今天我滴脚痛到不知道要怎样好......
今天滴心情很糟啊~很累~很痛~
在图书馆里,自己一个人在坐着......
朋友全都不知去了那里~
原来需要朋友时他们都不知道去那里了~
我不需要朋友时他们全都来了~
我那时真滴很空虚啊~
过后aMy来了,我以为她可以陪我滴~
可是不是这样滴她要去找老师~
又要一个人在坐着了~嗨~
过后,欣lU和翠bEnG来了~
我那时喉咙痛和心情糟所以跟我讲话时没什么理到她们......
不好意思啊~我不想滴~
那里知道你竟然说我咳早酱厉害要离我远点~
嗨~算咯~我也知道不该传染给你们滴~
我走就好咯~不用你们走啦~
我自己知道该做什么滴~嗨~
今天在班上睡了两节~还是很累~
醒来后,就是上bI滴节了......
给sAlInA叫醒了......嗨~
然后她就叫我们分组~我还是跟文翰和勇翔同组叻~
很不想跟勇翔同组滴~没办法了~嗨~
然后就讨论那作文~终于做完了~
然后就回我滴位子了~等放学~
放学前发生了1件我很不爽滴事~
当我在我位子前站着时,莫竟然踢我滴椅子~
她踢椅子不用尽啦~可是她踢中我受伤滴脚叻~
痛到我不知道痛滴感觉是怎样了~
哇靠~现在是伤口+伤口再+伤口啊~
我滴脚可以不要了~还好我没在那里叫啊~
只好忍着痛了~放学时就装着没事~嗨~
今天已经够不爽了~现在我滴脚竟然还要再+伤口~
我更不爽了~心情更糟了~算了啦~
嗨~嗨~嗨~嗨~嗨~
然后放学了~在6楼底等人然后走去吃午餐再去补习~
在那里看到你~我知道要做什么滴~
走开吗~我想滴可是他们叫我在这里等幸扬~
我也不想你看到我好像很为难你酱~
所以当你跟他们讲话时我都静静在那里咯~
可是文翰就认为我们吵架了~嗨~
我都不知道叻~吵架比没说话好还是没说话比吵架好~
我很矛盾啊~不知道自己要怎样~
然后去到补习那里没事做只好在睡觉咯~
睡睡下到补习时候了~
进补习后在里面还是一样滴在睡了~
不知道做么今天很累哦~
昨天打球滴关系还是我就是这样滴~
睡到还剩下半个小时~好累哦~
本来想叫姐来载我但她说很累,车又没油了~
所以就等到7点才回咯~
然后要去补习了~补习前就跟你sMs咯~
今天难道我们有要吵架收场吗~
我不想了~每次都是这样~
我怕了~我不想再因为一些事而跟你吵架~
伤了我们滴感情~我要你开心~
然后就说到我们定好滴1个月滴限期咯~
你说先把它给忘了~你叫我tAkE a TiMe O~嗨~
我们说好了不再吵架滴~
我真滴希望我们能做到~
总之你开心我也开心滴~
好啦~不写了~很累和很痛~
要睡了~晚安~

2009-07-06T22:15:00.032+08:00

4/7/2009

今天很早就要起身了......
很累哦~因为昨天没有睡滴关系吧......
昨天一整天在想要怎样跟你说那件事和要怎样跟你说对不起.......
想了好久还是想不到.....
想不到了又不敢睡觉了,因为还有几个小时就到明天了......
直到早上因为家人全都要出去......
我妹要去学校表演,我姐跟妈要去交补习班......
我其他妹妹和弟弟要出学校上课外活动......
我老爸要去上班,只剩下我不知道可以做什么和去那里......
就留在家睡觉咯.....哈哈......
都想不到就不敢睡咯.....好像好白痴哦......
他们一个两个很衰滴知道我留在家就叫我做家务哦......
很累了~你们还好意思叫我做滴......
算咯~我是乖女儿吗,就做咯.....哈哈......
要我晒衣服,洗外面滴地,扫地,抹地,煮饭......
哇老哦~要我死哦.....
像我这种人哪里会做酱多事滴......
现在有点后悔了,早知就不要答应他们做啦......嗨......
算咯~都答应了.....没办法咯.....做不做咯,谁怕谁......
就先晒衣服咯,晒完了就去洗地咯......
其实洗地也满爽下滴,因为可以玩水吗.....哈哈......
洗啊~洗啊~洗啊~好爽哦.....我堂姐还说我是傻婆叻.....
好像第一次洗地酱哦.....哈哈.....是啦,我都是第一次吗......
终于洗完了......就去把桶装满水咯.....
装啊~装啊~装满后竟然没有水来哦......
哇靠~没有水来,我要怎样冲凉哦......
我等下还要出去我老爸店哦......
没有水来啊!!!!!!不爽啦.....
就去扫地,抹地和煮饭咯......
做完了,就躺在沙发上没有事做了......
就一直在想想咯.....终于sMs你了......嗨.....
终于我姐姐,妹妹和弟弟和妈回来了......
我很闲叻在家,你们回来了,我满开心滴......
我也很累了,想睡觉了......
但欣lU打来,叫我去陪她吃午餐和去她店哦......
嗨......反正我都有出去就去陪她咯.....哈哈.....
可是我姐1点多才能载我出去哦......
所以我有预感欣lU会跟她妈或姑姑去吃咯~哈哈~
然后等我姐好等了好久好久~真滴是很慢滴~乌龟
终于肯载我出去了......哈哈......
到了老爸店就开始觉得要睡觉了......嗨......
走去欣lU店,她老妈说跟她姑姑出去吃午餐了......
你看是不是我没猜错吧......哈哈~
她还好意思叫我陪她吃午餐滴......自己去吃了.....你看看~哈哈~
回到老爸店看我滴书咯~城外~哈哈~
越看越精彩叻~哈哈~没买错书啊......
然后她打来了叫我过去.....就过去了......不然她又要变fUnGi了......
到她哪里竟然给我看到你骗我说跟我一样名字滴小妹......
她是欣lU姑姑滴大女儿.....才10岁就骗了我这个17岁滴姐姐......
所以我说过不会放过她滴.....今天竟然让我看到她.....
哈哈~老天都在帮我了......哈哈~开心死我了~
进到去就打她咯.....然后欣lU妈竟然说我还瘦过欣lU叻????
哪里可能滴事叻.....我觉得自己很肥叻.....
然后她竟然叫欣lU回家拿喝了可以增肥滴药给我叻......
aUnTy我看不用了.....我一整天都在吃药滴......
吃到怕了......哈哈.....谢谢你滴好意啊!!!!!
哈哈~还好没有给她看到我滴面叻......
然后她就一直拉我滴头想看下我滴面做么咯......
那欣lU竟然告诉她我被男生kIsS到哦......哇靠~
她也一样滴酱跟她老妈说叻.....我才不是啦.....
然后就在哪里陪他们聊天咯到欣lU要去补习咯......
然后我就回店睡觉咯......哈哈~
睡睡下就到5点多咯.....因为欣lU打来......
问我等下还有在点吗????当然有啦到晚上吗......
就叫我等她咯......她说6点应该会来顾店因为她妈要吃晚餐哦......
就等到7点酱咯.....她来了就叫我过去咯.....
我们又在讲话咯.....讲讲下~要8点了.....
我也要回家了......因为答应老爸陪他吃宵夜然后答应朋友去yUmChA滴.....
欣lU也要回了.....她也答应朋友yUmChA滴......哈哈~
然后打电话叫堂哥来载我咯.....哈哈.....
回到婆婆家冲凉先因为家里没有水来......
冲冲下~老爸也回来了......然后就去吃宵夜咯......
其实我也没什么吃滴啦.....因为晚上我不吃食物滴......
然后就一直催老爸快点咯,因为约好朋友了.....
就快快叫老爸带我去bEaCh哪里yUmChA咯.....哈哈~
到哪里全都到起了.....我竟然迟到了......
嗨~被朋友罚了......请她们喝水哦.....水吧了吗,当然可以......
但是要很贵很贵滴.....哇靠~我pOkAi了......
老爸我不管啦是你慢慢吃害我迟到了,我要跟你拿回钱啊!!!!!
就这样滴我们在哪里kEnG了好多东西......
学校滴,朋友滴,开心滴,伤心滴,生气滴,有没有喜欢滴人那些事咯......
说来说去就是要说我滴东西滴......嗨~
我滴事有酱好说嚒????我也不知道叻.....
就一直在说我滴事就要到1点多咯......
大家都要回家咯,她们明天还要去练球......
我也想去但我.......嗨~算啦......什么都是我滴错......
就这样我滴好友就载我回家咯......
她对我最好滴啦.....应该做我姐姐咯.....哈哈.....
真滴会爱死她滴......哈哈~很美下滴哦~哈哈~
到家都快2点多咯......家人都睡觉了.....不敢吵醒他们......
就这样我也该去睡觉了......
晚安~

5/7/2009

今天很迟起身.....因为昨天太迟睡了......
但是被老爸吵醒了......说什么要准备东西哦......
哇靠~老爸啊!!!!你有不是不知道你女儿是懒猪很迟才醒滴吗......
就这样醒了.....吃早餐.....做东西......
然后到晚上就出去吃晚餐因为今天我堂姐跟他爸生日哦......
他们请我们吃晚餐哦.....哈哈~
就这样其实今天也没有什么好写滴......
就这样吧.....晚安咯~

6/7/2009

今天滴节超闲滴没事做滴......
就决定要在班上睡觉了.....哈哈.....
bIo节没什么好上滴.....那老师一天到我跟我iMaGiNe哦.....
要我杀她滴哦.....aIyO.....
然后就上bI节咯.....那sAlInA竟然又要我们分组哦.....
这次又要做eSSaY哦.....哈哈.....
aIyO.....很麻烦滴哦......
这次我,文翰和勇翔又在回同一组哦.....哈哈~ 有缘哦.....
这次文翰是我们滴kEtUa哦!!!!!然后有振维还有徳伟咯......
我们就要开始讨论那篇eSsAy时,有训导老师找我,亿玲,可俐,如仪和sErRiC咯......
我们就一直在讨论为什么老师要找我们哦......
一直讨论到那里老师就叫我们进去等哦.....
原来......只是要我们添个人资料和画什么鬼gRaPh哇~
都不知道拿来做什么滴.....真滴浪费我滴时间......
我还要上EST滴叻.....我要上aRiN滴节......
害我要添到下课,其实很早就可以走了.....
那老师一直在nOu NoU哦......38滴.....
然后就上bM节咯......其实也没有什么好说滴.......
老师就一直在跟我们说kArAnGaN咯.....
然后叫我们做咯......我们从来都不做滴......
就在讲话咯.....一直在笑咯.....哈哈.....
然后就到mM节咯......讲到mM节就想到yAp SiEw KuAn要回来了.....
明天叻~嗨~pOh PEnG没有教我们了.....
哇靠~我不想yAp SiEw KuAn教啊!!!!!!
算啦......谁叫她是我们滴mM老师叻.....
然后就上sEj咯.....嗨~
我没有去上那节哦.....哈哈~我不想看到那yUhAnIs啊!!!!
就跟我sU在gAl GuIdE那里坐咯......
我们一直在笑阿朱和佩仪.....他们竟然为了订书机和打洞机在闹了好多笑话.....
哈哈~笑死我和sU哦......哈哈~
终于放学了~本来可以回家滴......
那里知道要帮老爸顾店哦.....都是我叔叔啦要去玩哇.....
就在老爸店咯.....然后就去mcD打包咯......
很饿了~就要回到老爸店时,欣lU打来......
她说她听到mY fM有讲张栋梁滴音乐会滴游戏单元哦......
她要我帮她拿到号码哦.....
好吧~你叫到我一定拿到滴啦.....放101个心吧.....哈哈.....
终于到晚上了.....可以回家睡觉了......哈哈.....
回到家还是睡不早因为要帮她找那东西咯......
就去mY fM滴网络找咯.....终于给我找到了.....哈哈~
然后nYiN上网叻......就一直跟她cHaT咯......哈哈~
我们两个很像傻婆和38婆酱叻......一直在讲一直在笑啊~哈哈.....
然后又不开心滴事发生了......
我不是有意要让你生气和不爽滴......
因为在跟nYiN cHaT所以就没时间回你......
对不起~我不是有意滴~我每次都让你不开心......
我好像不适合留在这世上滴哦.....
每天都惹到你不开心,我不是真滴要这样滴结果滴......
我要你开心.....天天都开心.....天天都在笑......

7/7/1009

今天很累因为昨天没有睡到酱咯......嗨~
没去学校前友贤跟我说他没有去学校哦......
因为他病了.....嗨~他要我跟sU讲哦......
今天滴心情满开心下滴......因为.......
哈哈......aH gOr说他今天要来学校哦......
哇~他难得要来叻,哈哈......他说有事要做哦.....
然后在学校滴接都不好上滴......很闲......
有cHeM,有bC,有aDd MaTh,有sIvIk,有mAtH,有bM咯......
都是没那么喜欢滴节咯.....至少aDd MaTh,mAtH,cHeM和bM还可以上吧......
其他滴就不是人上滴节......
在班上就一直在等aH gOr SmS我咯......
可是等了好久他都没有回我哦.......
算咯.....我就sMs他咯......他才回我哦.....
衰滴哦~然后他终于回我说他没来哦,要在家里睡觉哦......
听了后,我滴心情就这样滴dOwN下来......
没心情了~衰滴啊~我就是在等他来吗......
他现在才告诉我没有来.........
要就在开始时就跟我说你没有来就好啦......
为何要说我明天有来学校啊......
不爽了~不要理他了......
到1.10点我们就决定了不上bM接要出去吃午餐哦......
我们6个人就走出去咯......
走前还要走去酱多班找人叻,累到要死了,还有心情已经不好了......
走出去就越来越累和不爽了......
他们说要去七喜吃哦,尤其是亿玲她......
明知道我最讨厌去那里吃滴来......
算啦......去不去咯.....我不想再吵下去了.....
因为今天很不爽了,再吵我怕我滴火药味会很严重啊~
走到 ;乁都不知道可以吃什么......
还随便叫了杨州炒饭咯和iCeD lEmOn TeA......我超爱滴水......
吃完了,我们就去找帮我们班做衣服滴人......
我们在那里聊了好久.....终于聊好了......我们订做50件......
然后我们就走去拍照咯......因为我跟莫没有拍我们就走去欣lU滴妈店看咯......
因为要买礼物给朋友吗......看咯......
在那里我们看了1个满适合她滴bAg......
不过我们要等文翰他们问看他们滴意见......
等他们过来真滴很久滴我.....真滴要杀死他们了.....
终于来了.....看到亿玲不在我就知道为什么了......嗨~死性不改滴.....
就问他们那个bAg好看吗......他们都说oKaY.....
所以我们就买那个咯.....然后走去cZiP Lee买东西咯......
哪个时候欣你打来我们讲了一下就开始火药味重了......
你看是不是我心情已经不爽了,跟人讲话一定火药味很重滴.......
我不是真滴要这样滴......我只是在开玩笑啦......
我不想再跟你说"S"滴字了......我知道你不喜欢......
和我也答应你了.....算啦.....我不知道自己可以解释什么......
就只能说又是我滴错了......
然后就走去补习咯.....经过mcD时看到nYiN哦.....
她也跟我一样去同一个地方补习.....
看到她就顺便打她咯,谁叫她讲错话要我打她......
不过也没什么心情跟她玩到酱颠了......
就跟她讲话吧了......然后去到补习.....
就已经很累了,我那时真滴要垮了......
你看啦,等下补到一半我有要睡觉了......
可是没想到aMy今天竟然早到了.....不能玩她了......
她也好像变聪明了啊.....知道我们要关她滴门就出去时一直拉着门咯.....哈哈~
可是我没想到我自己今天竟然没有在睡觉哦....
而是在跟aMy讲话和玩哦......哈哈~
终于补完了.....可以回家睡觉了......
就走去老爸店咯.....走到那排时看到每间店都是暗暗滴......
才知道原来没电来了......哈哈~
老爸就说如果7点后还是没电来,我们就早放工回家睡觉.....
就等到7点了,真滴没电来.....我们真滴早放工回家了......
到家就快点冲凉然后就在发呆咯.....
然后到晚上时我有打跟你了......
这次我们因为一件事就吵到火药味越来越重了......
我也越来越不能控制自己了.....
但是真真滴我不想跟你吵架滴......
你也应该知道为什么滴......但我实在控制不了我滴情绪啊.......
我不知道可以说什么了......我不能对你说"S"滴字......
我只能说我不是真滴要这样滴结果哦......
可是过后我们也慢慢滴控制好自己滴情绪......
我们就开始发问问题了......刚开始是我问你,你答......
不过过后是你问我,我答你......
就这样滴我觉得我问滴问题好像很费滴感觉了......
不过不用尽啦.....反正我想不到要问什么.....
等我真滴想了,我一定会问回你滴......
然后你就问我问题咯.....问些我以前一直很喜欢逃避滴问题.....
可是我没有想到这次我竟然回答你所有滴问题......
我都自己很感到意外,很不可失意......
我们讲了很多东西.....也回答了很多东西......
我希望我给滴答案你可以满意咯......
我也希望在学校看到我不要好像看到鬼或怕我吃你酱......
我在学校已经很尽量滴控制自己滴情绪,感情......
和控制自己当我没看到你经过我身边.......
我能说滴也已经跟你说完了.....
不过你有问题我还是会回答你滴......
就这样吧....记得凡事都要开心哦~
你开心我也会很开心滴......
我不会忘记我们约好了滴1个月滴时间......
和我们2个星期滴决战哦~哈哈~
就到此啦......累了~
要睡了~晚安咯~

2009-07-04T11:48:00.020+08:00

2/7/2009~

今天也没什么好说滴......
只能说今天在学校就一直要睡觉咯......
今天滴节根本都不好上滴......
只有最后4节吧了咯......
那就是eSt和Bm咯......
只有这4节我在听书,之间5节都在睡觉咯......
不过至少第3和第4节我有听书......
因为pOh PeNg交aDd MaTh 吗......哈哈.....
今天滴aDd MaTh教第5课也就是说要交完了......
还有1个部分还没教就是画gRaPh滴......
老师说星期一才教,那时正课都教完了.....
开新滴一课咯.....哈哈.....
今天也满多东西学滴,也全部都会完了.......
哈哈.....我好像很自恋叻.....哈哈.....
然后fIzIk和bC我都在睡觉和发呆咯.....
都没事做和老师一直在讲费话滴.......
都不知道他们怎样教人滴......
还到全部人都fAiL了.....衰滴!!!!!!!
然后在bM节时发生了好大件事了......
也满吓到人滴.....哈哈.....
都是那两个男生滴错咯......
不要说出是谁啦......
好玩不玩在后面滴门口玩手机哇.......
明知道aH oOi教5C班滴吗......
真是没死过滴......害死人滴叻......
他们在后面玩手机,然后aH oOi经过.......
看到他们玩手机就叫他们把手机拿出来.....
然后看到另外3个玩手机......就捉他们咯......
但他们有滴是别人滴手机......
真是害死人滴.....拿别人滴手机玩哦......
就这样没收了3架电话咯.......
那个mArInA还好意思叫aH oOi sPoRt我们滴班叻......
衰滴你~不过也不能怪老师啦......
说叫他们每个都不尊重老师......
每天在她滴节讲话和玩手机......
然后aH oOi还是不满意哦......
就在班上sPoRt班上滴男生咯......
然后她看到友翔在睡觉就叫他起身......
他已经睡了4节给她吵醒......
然后就问他:"hAnDpHoNe MaNa?"
友翔很bLuR滴起身然后就拿出来了......
就这样滴没收了4架电话咯.....
她还是要抄收他们滴书包......
然后走到友贤和明生那里......
友贤竟然把手机放在鞋子里啊!!!!!!
哪里知道aH oOi要cHeCk他滴鞋子哦......
就叫他们两个脱鞋咯......
友贤就趁她问明生:"wHeRe Is U SoCkS?"
友贤就快点滴把手机推去前面......
然后aH oOi没有看到就走去cHuN YaN那里.......
就抄他滴书包,抄抄下受到他滴手机了......
嗨......5架手机被没收了.....
就我们fRoM 5我们滴班是最多架手机被没收滴......
可以颁最佳多手机滴班啊!!!!!
哈哈.....我们好厉害滴......
还好她没有sPoRt女生不然就不会有5架了......
会有很多架了......哈哈.....
莫是最幸运了......
因为她4节不在班叻.....
就这样我和友贤走去5E班.....
看到pOh PeNg在里面......
就告诉老师我们班sPoRt cHeCk叻......
然后老师竟然骂我们说你们明知道我在这班又不要拿过来给我收......
我们就说老师我们是无辜滴......
而且这sPoRt cHeCk是突然间发生滴......
那有时间拿给你哦.......
现在我们班滴人全都不爽aH oOi了.......

3/7/2009~

今天滴心情不好受咯......
也很闲咯.....今天滴节全都不好上滴......
也是睡觉滴一天咯......哈哈.......
所以没什么好写了......
今天放学就跟老姐去欣lU滴店买礼物咯.......
我们在那里看了好久也不知道买什么......
欣lU滴姑姑也满好笑滴......
一直在讲你们要看什么就说,我拿给你们......
要买太阳眼镜吗????
我们就笑然后她就记得了说"你爸爸店也是买太阳眼镜滴哦"
哈哈.....然后她就问酱我去你电有滴折扣吗?????
哈哈.....当然有啦.....你来买我就敢叫我老爸给折扣咯......
然后我跟姐看手表......那里有很多我都喜欢滴手表.......
然后就跟姐说我喜欢滴手表.......她说我喜欢滴手表很好看叻.......
她说那些手表很sPoRtY 哦...... 很美哦........
哈哈....当然美啦,我喜欢滴东西从来都不丑滴......
然后我叫姐买一个有黏着珠子滴手表给堂姐........
但姐说怕堂姐不喜欢哦.....
然后欣lU滴姑姑就叫姐买bAg给堂姐.......
我姐说她很喜欢欣lU姑姑给她看滴bAg哦.......
不过她也买不到因为家里已经爆满了她滴bAg......没办法......
她太爱那些东西.....哈哈.....
然后就看了好多手表,全都很美,我都很喜欢......
如果给欣lU知道我全都喜欢她可能会发疯叻.....
因为全部都是她选滴吗.......
她一定开心到可以飞起来了......哈哈.....
然后她姑姑就叫我姐试带一个新款滴手表......
满美滴,不错滴.....它是一粒一粒滴......
它滴号码很特别滴.....有很多种颜色哦.......
竟然有我滴pInK cOlOuR叻.....好爱叻.....
那欣lU就是一直催着我买那个......
但是因为我买了3个手表,也没带那么多钱只好不要买先咯......
eH,欣lU我不是不要买是没有带酱多钱啊......sOrRy啊~
很好笑滴就是我姐她很不好意思一直要欣lU滴姑姑一直帮她那手表还是bAg来看.......
所以我姐就没有出生一直问我这个好看吗,那个好看吗????
然后我就说oKaY lAh......堂姐应该会喜欢啦......
然后给欣lU姑姑听到了......
她就说:"aIyO,你要看那一个告诉我,我拿给你看......"
"不要一直不好意思啦"
"看吧了,试吧了,又不用给钱啦"
"要看那一个,跟我说,我拿给你看"
就这样我姐就一直笑笑笑咯.......
我觉得我姐好白痴哦.....哈哈.....好好笑啊!!!!!!
就这样我们选了好久,终于决定要买了........
我们买了3个手表......一个给堂姐,一个是我滴,另外滴是我姐滴......
我们3个滴是同一个款式来滴......哈哈......
买完了,就准备回家睡觉了......
今天好累哦.....昨晚3点才睡觉叻......
回到家后,就快点跑去冲凉了......
然后就吃饭咯.....然后,洗鞋咯......
然后就看刚买滴城外......刚看就觉得很好看了......
可是看看下就睡着了.......
就这样睡睡下,被姑姑吵醒了......
因为已经7点了,等下要去别人家吃自由餐.......
醒了后,就快点做好准备咯......吃完自由餐后,我还要赶去下半场啊!!!!!!
累死我了.....好不想去了......
然后接到文翰cAlL来他问我要不要去看tRaNfOrMeR吗????
还要11点去看叻,还是跟他啊gOr去看了......
因为我答应我朋友去yUmChA了,所以不能跟文翰去看咯.......
然后他竟然问我喜欢谁哦......
我说我不想告诉任何人是谁......
不是我不相信你啊!!!!!
只是不要知道对大家都好吗......
然后就等老爸回来载我们去亲戚家咯......
终于等到老爸回来了.....就一起去咯......哈哈.....
到那里,一脚踏在他家门口时,就被人捉去喝酒了......
wAlAo KaO~我不是很厉害喝滴叻......
喝了会呕到很难看滴叻......
他们竟然拿3种酒放在我前面问我要红酒,Xo还是啤酒啊?????
我问他们3个不要可以吗????
他们说你没有选那我帮你选喝xO吧......
wAlAo o~我最最最讨厌喝xO滴......
算咯~算咯~我选喝红酒咯......
就任他们倒咯.....真是滴越倒越多滴......
喝了又倒喝了又倒.....你以为我是神仙哦,可以喝酱多哦......
那时真滴希望老爸快走叻......这里简直就是地狱吗.....
还好文翰cAlL我,我有救星了......哈哈......
文翰告诉我他,lIsA和欣lU竟然在补习时猜我喜欢谁哇......
还一直在讲来讲去哇......aIyO,专心滴上课吧......哈哈.....
sU还好意思叫欣lU去我bLoG看我写滴东西......
然后猜猜是谁哦.....aIyO,猜不到滴啦就有我知道......哈哈.....
然后就接到朋友cALl我说等下不可以去yUmChA了......
因为有事要做.....哈哈.....我好开心哦......
因为我醉到酱好还意思去yUmChA嚒......
都不知道等下会发生什么事叻......
等下抱着我朋友来吻就不好啦......
等下有人说我是lEsBiAn就不好啦......
然后到了11点多老爸才说我们回家吧......
aIyO,老爸啊~你看你女儿变成什么样啦......
要走前还要给人拉去喝最后一杯叻......
在车上真滴已经晕脱脱脱了......
回到家就发生了好多不愉快滴事了.......
还是不要说比较好啦......
只有你知道就好啦.......
我也不想再把不愉快滴事说出来了.......
今天滴心情简直就dOwN到不能再dOwN下去了......
才那几个小时发生了很多我不想发生滴事......
自己也受伤了......不只肉体滴伤,心也伤到很严重了.......
几个小事里竟然跟2个人吵架......
跟第一滴吵到很厉害,差点我就要动手打人了......
因为肉体跟心也受伤了,我忍无可忍了很想动手打人......
但我懂滴分几时该打人几时不该打人和该打谁不该打谁.......
然后就跟你吵架了.......
我也不想滴!!!!!!对不起!!!!!
是我滴问题,是我滴错......我不知道那件事可以弄成这样滴.......
是我一手造成滴......我很抱歉啊~
我不知道我还能做什么也不知我能说什么......
可能我真滴缺乏信心吧,可能我爱逃避吧.....
对不起啦!!!!!
今天所有滴事我也不想发生滴......
但它始终还是发生在我身上了......
我不能不否认和不能不接受.......
我应该想贤川所说滴要勇敢滴面对和要给自己信心啊~
我知道我该怎样做了......
不写了~
很累了,要睡觉了~
心情太dOwN了~
不知要怎样解释~
晚安咯~^^

慢慢滴~

2009-07-03T00:07:00.006+08:00

我不知道要写什么哦......
也不知道要怎样写出来叻......
我想说我喜欢一个不该喜欢滴人......
我不知道要怎样说呢......
喜欢他我也没有想象到滴事......
当我知道自己喜欢他时我也感到很惊讶......
感到好不可失意哦.......
他滴人很好滴.....满帮滴朋友滴......
我很喜欢跟他交朋友......
但不知道为什么交朋友后才知道自己喜欢他......
那时真滴把我给吓到了.....
因为我只把他当成最好滴朋友.......
但没想到自己喜欢人家.....
酱多朋友里他是个可以把他耳朵借给我滴.....
每次有开心或不开心滴事我都会找他......
不懂要怎样解释滴心情......
就好像当拿起手机时,第一个想到滴人或第一个按滴名字.....
竟然就是他.....不知道为什么.......
有一天我竟然把我喜欢他滴事告诉了他......
他就以为我在开玩笑......
他也跟我说他喜欢我......
但那时我知道他只是在开玩笑......
我告诉他我是认真滴,不是在开玩笑.......
他才正经了起来......
我把我当时滴想法都告诉了他......
但我跟他保证我一定会回到以前这样......
不喜欢他滴时候,回到我把他当成最好滴朋友......
但我发觉越来越控制不到自己滴情感......
我很在乎他不理我,很在乎他做滴每一件事......
当我cAll他或sMs他没回我滴话我会急到暴.......
我不喜欢他在学校给我滴感觉和样子......
我喜欢他能想平时跟我讲话时滴样子和感觉......
我不喜欢他忽略我滴感觉很很很我好受.......
只从跟他说我喜欢他后,他好象很忽略我了.......
我感到很失望......
但我怕告诉我怕被人冷落滴感觉.......
有一天他突然问我还有喜欢他吗......
我知道我再告诉他还有滴话......
他会越来越忽略我......
所以我选择了说我没有喜欢你了......
我知道自己说这句话会令到自己很不好受滴......
但没办法了,我不想你再想太多.......
不想你忽略和冷落我......
我很希望能像之前这样爱骂就骂,爱打就打滴日子.......
但我不知道我还能拥有吗.......
我对这份喜欢渐渐滴感到失望了......
就慢慢滴慢慢滴变淡了.......
不过还是有喜欢你滴感觉......
不过我很努力滴控制自己不要再对你有感觉.......
和不要再告诉你还喜欢你.......
不然我滴后果会是我想象中那样......
我真滴真滴不知道自己要怎样.......
我只希望你能开心滴生活......
你开心酱我就会开心滴......
总之有什么烦恼我是第一个站出来帮你滴......
总之不要想太多......
我能解决到就会帮你解决......
解决不到我也会想进办法帮你......
总之有什么事就开心点.......
记滴要笑一个啊!!!!!!!!!
我是真滴希望你能开心虽然你不喜欢我......
算啦......不喜欢就不该勉强下去了......
总之我能说我真滴喜欢你......
不过我会很努力滴慢慢滴把你给放走......
就这样啦.....很累了~
晚安咯~

给你滴.......

2009-07-02T16:33:00.007+08:00

其实我也不知道要说什么滴........
我只知道我现在要说什么都没有用了.......
我知道之前是我底错.........
我没有怪你生气我还是什么........
不过当那天晚上你sMs我告诉我很多东西........
你说当处你来5F班时,不是很喜欢我们这班......
当时你也只认识莫吧了......
但因为认识莫也很自然滴认识我了.......
你说当认识我后你就开始喜欢这班了......
你说这班跟之前那班滴朋友很不一样........
说这班滴友情很真实滴.......
说因为我能在这班带给你欢笑还是什么滴.......
我很感谢你那么滴重视我这个朋友.......
就这样有一天滴下午你就很自然滴把你滴事告诉了我和莫......
说你很相信我们俩才说滴......
你说我也从来不告诉任何人......
你说你和我一样有着自己滴朋友.....
你说无可否认,你也有把我滴事告诉了你滴aH gOr.....
说你跟我一样很相信他们不会说出去.......
你说你不应该那么自私......
说你应该相信我滴朋友才对......
你说你有责备自己说为什么你自己可以告诉你滴朋友而我不能呢.......
说你从这几天看到我sU是个很好滴人......
说她知道你滴秘密后还装不知道........
你说她会这样是想要保护我.......
和不想让你酱尴尬......
你说今天看到没有表情滴样子滴我......
你觉滴自己很自责......
你跟我说声对不起是想让我能重心开心起来.......
你叫我原谅你滴自私.......
叫我做回自己,说不要再戴面具了......
说面具不好做哦......
你知道我看了信息后第一个反应是什么吗.......
我看完后我感到很生气.......
因为我没有想到你竟然不相信我滴sU咯......
除此以外你也一样滴跟你滴aH gOr说我滴事......
你说你相信他才说......
那我也一样相信她我才说滴.......
我不敢相信你也为了自己滴自私而这样子.......
我不敢相信啊!!!!!
可是过后我想了很久.......
你也没错滴.....我不该生气你滴......
对不起.......可能我太情绪化了......
我不会怪你任何事......
我也不想听到你跟我说对不起因为你没有错啦......
我真滴真滴不会怪你滴......
算啦.....过去滴事不要再提了......
大家开心点才是重要啦......
总之我只希望你不要再跟我sU说我不睬你还是什么......
因为我不想再看到她那自责滴样了......
她本来就应该开心滴......
所以我希望你明白我说滴东西......
我最希望你真滴可以相信我sU啊!!!!!!
就这样啦......
累了要睡了.....
晚安~

我没有能力aCt回原本了~

2009-06-30T22:51:00.006+08:00

对不起!!!!!我现在已经没有能力aCt回原本了......
我已经很累了......
我真滴没能力回到以前了......
我真滴很抱歉啦......
但你们放心吧......
虽然aCt不回原本但我还是一样滴跟你们聊天......
只是没像以前这样开心吧......
我还是一样滴跟你们坐在一起......
只是当你们说些不关到我滴事时我会选择离开......
我只是希望你们不要再问我为什么.......
其实也没有为什么滴......
也不管到你们滴事......
不是我还再生气你们也不是因为你们是不是再生气我......
我不再介意你们到底生气我还是什么.......
我也不会介意你们到底原谅我吗.......
你们不要再想太多了吗.......
我没有讨厌你们还是生气你们.......
我很开心有你们这样滴朋友.......
但我只能说抱歉因为那件事令到我知道我不适合做你们滴朋友.......
不过我不会再说要退出了......
你们也不要误会说我因为不要sU不睬我才不退出啦......
我现在说不退出因为我有我滴原因但我不想说......
我aCt不回原本滴我也因为我有我滴原因......
不要再问我为什么了......
我不想再回答了.......
虽然你跟我说你也很自责因为看到没有表情滴我......
你也说你也是很自私......
因为你也有告诉你滴好朋友我们之间滴事......
你也说你想了很久你为什么可以说但我不可以呢........
你说我相信我滴sU你也相信你滴好朋友......
但你却生气我跟我sU说你滴事......
我却没有生气你跟你好朋友说我滴事呢.......
你说这几天你终于看到我sU是个很好滴人.....
你说她已经知道你滴秘密了......
但她却扮不知道是因为要保护我和不让你尴尬......
你说你要跟我说抱歉因为你很自责看到没表情滴我......
但我不想听到你跟我说抱歉.......
因为我不再需要了.......
可能可以这样说啦看到你我真滴不知道可以说什么......
然而看到其他6个我也不知道可以说什么......
但我依然还是有回答你们滴问题.......
只是我没有正面看着你们回答吧了.......
请不要怪我......我也不想滴.......
我实在滴aCt不回原本滴我了......
我真滴很抱歉滴........
你们说限制我在1个星期内aCt回原本滴我......
但我只能说不管你给我几久滴时间......
我也很难aCt回原本滴我了......我不知道为什么......
可能是我不想再做回以前那种我吧......
我发觉以前滴我很想很傻,很笨和很蠢......
可能以前滴我只能令到你们笑吧......
我现在我不再想这样了.......
可能是我怕我会再做错事了......
不过你放心我答应了3个人不再做错事了......
所以我aCt不aCt回原本滴我也无所谓吧......
总之大家开心就好了.......
对不起!!!!!我始终达不到你们要滴要求啊.......
我能说滴就已经说了......
我也只能说现在滴我也是以前滴nIcOlE啊!!!!!!
只是aCt不回原本滴我了.......
现在什么都不重要了......
只是学业对我重要了......
在朋友里已经没有滴......算了吧.....
就让它过去吧......
可能对我们没有酱介意了......
我希望你们能明白我所说滴东西吗.......
我已经没有能力aCt回原本滴我了.......
我只能跟你说人永远都不会做对滴事或是没有自私过滴......
所以我从不怪你自私滴......
我只希望能令到我sU很开心呢.......
其他以后再说吧......
对不起!!!!!朋友我真滴aCt不回了咯.........
不写了~很累和弱了.....
要睡觉了.....晚安咯.....

无话可说了~

2009-06-29T21:13:00.028+08:00

对不起!!!!可能之前我太傻,太笨,太蠢还是什么吧......
我也知道我做错了很多事......
也是无法原谅滴事......
所以我从不要求什么.......
我也不能做什么.......
但因为不想让sU不开心......
不想她再为我滴事烦,不想她失望,不想她不理我和不想他生气我.......
我知道那件事令到她很烦,很不开心,很失望,生气和不理我了......
她一天到晚都在tAm我不要退出.......
我知道她说了很多东西,tAm了我很久.......
但我不知道可以做什么......
我也知道不只sU不开心......
欣lU也因为这样被连累了......
她什么事都不知道滴被我和sU夹在中间.......
她是无辜滴......
她什么都不知道滴被我和sU拉了进来.....
令到她很不开心,很烦,很失望了.......
其实之前sU还没来烦她前我已经烦她好久了.......
我们每天都在cAlL对方和sMs对方......
其实之前我和欣lU很赞同一个看法......
那个看法我们也想过一直实行滴.......
那个看法我怕我很难再跟她一直实行了......
不过我真滴很想跟她实行那个看法......
我也不想说出那个看法是什么......我和她知道就好了......
她那时说那个看法我现在就可以实行了......
但因为sU摧她要在1天内tAm我不要退出......
所以她只好叫我不要实行了......
她也一样滴在叫我不要退出......
她们两个就一直在tAm我咯......
不只这样我也不想让贤川不开心,烦,失望,和生气......
他也是一样不知道什么事被我连累了......
每次我不开心滴时候,开心滴时候,生气滴时候......
都是他在教我,告诉我,tAm我,骂我......
我知道每次烦他是不好滴......
但他也很有耐心滴在教我,告诉我,tAm我和骂我......
但因为这次我说我要退出这8个人滴友谊时......
他很生气滴骂我说我教了你酱多......
说了你酱多,tAm了你酱多,骂了你酱多......
你竟然还说要退出啊!!!!!!
那时他就不再理我了......
我知道因为着件事令到我和他吵架了,令到他不爽了......
令到他不开心,让他认为他所说滴,所教滴,所骂滴都是白费滴.....
对不起!!!!!!我知道我很笨,很蠢,很傻......
每次都是你在帮我,安慰我......
你说我很缺乏信心,很不够成熟......
你说我缺乏了朋友给滴信心和自己给滴信心......
但他说他已经把他所有滴信心已经给完我了.......
只是我自己没给自己信心......
你也说你不喜欢我是个爱逃避和搂弱滴人.......
所以我答应你我不会在做那种人了......
所以当他在次骂我时,我也知道这次令到很多人失望了......
对不起!!!!!sU,欣lU,贤川,莫,友贤,志森,文翰和幸扬不开心,和失望了......
我不想sU,欣lU和贤川不开心和失望了......
和志森也说了我很多......
他说我每次都要朋友开心但现在我不开心他们也会不开心滴.......
他说我们这组是8个人滴,少了一个就不完美,不开心了......
我也不想留那傻婆莫一个人啊......
不然她又不开心了......
可能你说滴对我们这"不凡滴死党"是不会有tHe EnD滴.....
一世为友,终生为友!!!!!!
但我不想那些人再为我滴事而不开心了......
sU,欣lU和贤川不要再不开心,失望和不理我了.......
我真滴很抱歉啊!!!!!!
所以我不会再说我要退出了!!!!!
对不起啊!!!!!之前是我滴错啊!!!!!
但虽然我不退出,我会理你们滴......
但我看当你们在说话,不管到我滴事时,我会选择睡觉......
不要问我为什么啊!!!!!!
因为我不想感到不自在了,不想再犯错误了.......
而我也无话可说了~
可能我真滴累了......让我休息吧......
就让它过去吧......反正我已经决定了不退出了......
所以希望你们能了解啊!!!!!
喂,你们三个不要再不理我了.......
开心点,我要看到你们3个都开心......
那我才会开心滴.......
所以我决定不退出了.......
我已经没有能力再跑会原本滴我了.....
我只能站在原地不动吧......
可能我不能再想以前这样开心吧......
伤害你们和伤害自己我不再想了.......
至少我不会再做错事了......这样一来大家都会很开心滴......
但我会笑着面对你们7个人......
不过sU,欣lU和贤川你们放心啦......
我不想让你们不开心了.......
我不会再做错事了......
我不想关心我滴人再为我滴事而担心了.......
所以我很清楚我自己现在在做什么.......
总之我很感谢你们酱关心我......
谢你们3个人一直在给我鼓励和安慰......
我也很开心你们7个不再生气了......
我真滴无话可说了~
请原谅现在滴我.......
我真滴无法想以前这样了......
可能现在滴我真滴很开心吧.......
欣lU可能我们所说滴真滴可以实行了~
不过希望你不要告诉别人我们滴事哦~
总之谢你啦~哈哈~
所以我能说我不退出了~
我真滴无话可说了~
总之谢你们了~
不写了~身体很累和弱了~
最近很多压力~
晚安了~

对不起!!!!!

2009-06-27T12:33:00.004+08:00

对不起!!!!!我知道是我滴错!!!!!!
我知道我每次都会做错事滴.....
对不起!!!!!!我毁了我们滴承诺......
我毁了我们8个人之间滴友谊.......
我发觉我不适合留8个人滴友谊里......
我做错一次后我怕我会再做错多一次.......
我怕我们滴友谊会再次毁在我手上.......
对不起!!!!!!可能我不是你们要找滴朋友......
可能我真滴不适合留在这圈子里.......
我只希望你不要怪我滴sU......
她是没错滴.....错是错在我这里......
我希望你能把她当成是朋友,要信任她......
但我也知道我滴要求太过火了.......
我不要求太多,我不希望你能原谅我......
但我希望你能不要怪其他人......
他们是没有错滴,全都是我滴错......
我知道我什么都不能说......
我只能说对不起!!!!!我不会再要求什么......
你们不再信任我,我也没办法......
我唯一能做滴就是退出在这友谊里......
这样一来大家都会开心滴.......
大家不会再受伤害,大家就不用说不信任对方.....
我怕迟点会更伤害到你们每个人......
我不知道能说什么,能做什么......
只能说声对不起!!!!!和退出这圈子里......
因为我很清楚滴知道我不属于这个圈子里滴人......
因为做错一次不想再错下去了......
我这次做错滴事已经够严重了......
现在滴我应该要改变了......
我不在乎你们原不原谅我......
我在乎你们到底当我sU是什么......
我不明白我sU没做错事,她却要道歉.....
她一直在怕你会生气......
她一直在告诉我不知要怎样好......
我在怎样安慰她,她对不理......
这不是她滴错,是我滴错......
要怪就怪我,完骂就骂我,要打就打我,要生气就生气我......
不要再扯到她头上了.....
我答应她以后所有朋友滴事都不会告诉她.....
只说我滴事......
所以我希望你们能忘了这件事......
然后从新开始.....
以后你们有什么秘密不要再告诉我了......
当你们要说什么秘密时我会离你们很远滴......
可以说我会退出这个友谊......
我不想我滴sU酱烦,不想再让自己受伤和不想你们不信任大家了......
对不起!!!!!因为我滴自私和过错害了大家......
算了......我已经做决定了.....
我们滴友谊只能到里就要结束了......
很抱歉!!!!!我滴过错和自私.......
对不起!!!!!!我不能说什么和做什么.......
只能这样结束我们滴友谊......
不要再生气对方了.....
我很珍惜我们之前滴友谊,虽然时间很短......
但我很开心.....算啦.....
结束对我和大家是件好事......

抱歉了!!!!!!

没有去学校滴两天~

2009-06-27T10:20:00.007+08:00

25/6/2009

昨天跟你吵架后,心情就越来越糟了......
身体也越来越不舒服了......
可能是病了很多天吧......
老爸和朋友们都叫我去看医生.....
但我没有去.....因为我很恨看医生和很恨吃药......
所以就拖了那么久,身体就越来越弱和不舒服了......
终于到昨天晚上,一直去厕所呕......
身体也越来越烧了,头越来越痛,身体越来越没力了......
老爸就叫我明天不要去学校了......
免得越来越糟糕啊!!!!!!
所以听老爸话咯.....要做乖女儿吗......哈哈.....
早上很迟才起身......因为没事做只能吃,喝,玩,睡咯......
太闷了,就找贤川聊天......
也忘了告诉他我没去学校......
让他很bLuR叻......哈哈......抱歉咯......
今天他心情不好因为那cHaNg要把他们那班滴人换位置哦......
他就一直在骂她和讲三字经咯.......
算啦.....不要太介意那cHaNg滴话啦......
就配合她在她节换就好咯.....其他节坐回原本滴位啦......
我们那时讲了很多东西......他也问我为何酱mOoDy咯.......
gOr,对不起啊!!!!!我病了.....
所以没有去学校,也不能亲手把礼物送给你......
不过我找到了一个水鱼哦......哈哈......
其实也不能说是水鱼,是一个能信赖滴朋友......
叫她帮我给了gOr你......不过我也是要跟你说生日快乐......
还有还有谢谢你这位好朋友......
然后去补习咯.....要死要死滴样尽然还去补习......
去到那里很后悔来补习了.....早知在家睡觉.....
终于补完了.....可以休息了......
就这样到了晚上,很闲没事做就打给你......
因为心情不好,打给你你却没接.......
那时滴我很mA zHaNg了......
算了啦.....可能你在忙吧.....不打扰你了.....
过后你过后有说你现在滴空了......
我就打回给你咯.....我们聊了好久......
直到3点才挂电话......

26/6/2009

今天又没去学校了.....因为病还没好......
在家又要做fUngI了.....还闲哦.....
今天没事做一直在发呆......
到了12点你打来问我在那里......
我说在家,你说你在你妈妈滴店很闲要我过去找你......
就这样滴答应你了......就等我妹打来说完载她咯.....
然后就去老爸店咯......等那人cAlL我去找她咯......
不过也要恭喜你妈和姑姑新店开张啊......
希望你们生意新荣,有很多顾客会来咯.......赚多钱.....
我尽然是第一个被你找去做水鱼滴.......
你妈和姑姑还好意思说不用尽就过来陪你.......
说什么迟点找一天请我吃东西哦.....哈哈.....
不过也要谢谢你们啦.....哈哈.....
就在那里陪你讲话,给你zAt下,打下......哈哈......
其实你问我哪些东西美不美我都不知道要怎样回答你......
因为我不收集哪些东西滴......
只收集手表,太阳眼镜和等等......
美滴,酷滴....总之就是适合我都会喜欢滴......
我在那里看到很多很好看滴手表和太阳眼镜.......
你摆在前面滴我都很喜欢叻......
很想买不过没钱.....不用尽迟点拉我gOr来买给我.....哈哈.....
然后4点多你要回了.....我也是时候回了......
晚上还要补习叻.....今天很累叻......
到晚上我就去补习了......到那里我尽然是第一个叻......
一个人都没有叻.....过后你也来了......
慢慢滴大家都来了.....老师要我坐sU滴位置......
还没坐下就给你叫到换位置了.....哈哈......
然后老师突然问sU滴事......
老师你放100%滴心啦.....我sU没中啦......
然后就开始上课了......
今天教第三课后面那pArT咯.....
终于到了10点......可以回家了......
老爸真滴知道我很累了,要很早回家......
我一出门他就到了.....哈哈.....开心死我.....哈哈......
不过也开心不到那里......我又做错事了......
我很抱歉.....我毁了我们8个人滴友谊......
我毁了我们之间滴承诺和友谊......
对不起!!!!!!我知道我不能原谅滴......
我也不求你们原谅我......我知道,我很清楚是我滴错.......
我不会介意,不会生气,不会伤心你们酱对我......
我知道我不能说什么只能说对不起给你们......
然后你又打给我了.....刚好我真滴需要你滴耳朵......
每次不开心,心情不好,需要耳朵时,你都是第一个出现滴.......
我知道你不知道我现在是怎样......
不过总是觉得我们满有缘滴......
你也满知道我几时开心,不开心滴......哈哈.....
谢你咯....又要你陪我了......
不过我们也很早挂电话了......不想再打扰你睡觉了.....
每次都让你无法好好滴睡觉.....抱歉啊!!!!!我好像很衰酱叻.......
总之我只能对你们说对不起!!!!!

我很抱歉!!!!!!对不起!!!!!!

等我滴好消息吧~

2009-06-26T09:07:00.024+08:00

昨天我跟贤川从早到晚都在sMs.......
我们聊了很久也聊了好多东西.......
原来他也满关心朋友滴......
他也会有很好和温柔滴一面......
我承认之前没酱了解他这个人......
但昨晚我彻底滴了解他滴人了......
我跟他说我最近滴心情掉进谷底后再也找不回来了......
我再怎样努力滴去找出来都找不出来......
我告诉他我很想有个真正了解我,在乎我,明白我,重视我滴朋友......
也可以在我心情掉进谷底后快帮我找回来滴朋友.....
但我找不到这样滴朋友.....也只有sU,欣lU和贤川......
他说世界没有个真正滴朋友......
他叫我不要再相信,在乎,了解,明白和重视朋友了.....
他说要生活在世上就该相信,在乎,明白,了解和重视自己就好了......
这样大家都会过滴很好......很开心滴......
他叫我把朋友给忘了.....不要再去理他们.....
相信自己和依赖自己就够了......
他说滴话跟老爸对我说滴都是一样滴.......
老爸说他不想再看到自己滴女儿为了朋友而哭很变傻啊!!!!!
他说他想看到我变回以前只为自己而活滴女儿.....
只少我没有哭过......很开心滴度过......
他说他随时都在等着真正改变滴女儿......
我不知道老爸要等几久才会有个只为自己而活滴女儿啊......
我也不想再让我爸,贤川和你失望啊!!!!!!
我很想像以前酱只相信自己,依赖自己,在乎自己,重视自己,明白自己,了解自己.....
昨天跟你聊了很久，从晚上11点多聊到3点......
我们聊了好久,我也哭了好久.......
那时我们无话不谈,我把我心里开心和不开心滴事都说出来了......
我也说了我需要滴是什么,不需要滴是什么......
那时滴我尽然把我最最最弱滴一面给你知道了.......
我尽然在你面前哭了......还哭了好久好久......
那时滴我尽然把我藏在心底滴话告诉了你.......
我从来都不敢告诉别人藏在心底滴话........
但在你面前尽然可以一次过说完了.......
你说你不会安慰人,不用尽我现在不需要别人滴安慰.......
我需要滴是有人可以借我她滴耳朵......
好让我能把我心里滴话说完.......
我不想再把那些事压抑在心里......
想告诉一个很值得我信任滴人.......
本想找sU滴但我知道她有自己滴事在烦和她需要休息.......
所以我选择找你诉苦.......
那里知道跟你说完和哭完后,我滴老毛病"气喘"又发作了......
很喘很喘......真滴好像死去活来酱.......然后身体突然变滴很僵硬了......
我很努力滴在把我自己放松好让我滴气喘和身体没有酱僵硬......
可是还是不可以......很辛苦.....
我滴气喘药给我用完了.......很辛苦......
我滴身体硬完了......很辛苦......
我不想跟老爸说,因不想他担心......就自己在自我急救......
还好有你在我身边......不然我不知道自己会怎样......
过后你也告诉了我很多关于你和朋友滴事......
你说你需要朋友和自己给你滴信心......
但总是缺乏了朋友滴信心.....
不用怕我给你信心.....你要几多我给你......
我可以坦白滴说有时会真滴很不了解你.......
不过虽然不了解你但我也想经我能力了解你和帮你......
在酱多朋友当中只有你和sU是我最想了解滴人了.......
虽然我也帮不到你和给不到什么安慰.......
不过我也希望你能开心......不要再烦,伤心和生气了......
我也跟你说了我不喜欢你身边有些朋友......
也希望你不会介意我所说滴话......
我这种人就是直话直说滴.......喜欢和不喜欢就会坦白滴说出来......
不喜欢圈一大圈来说话滴......
因为刚哭了出来后,现在滴心情就开心了很多.......
我们谈了好多.......我们也说了想要改变现在滴自己......
你说从现在起你不会再去关心,了解,明白,重视,信任,依赖,在乎朋友了......
你说你现在起只想信任,了解,明白,重视,在乎自己......
但你却说你需要时间去改变自己......
我相信过整子你就不再是以前没有了朋友就会死滴你......
你滴话让我想到了老爸和贤川之前所跟我说滴话......
他们也希望我能像你这样.......
只少我不会再受伤多一次,不再哭了......
会很开心滴度过......心情也会很自然滴找回来......
我们在这三个小时半/12600秒里说了很多东西......
虽然时间很短但至少我有进一步滴了解你......
知道了你有些事......相信自己能再多了解你......
盖了电话后,我还是无法入睡......
我对着天花板想了很多东西.......
我是不是应该听老爸,你和贤川滴话.......
把朋友滴一切一切给放下.......
然后做回以前滴我,可以开心生活.......
我到现在还不能决定好......
不过我想我很快就会再次出现告诉你们我想到什么......
你,老爸和贤川就等多一整子吧......
不写了~身体弱要休息了......
明天再打给你吧......
记得要等着我滴改变......^^

学会从错误中成长~

2009-06-25T12:15:00.018+08:00

我做错滴事真滴是太多了......
我在这里对你们说对不起.......
我这个人什么都不会做......
只会做错事......
做滴错事还是一个比一个更严重滴......
就不值得别人原谅我滴.....连我自己也不能原凉自己啊!!!!!
我知道我不值得你原凉但你总是原凉我了.....
我有种很过意不去滴感觉......
我没告诉你是不想让你知道,你原凉我等于没有原凉我.....
我心过意不去,每次都骂自己很笨.....
弄到你不开心和生气.....我好白痴哦.....
但昨天我对自己说我不会再犯同样滴错了......
我不想你每次因我而不开心和生气.....
我不想再犯错了.....那种感觉很不好受.....
昨天我反醒后我终于学会要从错误中成长.....
可能从错误中成长对我来说是件比较难滴事.....
但为了朋友滴快乐我一定要做到......
每个人都会做错事滴......
没有人一生出来就没做错事滴......
做错事不是件大事,做错事后要懂滴认错和改过......
那种人就值得原凉......那就没事了.....
如果做错事不懂滴认错和改过那种人是不值得原凉滴.....
做错事后得不到别人滴原凉那对那人说是件痛苦滴事......
从不给别人机会道歉,我还是第一次.....
而那第一次昨天也发生了.....
搞到大家都不欢而散......
我也知道是我滴错.....所以我对你说对不起......
昨天整晚在想我该怎样改你就不会再不开心和生气了.....
我想到我应该不要跟你吵架,不跟你争,不跟你说话.....
不跟你玩了,不跟你开玩笑了.....
免得大家又是吵架收场......
我这人没了朋友会去死,跳楼.....
所以我不想拿朋友来出气,不想他们不开心,和生气.....
我从不在乎我自己滴感受,心情......
我在乎别人滴心情,感受......
我爸说过女儿做人不要酱傻......
你在乎别人感受,不在乎自己感受.....
那你有想过别人在乎你滴感受吗????
我也不知道,也不想知道......
因为我怕他们是真滴不在乎我滴感受吧......
不知道总好过知道他们是怎样想.....
只少没有酱心痛吧.....
可能我滴感受对我来说是不重要吧......
失去朋友对我来说人生就失去了意义......
所以他们滴感受我不能不在乎......
他们也是我在育华唯一认识滴朋友......
可能有时我太天真了......
以为我当他们是朋友他们就会把我当成朋友......
但我从就不管自己有多天真......有多蠢......
我现在只想从错误中成长吧了.......
我不想再犯错了......
昨天我尽然因为我滴错误而躲在房里哭.......
让进来看我有没有事滴老爸知道了......
他很慌张滴走过来.......
他很心疼滴问我好女儿为何又在哭了......
我很不想让老爸知道我因为我做错事而哭......
但老爸知道我发生什么事了......
他说女儿不要因为做错事就在哭......
做错事就要懂滴认错然后改过.......
不要在哭.....哭是解决不了问题滴.......
要懂滴学会从错误中成长那才对.......
他也说他很心疼看到我在哭,他说不想再有任何事发生在我身上.....
已经发生滴事,我也学会懂滴接受......
我不想我家人担心我,我不想我sU担心我......
我不想你担心我,不想关心我滴人担心我.........
所以我有必要接受事实,和学会接受和学会从错误中成长......
因为最近心情已经掉进谷底了......
我滴脾气就变滴很暴嘈了......
如果有伤到你们滴话我会跟你们说抱歉滴......
我答应自己要学会从错误中成长滴......
我在此跟你们每个说对不起!!!!!!!!
我滴过错可能是不值得你们原凉吧......
我也不会很在意你们原凉不原凉我......
我只在意你们给不给我机会吧了......
好让我可以改过......好让我学会.....
所以我知道我现在应该怎样做.......
那大家都不会吵架和我不在要向大家道歉.......
希望你们可以开心点.......
我终于学会了从错误中成长~
不写了.....身体一天比一天弱......
头一天比一天痛,和很烧了.......
是时候休息了,免得sU又要tAm我和命令我睡觉了.....
对不起~身体滴问题没办法......
明天又没去学校了......
老爸不给我去学校免得越来越严重.......
就这样了......晚安~

烦恼啊~

2009-06-25T10:55:00.010+08:00

最近滴烦恼越来越多了.......
不知要怎样解决那些烦恼......
那些烦恼把我逼成像个疯人酱......
我最近就想个疯人酱,说疯话,做疯事,在疯笑......
我不知自己几时要做什么,几时不应该做什么......
以前在梦中,妈告诉我动了手术后是不会有任何事滴......
在梦里我很清楚知道妈不要我像她那样......
一天到晚为了自己滴身体而担心到吃不下饭.......
不想看到她滴女儿像个疯子这样......
她一直在求我去动手术,我要再脱下去了......
我好不想看到妈和爸在哭,在为我滴事而掉眼泪......
我感到我这个女儿很不孝顺......很没用滴.....
到最后我答应妈和爸去动手术了......
妈还说动了手术后是不会在有事滴......
我很相信妈和爸说滴话,自然滴我也相信医生说滴东西.....
动了手术我就很冲忙滴说要回去......
因为要开学了,我不想耽误了上课滴时间啊......
就跟医生说我要回去了......
虽然医生说不可以但他也没我滴办法......
让我走了.....就这样回来后我从来就没有时间休息......
就去学校上课了.....就因为这样我滴身体从动手术那天起就没有好过......
就越来越弱了.....还把伤口弄上了......
就好像在伤口上洒盐滴痛咯.....
算了我不想让家人和朋友担心就从没说什么照旧滴笑,玩,说话......
可是后来我再梦里有梦到妈......
我看到她滴样比之前滴还要憔悴了......
那时我真滴怕了.....我知道一定有事发生滴......
妈说她怕我会有同样滴事发生在我身上......
我那时突然慌了......我不知要做什么......
我不敢相心妈说滴话......我就问爸......
他......他.......他........
尽然说没错.....妈以前就是第二次滴手术上失血过多......
去世了.....我.......我.......我.......
突然就倒在地上,昏了......
醒来后然在医院里躺着......
我当时就很凶滴骂爸......
那里可以骗我滴.....我尽然在院房里乱丢东西.....
我真滴控制不了我滴情绪和无法接受我最亲滴人欺骗我......
我很伤心.......我哭了.....
你们尽然要我动手术才用这种方法来叫我去动......
然后才告诉我妈你动过第二次.....
我突然觉得世上滴人是不能相信滴......
bElIeVe中间存着lIe字......
从那天起我对自己说我不会bElIeVe你们说滴事......
在梦里我梦到今年年中去看医生时会有可怕滴事发生......
我一直对自己说不要相信梦里滴东西......
一定没事滴.....我会好起来滴.....
我会像正常人一样滴生活滴.......
但什么都我是我想象中滴完美......
我又得回以前滴病了.....
但这次不同地方了......我也不想说是那里.......
我想大家为我而不开心......
我很谢sU和欣lU你们滴鼓励.......
我知道自己该怎样做......
我也希望sU你可以不要想昨天你告诉我滴事......
想你所说滴开心滴生活......
你叫我不要酱快绝望......
你说你相信我能坚持到滴......
你说你会支持我,要我不要想太多啊......
你叫我要坚强点,要往好滴方向想哦.......
你要我去动手术这样就会有机会好......
你说你们永远都支持我.....希望我会好......
所以现在到我对你说不要想太多......
什么都要往好滴方向想......开心点......
不要酱快绝望,要坚持下去......
我会支持你滴.....
所以不要想太多了.....我也要谢欣lU你对我滴关怀......
可我最近滴烦恼让我越来越不能入睡了......
每次失眠了.....都是sU tAm我睡.....或命令我睡.....
我总是找不到人诉苦......
sU已经够烦了我不想她在烦啊......
每次打给她很想把心里滴话说出但想到她有事要烦就没说了......
不想她再不开心了......我要她开心滴度过......
想找你诉苦但我怕你不想听到我滴声音......
我知道我每次做错事滴......你也不是很想我烦你滴......
不知道我可以做什么啊.......
我真滴需要有人愿意借她滴耳朵听我诉苦......
我滴烦恼真滴太多了......
我不知道要怎样解决......
我想找你但怕你不想......
我不知要怎样......还是算了.....
每次要按你滴号码但到最后想下......
我怕我做错事和你会不喜欢.......
就关掉了......
算了.....我还是放进心里.......
自己烦好过你们为我烦......

我又错了!!!!!!

2009-06-24T22:50:00.018+08:00

昨晚跟欣lU聊了很久.......
一直在叫笑一直在讲.......
到了12点酱很夜了,我们都要睡了.......
就这样挂了电话......
躺在床上一直逼自己关眼睛......
到最后终于很累很想关眼睛了......哈哈......
睡吧.....就这样睡了......
到了早上,妹一直叫我咯......没办法醒了......
吃饱后就开始上车要去学校了......
在车上感觉到今天会是快乐滴一天......
在学校应该会玩到很开心吧.....哈哈.....
刚好我gOr今天生日叻......开心......
一大早起身就快快滴sMs gOr跟他说生日快乐......哈哈......
在车里听到我很爱滴歌----最幸福滴事.......
就想到我gOr今天应该会很幸福有女友跟他庆祝......哈哈.....
到学校就一直在跟妹在开玩笑......哈哈.....
她说今天想叫gOr来家庆祝可是我知道他要跟女友滴......
就算咯....不要去kAcAu他们咯......哈哈......
到班上就一直在跟有贤他们叫话,玩咯.....哈哈.....
又要进礼堂了.....闲咯......
走出班还要跟那傻婆莫玩,还要玩幸扬写滴oRaL纸哦.......
一直在拿那张纸玩.在笑......开心到~哈哈.....
到礼堂后就在找朋友咯......
终于找到芯茌了,有个朋友陪我聊天......哈哈.....
就一直在说很多东西.....一直笑还给她打了好多次......
我生出来就好像一直被人打滴.....哈哈.....
从一进礼堂我就听到我滴偶像滴歌叻......
好好听哦.....让我更开心了....哈哈.....
听了简单爱后就听心跳听完后又到回我滴偶像滴歌......
哈哈....就是星晴咯.....哈哈....好好听叻......
就我跟姚就一直跟着唱.....然后突然那个死学长尽然打断我滴歌......
尽然还要在cHoUrS那里打断哦......真滴要杀人了.....
不爽了....哈哈.....终于等他说完了,就听我滴歌......
可是不是cHoUrS了,不爽了......哈哈......
唱完了就到改变自己.....突然我想到我是否有能力可以改变我自己......
我不知道.....我烦了我滴事好久......
没人明白我滴心情.....没办法我明白你不想我打给你滴......
回班后就一直在班外玩,跟那傻婆莫玩咯.....哈哈.....
那里知道sAlInA没来叻,好想怕死酱哦.....哈哈.....
就有老师代课了,那老师尽然叫我们女生去前面哦......
去到前面她尽然在讲我们女生滴事......
你们要知道吗?????那就是-----不能说滴秘密咯.....哈哈......
上完那节就到aH gUi滴节咯.....她尽然上来了.....哈哈......
那时男生就说有sPoRt ChEcK哦......
我们就快滴放进带子里,那跟tHoMaS收咯....哈哈.....
那里知道幸扬有两架手机还没拿下去哦......
莫就快快走出去叻,然后大力滴关门......
那aH gUi尽然不知道叻,好像傻婆酱叻......哈哈.....
那里知道建善出去时给她看到了.....
被记名了....好倒霉哦.....哈哈.....
然后莫回来了,她又没看到哦......就看到建善哦......哈哈.....
我,友贤和平正还说莫好yEnG哦.....哈哈.....
接下来后就全部滴老师没来了......真是怕死滴.....哈哈.....
就这整天都没有老师.....没老师来时那aH gUi就上来......
有老师来时她又不要上来哦.....白痴滴......
下课后就一直在班上讲故事哦.......
文翰就说了他很大滴秘密.....那就是-----不能说滴秘密.....
其实我和莫很早就懂了.....剩下友贤和亿玲咯.......
讲讲下我就睡着了.....因为不舒服吧......
睡睡下给莫吵醒了.....要去lAb了......
就这时后心情开始不开心了,开始dOwN了.......
不知道为什么,可能生病了.......嗨.....
开心滴一天变成这样了......
去到lAb就点名后就跑去来拿回我滴手机了.......
绕了好久才找到tHoMaS哦......哈哈......
拿回后又要找莫妹叻.....就去找找啊找啊......
找到了....哈哈......原来她一直在我们滴后面叻......给她气死......
然后回去lAb咯......在lAb里才知道亿玲分手了......嗨.....
亿玲不要不开心了.....可能分手对你来说是件好事吧.......
有时有些东西要往好滴方向想,不要想我这样......
会害死你滴......真滴害死我滴......
总之你要知道我们永远支持你滴!!!!!!开心哦!!!!!
然后我们就在玩"请你跟我这样做"......哈哈.....
好好玩滴,但我没玩心情dOwN了.....
他们在玩我在笑咯.....哈哈.....真滴玩滴好笑咯......
终于到放学了,等欣lU后就走咯.......
坐她车去咯......在车上本想睡觉滴但没睡到叻......
到tOwN后,她说懒惰找pArKiNg就叫我叔叔帮忙咯......
我们就快去买食物吃咯.....买了后就回去那里吃咯......
在补习时真滴累垮了......在很bLuR滴情况下上课.....
也在很bLuR滴情况下被人用pEnCiL bAg敲了两下......
还要敲在昨天被平正有手推去墙壁敲我滴头滴位子叻.......
痛到不懂要怎样形容哦......
就那时不要cHoI那个人了.....她一直在tAm我我又不理......
她动我就缩手.....我不知道要怎样......头脑fUnGsI不到......
过后要补完了,我也知道我做错了......
但我不知要怎样跟她说.......我不会表达啊!!!!!对不起!!!!!
走前就只说那一句话......我知道我不应该滴.......
回到爸滴店,我一直在反醒我自己......
我一直在怪自己总是控制不了自己滴情绪......
我知道自己很无能为力啊!!!!!我很蠢,很笨,很傻,很白痴.......
每次只会在做错事后才发觉自己滴过错,然后一直在道歉......
对不起!!!!!!从我认识你那天起我做错很多事我在此跟你说对不起!!!!!
我这个人很笨,很蠢,很傻,很白痴从不会以行动道歉......对不起!!!!!
走前就一直在提醒叔叔等下把车驾出来......
他还嫌我烦一直在说同一句话.....哈哈.....
回到家后,就打给gOr想跟他说我有做错事了......
但gOr接电话时滴声音很dOwN很mOoDy了......
才知道他跟女友吵架了......还是在生日滴时候......
gOr,对不起!!!!!我不知道.....还烦你......
这下子我滴心情在dOwN多一成了......
gOr变到这样我也不会开心到那里去.......
他说今天帮不了我叫我自己想办法,然后他叫我不要来找他今天......
sOrRy GoR!!!!!这下子我滴心氢更没有人能了解......
我找不到朋友可以谈天滴......终于打给lIsA了......
sU就一直在陪我聊天......她问今天做么又酱dOwN了......
我就说完去来了.....说补习滴事......
就一直在说,不然就是在说学校滴事......
说说下她手机没有电了.....就挂了.....
然后没人可以找了......我不敢找你......
我知道我愚蠢让到你生气和不开心滴.....
就这样到晚上我真滴需要人诉苦......
终于找到贤川,他帮了我很多忙.......
我跟他说了我gOr滴事......他说先不要去理他先......
让他cOoL dOwN后在找他哦.......
算咯....就听贤川说滴咯.....哈哈......
他说他永远都会是我滴sErViCe哦......
我好感激你滴......我说你永远都是我滴好朋友......
他还问我是真滴吗????当然啦......
他还说有人从不把他当成好朋友哦.....
就是欣lU咯.....我说欣lU只是在开玩笑滴......
不要酱认真啦.....不会有事滴.......
gOr还是不要理我......我很闲啊!!!!!!
过后就打点给sU咯......
因为没有人肯听我说,不然就好像不想听到我滴生音哦......
sU说我gOr不会有事滴......会开心滴......
然后就说到我进厕所后发生滴事情拉......
她就一直要我休息去睡觉......因为身体不好啊!!!!!
就一直聊到sU命令我现在回去睡觉......我好累了.....
过后就到你打来我没看到你滴bLoG哦......
我是真滴fEeL到你会很不开心和生气滴......对不起!!!!!
我知道我这次又做错事了.......
我总说我存在这世上真是个错误......
我总是对着好朋友做错事......
我知道我是不能原谅滴......我是错误.....
我是个白痴,笨,傻婆.....
我知道从认识你那天我就在做错事了......
可能对你来说是不能原谅滴.....
我很了解.....
对不起!!!!!!我又做错事了!!!!!!
今天心情很dOwN........对不起!!!!!
我所做滴一切一切......
是我滴错......每次要你开心到最后却弄到你不开心和生气了......
对不起了!!!!
我知道我以后要怎样面对你了.......
我会尽量滴不跟你吵架了,不打你,你跟我讲话我才回答.......
我知道我该怎样做咯......对不起了!!!!!!
我不想再做错事了!!!!!不想你不开心了!!!!!
所以我明白我该怎样做滴.......
不写了!!!!!sU命令我睡觉咯!!!!!!
就这样啦......晚安......^^
对不起!!!!莫明天没去学校......
病了!!!!!补习应该有去吧......

MuSiC cLuB's AGM!!!!!!!

2009-06-21T18:04:00.020+08:00

我等待好久滴日子终于到了......

那就是我滴mUsIc ClUb'S AGM咯.......哈哈......

我不想做这个位子很久了.......

因为这位子很闲,很不好做滴......

那就是pUbIsItI啦......

每次都要布置那个板,布置到闲了......

终于可以放下手上滴一却......

终于可以休息了......不有酱累了,不用伤脑筋了......

今天很早就到学校了,因为妹她8点就开始了......

到了学校,还很早叻,没东西做.....

又不想酱早去六楼底等哦,很闲滴.....

就选择在冬姑亭等候lIsA来.....

因为她说会早到学校,因为她妈妈要开会哦......

所以在那里等是最适合,可以看到她来......

等啊等啊,到了8点多lIsA终于来了.....好慢哦.....哈哈.....

我们就走去六楼底咯,因为lIsA拿着kEyBoArD来.....

很重为有去那里放下然后在那里坐咯.....哈哈.......
全部人都在忙着做事,练习唱歌和练习乐器......

我们就在那里坐,lIsA说不想练习哦......

aIyO,lIsA不要酱紧张啦......

我们会支持你滴!!!!!永远支持!!!!!!

其实也满好滴啦你们表演到......

我很喜欢滴,这次有很多首歌表演.......
全部都还好啦......不过就是那些会员很像木头咯......

我们在后面喊他们却只在拍手......

aIyO....酱就不好玩了......

我们都喊到要死了,没人要配合我们叻.......

我们就好像傻瓜酱在喊叻.....真是滴.......

我们喊和唱滴很过迎所以我,lIsA和文翰就决定去唱k咯......

lIsA叫我打给欣lU和aMy.....

那里知道那欣lU说要载弟弟补习和载他回来.....

不要去了.....很衰滴欣lU,不爽了.....

aMy就是有东西要做,她每次都有东西做滴......

终于到我等了好久滴东西......

我终于下位了......没有了抱负......开心死我了......

第一是先宣布我下位然后就问他们说就像pUbIsItI滴......

全部木头就一直望着jOhN他们......

没人要回答.....哈哈....没办法只好指着我咯......哈哈.....

就说做这位子滴人很辛苦滴......

因为他要求很高滴,没有达到他要求就要换过......哈哈......

然后今年尽然有三个做我这个位子叻......

吓到我啊!!!!!需要吗????wAlAo A!!!!!

三个都是女生叻,更厉害滴,可能她们会打架叻.....哈哈......

然后就一直宣布位子......还一直叫人猜是谁.....

勇源不爽就说再叫人猜会脱鞋丢你滴.....哈哈.....

主席尽然是一个什么乐器都不会滴只会唱歌,而且唱都没那么好听滴......

OMG!!!!!!就是那个陈俐璇咯......OMG!!!!!

我可以说滴就是我们滴cLuB会毁了......

就是因为nAiB主席有一个是中二吧了啊......

然后那女滴做主席,就可以毁掉了......

然后,完了就可以吃东西了......

吃点糕点咯,有很多马来人滴食物......

勇源第一个拿马来糕来吃......

我和文翰看到了就在笑......

他还问为什么笑他,我们就说男生吃太都马来糕.....

他们滴tEstIs会变小滴.....

勇源听到就傻眼很不想吃了.....哈哈.....

然后我们就一直叫那些木头吃咯.....

有些人还乖乖滴去拿来吃......真白痴滴.....哈哈......

然后我们就去唱k了......

到那里了,它尽然还没开电......

真滴要杀了他们......酱慢才开,不如不要做生意......

我们就一直走啊,走啊......

终于开店咯,我们就快滴排队啊......

然后我们才发觉我们没有人带iC来了.....

算啦....还是可以进滴啦.....哈哈......

进到那房间,wAlAo!!!!!好冷叻.....

我们叫他调小号,那里知道不可以调滴......

真是滴服务态度很不好,不想再来这里叻.......

我们就开始点歌咯.....点啊点啊......

点到十多面了......大多数都是文翰点和他唱滴......哈哈......

就一直唱,因为文翰赶时间可是他还点了一大堆梁静茹.....

我们就再唱下去咯.....哈哈......

我们就一直跳咯......不想唱完静茹滴歌......

终于唱完了,我们就快点到mCD等欣lU和翠明咯......

等啊等啊.....好久都还没到.....lIsA就在那里睡着了.....

我就一直在等咯.....不可能睡滴吗......哈哈.....

欣lU和翠明还没来.....

终于欣lU打给lIsA,因为她在睡觉所以我帮她接......

那欣lU也是滴谁滴声音都不知道......

还好我告诉她lIsA在睡觉,不然她就一直以为我是lIsA滴.....哈哈.....

她说找不到pArKiNg哦.....我就在mCD前面找到叻.....

就等她转来咯....那里知道还没转就有车霸了......

然后到翠明打给lIsA咯.....一是一样我接.....哈哈.....

然后翠明到了就剩下欣lU咯......

过后又有人打给lIsA叫她去补习了.....

那欣lU也到了,就叫lIsA起身咯.....

去补习咯.....她还是睡不醒叻......还是很累......

就剩我,欣lU和翠明咯......

就在聊天,和等到时间她们去补习咯.....

聊到一半就到时间了,她们要去补习了......

我也要走了......

快乐滴时间总是过滴很快.......

时间永远都不会停下来等我们滴......

快乐和时间总不属于我拥有滴.......

就这样滴我滴人生总是没有美好滴结局.......

快乐,朋友,时间都不属于我拥有......

算了.....我滴存在根本就是一个错误......

所以朋友们你们可以忘记我......

忘记我是一件好事......

我是个错误!!!!!

我很想念你们!!!!!

2009-06-20T21:58:00.028+08:00

我好想念我们以前打球滴日子.....

那时是我人生中最开心,最颠,最傻滴时光......

我们在篮球场上跳来跳去......

跑来跑去,玩追追......

然后捉到谁就脱她衣或脱她裤......

不然帮她们擦防晒油,玩来玩去......

不然就拿篮球丢人咯......

但在练球时我们都很认真滴......

我们练球从都不为了要比赛还是什么滴.....

只是大家滴爱好,和可以练好身体......

和大家都不同校所以一有练球大家都很开心......

因为又可以聚在一起了......

又可以一起颠,傻和sOt了......

我老爸也满喜欢我跟她们一起练球滴......

虽然练球滴时间很短但对我们来说已经很足够了......

已经很开心了.....每星期都会有一次滴练球......

每次都在不同滴地方玩球......

我记滴有次在sEpAnG那边滴篮球场玩......

刚好靠近我那边滴独立式洋房......

玩完了,我们就可以回去休息或去那边滴海滩玩......

到海滩了,我们还在玩追追捉人......

把那人丢去海里.....

不然就丢沙咯,不然就游泳咯......

我好怀念哦那天.......
我们还一起去酒店滴游泳池游泳......

我们还一起换衣,一起冲凉,一起比赛......

我们还捉人把她丢下水.....

我们好像颠婆酱叻,几多人看着我们叻......

不然打完球或游完了就去yUmChA了......

yUmChA时还谈了很多东西......

笑到暴肚子,打来打去.......

然后到很夜才回家,还给老爸骂下......

也不用尽,因为跟你们玩已经很爽了.....哈哈......

我们还试过1,2点才回家叻......

回到家还要一直在打点话......说笑话......

但这些日子已经成为过去式了.....

因为一些误会,我们在也没一起打球了......

我真滴不想这样滴......

我真滴没有喜欢我阿gOr啦.......

我从不会喜欢我阿gOr滴.....

因为我只把他当成阿gOr吧了,从不会过了哥妹滴关系......

所以你误会了我,我不会喜欢他.....

因为知道你喜欢所以我只想帮你,好让我阿gOr也能喜欢你.....

但你却误会我了,我在帮你滴.....

因为一些误会我们没去打球了......

我很怀念打球滴日子......

我很怀念我一起颠,傻,sOt滴日子......

和我们一起游泳滴日子......

但现在只成为我滴过去和回忆了......

不再是真实了......

我很想念你们!!!!!!

我们还能像以前酱一起打球吗?????

一起颠,傻,sOt吗?????

难道那些日子真滴不再属于我滴了吗????

我再也不能拥有那些日子了吗?????

我真滴真滴想念你们滴!!!!!!

i ReAlI vErY mIsS u AlL!!!!!

因为打球时我们都不会谈功课......

我们都会很轻松滴在打球......

最近没去打球了,老爸说我这个人都绵了.....

是真滴吗????绵完了......

都不知要怎样告诉他为什么没去打球了......

总之我好希望可以回到以前这样.....

开心滴打球和游泳和yUmChA.....

开心滴日子我都很难拥有了.......

开学了~

2009-06-20T20:59:00.014+08:00

大家最不喜欢滴时刻又到了......

放假两个星期后又是时候大家回到学校做好自己滴身份了......

我好不想回到学校做回自己滴身份啊!!!!!

回到一间会让我好不自在滴地方和做回让我好不自在滴身份......

回到学校我不知要怎样对阿gOr你笑和不知要怎样跟你说话......

gOr我答应你在学校看到你要笑要自在点.......

可我还一样滴样,不过只少我有对你笑啊......

可是当看到你时我不知要怎样......

我怕你会想到我跟你说滴东西,然后不睬我了......

我很怕.....但我答应你我会回到以前这样.....

我会回到以前不再喜欢你......

但我很想你也答应我不要再对我忽冷忽热.......

不想要我们滴中间隔着墙壁......

我想你有什么事第一个想到我.....

然后告诉我你开心,伤心,生气和烦滴事.......

不要把我当成普通朋友......

把我当成bEsT bEsT bEsT fReN.....

不要对我有点距离.....我会怕滴.....

在学校是真滴可以看到你,和朋友......

但我也是很不开心......

我已经很努力滴读书,把我滴精神,努力都放在着次考试里......

但我是fAiLEd了四科......

我很不爽,很伤心很生气......

我所努力而得到滴结果不是我要滴......

但谁知道,没人知......

我滴sEj本来是可以拿到A1滴.....

都是老师滴错把我滴分数跟A1比真滴差50多叻.....

说什我滴答案跟题目没有关系哦.....

你才没有啦.....

我滴cHeM和pHy差几分就可以pAsS滴.....

老师死都不给我......

aDd MaTh我从不要求要pAsS只希望有比之前滴多分就可以了......

这次滴考试让我很烦很没心情睡觉.......

这次考试让我对tRy yEaR和SPM有很大滴压力......

我很想在tRy yEaR和SPM拿全A1......

那我就可以到外国读书了......

从放假前就没有一天是好睡过......

也没一天睡滴着,每天都在开着眼睛看天空很天花板......

到开学后就兼直不有睡了......

算了啦.....我对读书已经绝望了......

这次我真滴可以跳楼了......

我再怎么努力到最后也不是一样滴......

fAiLeD了.....很想回到我打球滴日子.....

只少大家没有谈功课在打球.....

在那玩帮人脱衣,脱裤.....哈哈......

不然就在那里玩抱抱.....哈哈......

玩到很颠,像傻婆酱,打完球就去yUmChA......

到很夜才回家,然后跟老爸骂下......

开心滴日子我永远都很难再拥有了.......

我所认识滴一班排球队

2009-06-19T22:49:00.020+08:00

从中一进来育华之后,我都没有认识到一些真正滴朋友......

直到中四,我开始认识了lIsA......

一进那班还不是很认识那班滴人,只有莫,志森,等......

刚开始在那班时有点后悔选进这班.....

因为不认识班上滴人,也觉得你们好像很厉害读书滴......

但慢慢滴,就开始认识坐我隔壁前面滴前面那位美女......

lIsA cHeE咯.....也开始喜欢这班了.....

一开始看到lIsA时我觉得她好想很厉害和很串滴人......

不过认识久了我觉得她不是这样滴人......

是个很爱说笑话,很搞笑,很活泼,很可爱,很聪明滴人......

就觉得有这样滴朋友是一件很开心滴事.....

慢慢滴我和她滴话题也越来越多了......

每次都有说有笑滴......

我很开心,有这样滴好朋友......

有什么事都会跟她说,她也很帮我......

就这样滴也开始慢慢滴认识了她那帮排球朋友......

看到她那帮排球朋友,我第一个看到滴是小学认识滴欣lU还有乃颖.......

他们两个还是老样子,没有变过......

就这样滴跟她们那帮就开始有说有笑了......

她们那帮人真滴很搞笑,很可爱滴......

慢慢滴也认识了aMy咯.....

她也一样滴很搞笑,很可爱滴......

跟她们也越来越多话说了,和跟她们一起玩了......

就这样滴我们也长大了,是时候到中五了......

中四滴放假前我们都很不舍得滴......

在放假时我们参加了绽放生活营......

在那生活营里我们更有进一步滴认识......

认识了翠明了......她也很好玩滴......

跟她们也越来越多滴笑容......

但开心滴时间总是过滴很快.......

是时候我们都是中五滴学生了.......

任务也开始多了,压力也多了......

欢笑也少了......

因为lIsA滴成绩太好了,怕她会上去5E班叻......

就这样滴放假完了,是时候回到学校做回自己滴身份.....

也就因为这样lIsA要跟我们不同班了......

我们好不舍得她哦....很想哭滴感觉......

就这样滴她进了5E班,她说她很不喜欢这班.....

因为这班滴人很恐怖,每天都在读书......

也没像我们滴班酱有欢笑......

虽然她读5E班但我们还是有来往......

总是有说有笑滴......也是这样滴认识了另外一个排球队滴......

她就是美依啦.....她也跟她们一样搞笑派滴......

慢慢滴我也跟你们这帮排球队滴认识也多了点......

那时真滴很开心可以认识你们......

我们也开始无话不谈滴......

什么事都一起说一起笑......

大家开心就好了......

虽然大家都不是一样班滴但我们还是一样滴有说有笑滴......

就这样滴lIsA变成了我滴秘书[sU].......

她很帮滴我滴.....有什么事她都是第一个帮我滴......

谢你啦,sU......

只是当你们跟佩清那帮讲话时,我选择了安静.....

因为我不喜欢她们那帮.......

不好意思,我不是有意要说你们滴朋友......

但我是真滴不喜欢她们......

但我也没有可能阻止你们跟她们说话滴......

那是你们滴朋友,我不会勉强大家做些不开心滴事......

我也不会勉强自己认识她们......

不过跟你们滴日子我真滴很开心......

因为你们帮了我很多东西......

我也学会了很多东西当认识你们后......

我很爱看你们打球.....

全部都打到很可爱,很搞笑,有些很认真滴......

有时会很恐怖滴当你们认真滴时候.....

不过我喜欢看你们打球......

因为你们打球滴时候是很难看到滴.....哈哈.....

不过最近我发觉了,你们当中有几个很不开心......

尤其是lIsA,欣lU啊!!!!!

你们都因为考试而变成这样,不然就是因为阿gOr滴事......

有什么事放轻松就好了.......

不要想太多,不要给自己太大滴压力.......

这样会让自己很不开心,每天都在愁眉苦面......

我看到了都不知要怎样帮你们......

我好不想看到你们两个每天都这样了......

看了都心疼啊!!!!!

有事就尽管告诉我,我帮到滴一定尽我滴能力......

如果帮不到,我也会想办法帮你们......

因为一个是我滴sU,一个是我滴bEsT bEsT bEsT fRen......

我只希望看到你们都开心滴生活......

你们开心我也会很开心滴......

你们这帮排球队滴每个都有自己滴好处......

lIsA是个搞笑,可爱,活泼,美丽,聪明派滴.......是我滴好sU.......

欣lU是个搞笑,笑话,可爱,活泼,美丽,聪明派.....是我滴好bEsT bEsT bEsT fRen......

aMy是个搞笑,笑话,可爱,活泼,美丽派滴......是我滴好gUd FrEn......

乃颖是个搞笑,可爱,变态,美丽,活泼派滴......是我滴好gUd FrEn......

翠明是个可爱,活泼,美丽,聪明派滴......是我滴好gUd FrEn.....

美依是个安静,可爱,酷,活泼,聪明派滴......是我滴好gUd FrEn......

还有很多滴......总之你们都是我滴好朋友......永远都是.....

认识你们滴日子虽然短但我都很开心......

我希望你们有什么事都不要放在心里.....

我很愿意做你们滴听众......

总之你们开心我就开心.....

你们伤心我就伤心.......

你们生气我就生气......

总之有什么事都好记得笑一个.....^^

把烦恼给忘了.....然后开心滴度过......

总之我们有事就一起商行吧......

认识你们这帮排球队滴人是我滴荣幸......^^

对不起

2009-06-15T21:55:00.009+08:00

喂啊!!!!!不要这样啦......

我在此跟你说对不起啦.....

我不是有意,有心,故意要惹你生气滴......

我只想跟你开玩笑滴.....

看你心情不好想逗你开心......

哪里知道却惹到你生气,不睬我了......

对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起.......

这两天我也是不好过滴......

第一:因为你不开心,我也不开心......

不要再这样了,我求你啦.....

我知道你不喜欢我们叫你滴全名,但我却叫了......

惹到你很不开心,你也说不要睬我了......

我不是要惹到你不开心滴,我只想要你开心......

我知道你为你阿gOr滴事惹到你不开心......

我要滴是令到你开心啊!!!!!!

所一跟你开玩笑了,哪里知道却令你生气不睬我了......

对不起,对不起,对不起......

第二:因为那个报告令到我很多天没有睡好......

也因为你滴事我很多天没睡好......

睡前又想到报告和你滴事我就无法入睡了.....

我滴心情也从拿报告那天就很不好受了......

也刚好因为你滴事让我更不好受了......

我真滴很有诚意滴想跟你说对不起......

也想得到你滴原谅.......

这几天我从来都不会担心我滴成绩会怎样,我担心滴是你原谅我吗和理我吗????

你知道吗????你从来就不知道,我想告诉你可你不接我电话.....

我滴SU(lIsA)说你不会酱小气滴......

说再等多几天你就会理回我滴.....

可我不想再等下去了......

我怕我会精神崩溃啊!!!!!这两天我已经精神崩溃了.....

何况还要等多几天哦......我可以死了......

lIsA说她会帮我因为我是她滴bOsS哦......

帮到没有我就不知道啦.....不过我还是要谢谢你啦.....超爱你滴.....^^

我答应你不会再惹你生气了......

就只是原谅我啦和理我,我答应过你会对你比对我阿gOr还要好滴......

谁叫你是我滴bEsT bEsT bEsT fReN啊!!!!!!

就对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起,对不起.......

原谅我吧和理我吧.......

对不起啊,欣lU!!!!!!!!

心情2

2009-06-13T15:19:00.027+08:00

昨天半夜天空突然乌云密布......

就好像我滴心情般酱突然变成了要哭滴时候......

我总是喜欢在全部人睡了和有下雨时哭......

昨天就是让我能再哭多一次......

一天里下两次雨就好像我一天里要哭两次......

老天真滴知道我需要雨天......谢你咯......

昨天半夜突然有很多人问我同一个问题......

我好不想回答啊!!!!!

而也不知道要怎样回答啊!!!!!!

我滴心情已经糟到半死了,还要问我我不想回答滴问题......

对不起.....我不是嫌你们烦啊!!!!!

而是我不想回答你们这个问题......

lIsA又问,欣lU又问,文hAn又问,aArOn又问,阿哥你又问......

姑姑你又问,堂姐你又问,姐你又问.......

我究竟要答那位,我很不想答你们啊!!!!!!

心情很烦很糟了,你们又来问来问去......

其实我把事情告诉了你们,你们能帮到我做什么啊......

告诉我不用担心滴,一定没事滴......

要tAkE cArE哦......这样啊????

我认为你们还是不要问不要说比较好......
问了我不懂要这样说也不想说.....

跟我说了那些话更让我心烦,更紧张,心情更糟啊!!!!!

因为身体和命不是你们滴......

你们那会知道我滴痛苦滴......

算啦.....我也不想让你们知道我不想听到那种话......

我也很不想你们为我滴事担心和不开心滴.......

我只想要你们每个都开心那我也开心滴......

尤其是你呀欣lU,不要再不开心和mOoDy哦.....

lIsA你从不让我们担心滴,文hAn也是......

不过也要开心啊!!!!aArOn你不要太担心我了......

放心滴回去读书啦,读书比较重要啦......

阿哥你也是跟女友开心点啊!!!!!

都她好点啊!!!!要疼爱她哦!!!!!
姑姑,姐和堂姐也要过滴开心啊!!!!!

傻婆莫你也是啊!!!!!开心滴......

骂人不要酱大生和凶啊!!!!!

其他人也是一样啊!!!!!开心点我就开心滴......

就这样今天一起身,一开眼睛就看到天空还是一样......

还是乌云密布和很阴天哦.......又要下雨了.....

今天滴心情比昨天更糟叻......
不懂是不是昨天欣lU说了什么吧......

算了啦......她说什么已经是过去式了......

我也不知道我是不是还在在意她所说滴每句话......

还是太在乎她说滴话哦......

也不知道在意和在乎她说什么哦......很乱啊!!!!!

就在这时天空又开始下雨了......

我也很自然滴走出去淋雨了......

就这样滴放肆滴在哭......

谁知我在哭,谁知我滴痛苦,谁知我滴心情.......

只有阿哥你知我为什么要在雨天哭......

只有你知我在哭,我滴心情,我滴痛苦.......

连欣lU在跟我sMs也不知......

阿哥刚好来到我家看到我在哭......

就问"小妹你为什么哭啦".......

就这样他陪我一起淋雨,叫我放下所有事......

让它成为过去,不要理会别人滴短讯和安慰滴话......

放逐滴在哭......让所有伤心事哭出来......

就这样他在雨中滴安慰,我也开始放下昨天欣lU说滴事......

去医院滴事,和其他事把它放下......

因为有哥滴陪伴我开心了一点.......

雨停了,我们两已经湿滴不能再湿......

那是我也知道自己病了......

还好有哥滴陪伴.....谢你啦,哥.......
每次有事都是你在帮我决解滴......

生病了,心情还是一样滴糟......

对着那个报告,我更不理自己生病,也不想理他们说滴要tAkE cArE滴话.....

觉得这一年来我都有在tAkE cArE可是到最后滴结果就是这样咯......

那时真滴很想打叫我tAkE cArE滴人啊!!!!!

tAkE cArE,tAkE cArE,tAkE cArE!!!!!费滴!!!!!

哥听后就说"大家都是关心你才说滴"......

不要酱说,让你滴朋友更担心你滴.....

就一直在训我,他还说"笑下吗快笑一个".......

欣lU也这样说.....这句话每次都是我告诉别人,现在是他们告诉我.......

笑,现在我真滴给不到一个真正滴笑,一个假滴笑吧.....

就这样自己在想我真滴可以在开心点吗????

不需装滴开心,不需装滴笑......可以吗????

每次都帮助朋友决解他们滴问题先.....

自己滴总是放在最后,不想理它......

总之他们可以开心那自己就真滴很开心了......

哥说我笨很傻,别人开心自己就开心......

那我伤心时他们也跟着伤心吗????

那我开心时他们也跟着开心吗????

那我痛苦时他们也跟着痛苦吗????

我哥就一直说,然后就一直说我笨很傻.......

真滴是我笨我傻吗????

可是在友情里是没有这样分滴.......

算了啦.....我不会介意你会这样都我......

如果是这样那人一定不是我滴朋友.......

就这样到了晚上天空还是乌云密布滴.......

今天滴心情是怎样看天空吧就明白了......

哥还是谢你今天滴出现啊!!!!!

帮了我很大滴忙......还要你安慰和照顾我......

不过我还是要谢你们这些酱关心我滴人哦......

记得我说滴你们开心我就开心了......

记得要笑一个哦......

心情

2009-06-12T20:47:00.019+08:00

今天滴心情很不好......

可能是因为昨天欣lU突然没有回我滴短讯吧......

我好怕她有事叻,和今天一早起身滴心情就好像要下雨哦.......

昨天等她滴短讯等了好久都没回......

就开始有滴紧张咯......不过等候滴时候不小心睡着了.......

因为今天要去医院bOdY cHeCk所以很早就给老爸吵醒了......

很累叻,因为昨天等欣lU滴短讯很迟才关眼睛......

和忘了今天要去医院哦......

一起身,身体很累,心情很烂像要下雨般......

看到欣lU滴短讯了,原来她昨天在外面......

所以没收到,而且昨天太迟回家很累了......

不有尽......就让她睡先咯.......

吃了早餐后就要出发了.......

还没出发前,心情很差叻和很紧张啊......

这问题我担心了很久......

我好怕去cHeCk后会有什么事哦......

去年医生说过虽然动过手术不过还要等六年后......

如果没有事酱以后就没事了......

不过没年要去医院bOdY cHeCk咯.......

看有没有事.....

我真滴真滴好紧张哦......

终于到了医院了,心情更紧张了......

我还是放不下紧张滴心情,这时没有可以了解我现在抵心情叻......

还好有老爸在我身边,他说不会有事滴......

叫我要相信他.....他一直说我女儿会没事滴......

妈,我真滴希望你要保佑我没事.......

然后医生说要开始帮我cHeCk完全身.......

我带着紧张滴心情进去......

那个医生叫我趟在上面......

开始cHeCk了,那医生还说"小妹不用怕滴,没事滴"......

算吧......死就死.....就开始咯.....

终于cHeCk完了,就出去咯......

医生说因为刚开完手术才有一年所以cHeCk滴时后还看到有个很小小粒滴......

哇死,吓到我啊!!!!那时真滴要流眼泪了......

老爸还说"没事滴,女儿要相信老爸啊"!!!!!

医生还说没事滴,等明年在cHeCk过........

什么!!!!!你叫我怎样相信你们哦......

什么!!!!!还要等明年.....叫我怎样等哦......

这可是我滴身体和我滴命叻!!!!!!

这时,欣lU回我说为什么没回她,是不是还没醒啊.......

我说在医院bOdY cHeCk咯......

因为欣lU这几天心情不好所以没告诉她我现在滴事......

我不想她在烦东西,因为她那个人很重义气滴......

算咯.....就帮她决解她滴问题先咯......

老爸叫我去做什么bLoOd TeSt哦......

我都没心情做就说今天不要做啦......

下次再做吧......没moOd了......

就跟老爸去吃午餐咯......

都没mOoD吃了,还去吃什么啦......

对着那些食物发呆放空咯......

吃完后就回家咯,老爸说"回到家后就去睡觉不要想太多了".......

就一直安慰欣Lu咯......她跟她阿哥有些事发生.....

所以心情不好咯......

我很怀疑她喜欢她阿哥叻......

她太关心她阿哥了,已经过了妹关心哥滴截断......

谈着谈着就说到一些东西......

我求你啦明知我要放弃滴来你还要一直说他滴事哦......

还我心情就更糟了.....福你啦......

欣lU今天我们谈滴东西我可是很认真滴.....

我不是玩玩滴....虽然平时我们玩起来是真滴很疯狂,很颠,很傻.....

不过这次可不是哦......我是说喜欢,不是爱啊!!!!!

也不是你想滴那种人,是别一种啊!!!!!

不过有些事是不能勉强滴,这我很明白啦......

我们是bEsT bEsT fReN吗,从小学到现在也是......

不过今天说滴东西只是今年刚开始滴.....

哈哈......好啦,我明白滴.....不逼你啦.....

刚好跟你说完这样时,天在下雨了.....

就好像我现在滴心情酱在哭着......

也是我出去淋雨滴时候了......

等这天已经很久了,终于给我等到了......

出去淋雨真滴帮我忘掉所有滴事,让我放逐滴在哭......

几大声也没人知道.....

一方面让我忘了你......

一方面让我忘了今天bOdY cHeCk滴事......

一方面让我忘了跟欣lU说滴话......

一方面让我尽情滴哭......

雨下完了,也哭完了.....

就去冲凉了,我不管它会生病还是什么啦......

总之明天滴事没人会知道滴.......算了吧.....

就这样今天滴心情有些被雨给洗走了......

现在滴心情还好了......

还好老爸不知我淋雨,不然我死定了......

就这样咯.....很累了......

要去睡觉了......

欣lU不要介意我说滴话,你不喜欢我以后都不说不问了......

不要告诉别人我们滴话题哦......

你开心我也开心咯.....就这样吧.....

我很想在你面前和别人面前装坚强.......

装开心,装没事.....

但到最后还是露回之前滴死样......

我不想让你们知道我是装滴.....

装了后还是一样滴心情.....

每次都在勉强滴笑叻.....

你开心,我也开心.....

这句话我阿哥交我滴......

他每次都是这样说滴.....

我也希望你也会这样来,欣lU,oKaY????

给我滴bEsT bEsT fReN滴

2009-06-11T12:55:00.005+08:00

不是每个朋友都会这样滴.......
我很清楚你现在滴心情......
我也是有试过像你酱dOwN滴心情......
是真滴没有人能理解滴.......
可能你说滴对朋友是真滴会在你开心滴时候出现......
不过也有朋友也会在你伤心滴时候出现滴......

其实有时对人诚恳也会快乐滴......

不一定是悲伤滴,只是看你在为什么人诚恳吧了......

如果是不值得你对他诚恳那就算了.......

我也试过对朋友太诚恳,所以伤害到自己......

到最后心里滴伤口和伤痕是没有人能知道滴......

就算找到能诉苦滴朋友也没用滴.......

到现在心里滴伤口还没复合.......还是很痛滴......

算了吧......对人太诚恳我想我是不会再做了.......

已经受伤害了,不想再次受伤害了,我也希望你不会滴.......

如果你真滴需要帮助我会第一时间出来帮你滴......

只要你出声我会俸陪到底滴......

谁叫你是我滴bEsT bEsT fReN叻.......

如果你伤心时我会第一个时间站出来.......

陪你伤心......你要哭我陪你哭......

朋友不会在你开心滴时候才会出现滴.......

你开心,伤心,生气,寂寞,等等......我都会第一时间出来......

我会陪你开心,伤心,生气......寂寞时我会讲笑话........

总之你需要朋友时我都会出现滴.......

友情不是如廉价商品.......

是不没有用完滴时候滴......

是不能随手丢弃滴.......

是拿来珍惜一辈子滴.......

在你心情dOwN时我会疼你开心......

把那些dOwN滴心情把它给忘掉......

被家人骂时我会安慰你让你开心......

我不想再听到你说自己很丑,很笨和讨厌自己滴话了.......

你不是这样滴人......在我眼里和别人眼里你很美,很可爱,很聪明,很好人,很热心,很幽默滴人.......

我喜欢你帮我决解问题,疼我开心,陪我玩,陪我不睡觉.......

从小学到现在我有一句话想告诉你很久了.......

我很开心认识你,认识你是我滴荣幸.......

有你这个朋友是上天给我最大滴礼物.......

我想说滴话是"谢谢你"........

谢谢你从小学到现在都在帮我......

你帮我滴事已经有很多了.....我很开心......

我真滴希望你每天都开心......

你开心我也开心......

希望你有什么问题就来找我吧.....

我会帮你决解你滴问题滴.......

我不希望你每次心情都是dOwN滴.......

开心点,笑下嘛......

还有你排球有困难时我都会帮你决解.......

虽然我不是排球队滴.....

记得朋友滴宗旨包含了:

我会陪你开心,伤心,生气,寂寞等......

你开心,伤心,生气,寂寞我会第一时间帮你.......

你有困难时我会帮助你到永远.......

友情不是如廉价商品般滴.......

是没有用完滴时候滴......

是不能拿来随手丢弃滴........

是拿来珍惜滴..........

我会对你很诚恳因为我相信你不会伤害我滴......

总之我们永远都是bEsT bEsT fReN.......

10.6.2009

2009-06-10T20:13:00.011+08:00

这一天滴说要出去玩我们已经决定了好久好久........

昨天他们还一直在帮我想办法........
因为我要早回,而他们要去下一场.......
也就是去找乃颖和她妹妹......
其实我也要去滴,只不过答应爸要在四点前回来.......
只好放弃没有跟他们去tImEs SqUaRe咯......
yEr!!!!!!我超不爽滴没有去下一场.......
而他们要到晚上才回家叻.....一个字"爽"........
都是我爸害滴.....对不起,陪不到你们啊!!!!!
到最后我们决定去mIdVaLlEy.......
本来是要去看戏滴......就看那tErMiNaToR sAlVaTiOn滴......
可是我们要早走,而今天太多人看戏了......
算咯.....我们就走街.....因为我要买鞋咯......lIsA也是.....
所以我们决定十点在kTm等咯.......
到了那里,lIsA,xIn Lu和她表妹[小妹]我叫滴到了.....
到了kTm我就买票,因为我滴tOuCh N gO没钱了......
害到他们要等我哦......买了就去那里等咯......
哪里知道还没走到对面,火车到了......
我们要跑去滴,可是火车走了.......
那死xIn Lu尽然说我是第二个贤川哦.......我不是啊!!!!!
终于等到火车到了......进去咯......
在里面我和xIn Lu一直提到那贤川叻.....哈哈.....
还有xIn Lu她剪了头发......
她老爸说很像hElMeT头哦......哈哈.....真有一点像咯.....
终于到mIdVaLlEy,我们就先去戏院看可以买票吗.......
哪里知道满人了.....根本就看不到啦......
xIn Lu好失望哦.....不过,xIn Lu答应小妹去tImEs SqUaRe看咯......
然后我们就走去鞋店买鞋咯.....
刚好xIn Lu要买给她老爸鞋了......
她看到有nIkE,还有很多牌子,总之是tRaInInG鞋就是咯.......
她一直在说这个美,我要买这个......
然后看到别滴就说这个美啊!!!!!wAlAo哦!!!!
总之有nIkE滴东西xIn Lu都会喜欢滴.......
所以看到nIkE店就要走远滴啊......哈哈......
然后小妹说要吃冰淇淋哦......就去买咯......
然后她们就陪我去买鞋咯......
走了酱多间都没有适合我和我喜欢滴.......
然后就走去mIcKeY滴店咯......
哪里大减价叻,鞋都很很美叻......
我看中两双,lIsA也看中一双......
那店只有一个人所以她好忙哦......一直走来走去叻......
lIsA滴很便宜滴,所以她当场买当场换咯......
可是我们看中滴鞋没有我们滴sIzE了......
不过我们照样买了......在那边xIn Lu认识一个人......
一个马来男生,他因为学校举办滴pArTy.....
就是男生要穿女装,女生要穿男装叻.....
他就要买女装,拿不定主意,就叫我们帮他咯......
xIn Lu还答应帮他选衣服叻......
那人看到我就问他们我是不是日本人哦.....哈哈.....
我和lIsA也决定买那双鞋了......
我滴鞋有三种颜色,我买滴是灰,白和青色滴.....
他们说很适合我穿.....别一双也很美.....
就是没有带卡去lOoK卡咯......嗨......

这就是她们帮我选滴......我也很喜欢叻.....呵呵.....

好看吗????大家给我点意见吧......

然后我们就去帮那个人选衣咯......

选了好久,也试了好久都不知道那件适合他哦......

看他换好滴衣然后给评语......

我们看到一些不该看到滴东西......

不过不会告诉你们因为这是不能说滴秘密吗.......

他在试衣时,我就和小妹一起玩咯......

她很坏滴一直欺负我.....一直把我关在试衣室里面.....

那lIsA也不帮我一直在跟他阿哥sMs咯.......

害我一直给他拉来拉去,打来打去.......

然后我和lIsA就问她叫什么名咯......

他死都不要告诉我哦.....还要我跟他说我叫什么名和lIsA......

我就说我叫nIcOlE qUaN是日本人.....哈哈.....

他就说要我滴全名哦.....我死都不说....

他就问lIsA,他也满陪合我滴不说,而水我是日本人......

然后小妹突然说我叫官芷薇哦.....吓到我跟lIsA哦.....

然后我们就问回她咯,她说她姓陈名叫芷薇哦.....

吓到我们,我们很不相信她哦......哈哈.....

xIn Lu说真滴.....难得小妹跟我同名哦.....

然后到三点了,我也是时候走了,他们也是哦......

就去kTm咯,他们在对面滴站......

就这样滴,我进火车了.....里面满人......

终于找到位子,就站在那边咯......哈哈......

我发现我隔壁是个帅哥叻......

很帅很酷滴!!!!!!

侧面和帅很酷,正面更帅更酷哦!!!!!!哈哈.......

终于到kAjAnG了,火车一停我差点就掉在他怀里了......哈哈.....

终于走到我老爸店,很累哦......我滴脚很痛很累哦......

回家要去睡觉了.....

今天还很开心啦,如果有去下一场那就更爽咯.....